Fear

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Of what are you afraid? I mentioned in a post a while back that I was afraid of dentists, TERRIFIED actually. I used to be afraid of litter, the trash on the side road you see a lot. That comes from my time in Iraq, the insurgents would build bombs and hide them in trash, concrete rubble, boxes, or sometimes bury them, but the trash was most common place to hide the bombs. I am also afraid of heights, funny part though is up fairly high in a tree, or in the mountains, those things don’t bother me, but if I climb tall ladders, get on the roof of a building or on bridges and such, I get that sick feeling in my stomach. Maybe because I trust God’s building of things more than man’s.

But, what of what other things are people afraid? Oh, snakes, spiders, the dark, thunder and many things. Yet the most terrifying thing I can imagine being afraid of is that someone’s sins will come back to them. The very thing that one person did to another will be revisited on the one who did the other wrong. One of the guys I am acquainted with that works at the same hospital as I was parking at the same time as I and he got out of his truck, then locked the doors, walked all the way around it and checked both sides, twice and then, unlocked, opened and then locked the tool box that was mounted in the back. We walked in at the same time and I asked why he did all that and he said he was making sure it was all locked so that no one will steal his chainsaw that he just got a few days ago. I asked him about it and at first he was vague, then said, somewhat grinning, “I found it in the back of a pick up at Walmart.” I asked what do you mean found it? He said that he saw it sitting in the back of the truck and figured if the guy didn’t care enough to lock it up, then he wasn’t that worried, so he didn’t want it that badly so he took it. I asked, “Oh, so you don’t want someone to steal your stolen chainsaw?” Hmmm, interesting I thought. He said, “Well, no, I don’t want someone taking it.” I asked if he always worried that much about people taking things from his truck and he said yes, he did, because he would steal from a truck and if he would, he knows others would. I asked, “well, if you weren’t stealing other peoples’ things, would you be as worried about someone stealing from you?” He said, “oh probably not, honest people don’t worry about that as much.” Well, I told him that seemed to me to be a rough way to live, constantly worrying about someone stealing something he had stolen and he said, “well, maybe some.” That was a couple weeks ago and I haven’t talked to him since, bumped into him in the hall a couple times, but only nodded as we passed. I had thought he was a pretty decent guy before, but when I found that he had no respect for other’s property and had no problem stealing from someone, taking what wasn’t his, well, I just lost all respect I had for the guy.

But, stealing from someone, taking what isn’t yours or, sinning in anyway, worried that it might come back to you, that someone else will do you exactly as you did to another, that has to be a terrible fear to live with all the time. Especially when people know they have sinned. Besides that fear of having the sin revisited on them, knowing that unless they repent, seek God, and ask for his forgiveness, they will face an eternity in hell. I have to ask myself, anyone that sins to get something but then thinks they enjoy the rewards of their sins, while at the same time fearing the sins will come back to them, well, how much enjoyment will they ever truly have from their deeds? And, no matter what some people may seem to think, or how they act, they know that their wrong doings will be returned. I have sinned, I make no pretense otherwise, but I have never horribly wronged a person. My sins were more against God. Oh, there are some who say I have lied about them, but they know that is not true. There are probably some who would say I somehow wronged them, and there are some that I have, but they are few, but those were issues as I mentioned where I bailed on a buddy to go with some other guys. Those sins have been revisited on me. I wish I could say I never did wrong, ever, but I am human and had times of bad judgement and did not resist temptation. But, that is part of the human existence unfortunately. He gives us the chance to confess those sins and make ourselves right with God. But, if we continue to live in the sin, we dishonor God when we pretend to confess and surrender to Him. Especially if we do so while trying to enjoy the fruits of our sins. Trying to seek Him while still in sin and not seeking forgiveness will be of no benefit as He will not listen to those who are sinning and not seeking to change or give up the benefits of the sins.

13 I am the LORD your God, which brought you forth out of the land of Egypt, that ye should not be their bondmen; and I have broken the bands of your yoke, and made you go upright.
14 But if ye will not hearken unto me, and will not do all these commandments;
15 And if ye shall despise my statutes, or if your soul abhor my judgments, so that ye will not do all my commandments, but that ye break my covenant:
16 I also will do this unto you; I will even appoint over you terror, consumption, and the burning ague, that shall consume the eyes, and cause sorrow of heart: and ye shall sow your seed in vain, for your enemies shall eat it.

Leviticus 26:13-16

 

But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear.  Isaiah 59:2

 

Your iniquities have turned away these things, and your sins have withholden good things from you.  Jeremiah 5:25

 

But if ye will not do so, behold, ye have sinned against the LORD: and be sure your sin will find you out. Numbers 32:23

 

But, there is hope, one must confess that Jesus is the Son of God who died for their sins, confess their sins to Christ, surrender to Him and turn away from sin, then He will forgive and redeem all those who come to Him.

6 God forbid: for then how shall God judge the world?
7 For if the truth of God hath more abounded through my lie unto his glory; why yet am I also judged as a sinner?
8 And not rather, (as we be slanderously reported, and as some affirm that we say,) Let us do evil, that good may come? whose damnation is just.

Romans 3:6-8

 

22 Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:
23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
24 Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:
25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;
26 To declare, I say, at this time his righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus.

Romans 3:22-26

 

We all have some fears as that is normal and the fear exists to help us know we are at risk for some sort of harm. Failure to pay attention to those fears and the uneasy feelings that come with the fears can result in some sort of injury whether it be physical or spiritual. I will hope to be sensitive to those fears and know what I need to do to protect myself. I also know that sometimes fear, fear of change, fear of what may happen if I do certain things, fear of taking steps that should be taken will only result in my not meeting His expectations of me that I have faith that He will guide me and provide for me. I will pray that He help me know which fears to heed and which to face.

 

Lord, I thank You for showing me that while fear is good at times, there are times that fear is not a warning, but from the enemy trying to keep me from the rewards You have in store for me. I ask in Jesus name that You help me know the difference and show me the path You have for me and help me have the faith to take the steps that You want me to take to have the blessings You have planned for me and to help me know which fears are from You so I avoid pitfalls that will cause me to stray from Your desired path for my life. Give me discernment to know the truth of these things. Help me be who You want me to be in this life that I may better serve Christ. I praise You God for all the blessings, mercy and grace I have received, for the salvation Jesus paid for on the cross. I ask that You work in my heart to help be better know how to seek You. I give Christ the fears and pray I face those worrisome times with faith. Please work in the hearts and minds of loved ones and draw them to You. Teach them Your true plans for them and help them face the fears You want them to face. Bring us all closer to You.

Amen

 

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Horror Movie

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I am not a big fan of horror movies. One reason is I don’t like being frightened, life is plenty frightening at times already and I figure why try to get frightened just because. The biggest reason though, is knowing that something bad is going to happen to someone and I hate seeing that. Of course, life isn’t the movies and you don’t always have the “bad stuff is gonna happen music” playing to warn you. But, that doesn’t mean one can’t see something bad in the future for people. Sometimes, on of the other characters tries to warn them not to go into a cave, building, room or whatever; not to open a box; not to do something because something bad will happen. AND……they don’t listen and in they go into the basement or wherever and just as expected, something bad happens.

I have at times had “that feeling” that something bad is going to happen, for me or others. If I can figure out what it is, and do something to avoid it, I do if it is me. When it has been others, I try to warn them of the danger, whatever it may be, and hope they take heed. Sadly, many times I haven’t listened to myself and other times, others have not listened either. Then, its sort of a waiting game, just knowing it will happen, sometimes not even knowing what the IT is that is coming. It isn’t easy. There were times in Iraq that while on a pattil or mission I knew something was going to happen. God was telling me and I would try to prepare if I could and everytime I felt that we would be attacked. Thankfully God watched over me. I think about times I have been driving somewhere and feel lead to take a different route then find out there had been a multiple vehicle accident that I could have easily been involved in had I taken the normal route. There were times I got the same feeling when driving and never hear about a wreck but maybe that was because I listened when I felt Him tell me to go a different way.

When the feelings, burden you might say, are about others and I try to warn them to no avail, I worry and, if it seem to be a certainty, I feel some hurt for what they are going to be experiencing. Whether it be some sort of loss of a family member due to death, loss of a job due to the economy from a plant closure, soldiers going into extremely dangerous areas or other personal or emotional tragedy. I pray for the Lord’s protection and comfort for them when the time comes, but that doesn’t ease my pain. It causes sorrow for me to see people go through heartache or suffer harm. Sometimes, the people you try to help not only don’t listen, but get angry at you for caring enough to warn them. Sometimes, one cannot help others but one has to try.

17 Son of man, I have made thee a watchman unto the house of Israel: therefore hear the word at my mouth, and give them warning from me.
18 When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand.
19 Yet if thou warn the wicked, and he turn not from his wickedness, nor from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul.

Ezekial 3:17-19

 

2 Son of man, speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them, When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man of their coasts, and set him for their watchman:
3 If when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the trumpet, and warn the people;
4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.
5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul.
6 But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman’s hand.

Ezekial 33:2-6

 

14 I write not these things to shame you, but as my beloved sons I warn you.
15 For though ye have ten thousand instructors in Christ, yet have ye not many fathers: for in Christ Jesus I have begotten you through the gospel.

1 Corinthians 4:14-15

 

We are expected to warn others of danger. One does that out of concern, love, kindness. We cannot, however, make them take heed. When one warns of dangers and is not listened to, it still causes pain to see others suffer in whatever manner but God will comfort we who warn and are not heeded. I pray for those who have not listened in the past, I pray for those who will not listen in the future. I have been he who has not listened to warnings about circumstances, jobs, people, car, houses, and more times and things than I can remember. Knowing me, I will be that guy again in the future at some time or another. It’s a human frailty, at least one or me, that I trust too much and try to believe the best about things. Unfortunately, that has cost me money, time, heartache and more. But, I will continue to trust in the Lord and seek Him and His guidance but try to listen better to Him in the future.

Lord,

I praise Your holy name and worship You for all you are and have done. I thank You for the mercy and kindness You give me. More than anything I thank You for my salvation. In Jesus name I ask that You help me learn to listen better in the future and hear You when you try to warn me, not to deny me things, but to protect me from harm. I ask that You work in my heart to help me better seek You and know the heart of Christ. I pray You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones. Draw us all closer to You.

In Jesus Holey Name, Amen

 

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I walked into a pole!

pole

 

 

I was at the market yesterday to pick up a few things. While I was there, I saw some teenagers there doing whatever teenagers do. One was messing with his cell phone and not watching where he was going. One of his friend started to say “WATCH OUT!” but all he got out was “WAT” and POW, the kid on his phone walked right into a DVD display. It went crashing down as did he, scattering the DVD’s everywhere, him on top of the mess. That reminded me of a time when I was in High School, probably 15 or 16 years old at the time. I was hanging out at the mall with some buddies and as we were pretending to act busy and important, but actually hoping to meet some girls, I saw some girls about our age, doing about the same. I got distracted, she was cute, smiled at me and as I was about to try to get brave enough to go talk to her my friends started saying things like “Hey man” “Dude” but I ignored them, one made an odd sound and as I tried to turn towards him, POW, right into one of those concrete poles or pillar, whatever  you call it. Ummmm, what just happened? I didn’t get knocked out, but wow, did it humble and embarrass me. My buddies were laughing, the girl and her friends were too. Well, that wasn’t expected……or was it?

I hate to admit it, but I have possibly done things like that on more occasions than I care to admit, walking in the woods and get distracted and step into a hole or walk into a tree, other times walk straight into a door, and other similar things. WHY does that happen? Well, I get distracted or I fail to listen closely when someone tries to warn me about something and due to that, I get lumps, bumps, bruises, my ego gets hit hard too. It is pretty hard to look like a cool guy after you face plant into a pillar.  I have had friends do the same thing, be distracted and not listen when we first try to warn them and suffer the consequences. And, other times, kids being kids, sometimes people on either side of one of us would slowly steer us towards a pillar or sometimes in stores, displays of some sort, just to see what would happen. I have had that occur to me, and to my discredit, been on of those trying to get someone to walk into something. Kids are not always kind to even their friends. Honestly, adults aren’t always that kind either. Anytime it happens, there is always laughter as well as someone asking if whoever just did that is ok.

There are often warning signs in other areas that sometimes we heed, sometimes we don’t. I have one co-worker that is slow and not bad at her job, but lower quality work than others of the same education and level of licensure. Some of those in charge noticed it, but instead of acting on the warning signs, attributed it to being new at that location so no action was taken. It was compounded a few weeks later when there were marked issues that were being looked into regarding productivity and quality of care she provided. But, she had made friends with someone at the top of the chain at our facility so they refused to even take time to objectively review the information they were given. Instead, they let personal opinion sway a professional review and immediately terminated the evaluation that was being completed. This went on for several months and at this facility, within 6 months of start date they can terminate the employee without too much difficulty. But, if they fail to do so, the person becomes considered permanent and the process is 100 fold more complicated. Due to the senior officers failure to objectively review what was there and make the proper determination based on evidence instead of feelings the facility and the area in which the employee works  are having complications from that failure to act properly when the concern was first noticed. The facility essentially walked into a pole because of one person’s failure to listen and heed the warnings.

Relationships are another tricky area. I have been married for quite some time, and while I hate to admit it, it was never the type of marriage relationship I thought it should be for people. There were warning signs, at first, some were there, but subtle, and they began to be more obvious. Different things I saw that SHOULD have been huge warnings that I ignored. Various acts, which I harped about for a while, but then, finally realized it wasn’t the individual acts, it was the attitude behind the actions. Essentially, she made herself and her wants her number one priority, then second was pleasing others, then maybe me. Had it only been God in front of me, I would not have been bothered, but God was and is a lower priority than I. Like I said, at first any fights were about individual acts, but, eventually I saw that it wasn’t the acts, well, somewhat, but the mindset was the real problem, since the acts were derived from that. Oh, I am not pretending to be blameless, no one in a relationship is perfect and the blame is never all one’s burden. But, had I been alert, paying attention to the warning signs as I should have done, I would not face some of the issues that I face now.

That happens in our spiritual life as well. We can get distracted by events in life, we don’t pay attention to all that is going on around us, we get somewhat oblivious to surroundings and other circumstances and events to which we should be paying heed. We don’t watch for warnings that should tell us of approaching problems. In the case of the pole, there was a different color to the flooring as well as a different texture, I should have noticed those, even if I didn’t notice the pillar. But, I was distracted, I was not watching where my path was taking me. I headed straight into harm’s way. As I said, there are always warning signs spiritually. There are indicators that something is not as it should be, the trick is being sensitive enough to watch for those signs and to respond when we do notice them.

I had written previously about slowly drifting away from God. Work, school, family, all those things played into things that made it more difficult, well, no I should say less easy, to find times to pray and seek Christ. I started having one thing and another occur that should have given warning, but I didn’t pay attention. My Christian walk was slowing, and then stopped. Even then, warning signs that I needed to get back to God that I failed to heed. Issues at home, work, with family, school, recreational time such as fishing, golf, etc can all be cause of complications with spiritual life. Warning signs that one’s priorities are not as they should be, that they are drifting from the right path, that they are going to run into a pole spiritually because of those, or many other, factors. All should have had warning signs, failure to be alert for them, failure to be sensitive to His way for us. He puts convictions in our hearts, reminders one way or the other that we are letting Him down, and by doing so, hurting ourselves. God tries to warn us, sometimes we are too hard headed to listen. I have been just that way. I felt the convictions from Christ about not being in church or praying like I should have, but I justified it as it was needful to work to support my family, I needed to complete college so I could get into medical school, I had to work hard there to get a good residency and be a good doctor, I had to work hard at residency and had so much call that I had to do that I couldn’t make time, etc, etc. Excuses are easy to find, but most are not valid and those using them know they aren’t good justification. I know I knew they were not reasons, but only excuses and, my spiritual life suffered from that.

To whom shall I speak, and give warning, that they may hear? behold, their ear is uncircumcised, and they cannot hearken: behold, the word of the LORD is unto them a reproach; they have no delight in it.        Jeremiah 6:10

 

4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.
5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul.

Ezekial 33:4-5

 

27 To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:
28 Whom we preach, warning every man, and teaching every man in all wisdom; that we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus:
29 Whereunto I also labour, striving according to his working, which worketh in me mightily.

Colossians 1:27-29

 

Yes, He gives warnings, of spiritual dangers and consequences of failure to heed those warnings. God also gives warning of failure to listen to the truth of Christ as the Redeemer through whom we have forgiveness of our sins and salvation from eternal death but that we may have life through and with Christ.

 

Lord, I praise Your Holy Name. I thank You for the blessings You give me. For the sacrifice made by Your Son, Jesus that gave me salvation and forgiveness. I pray in Jesus name that You help me see warning signs in the future to help me avoid problems in life and especially in my spiritual walk. Help me walk with Christ as I should, help me seek Jesus. I ask that You continue to help me better serve You. I pray that You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones and others that You give them better understanding to help them avoid difficulties in their spiritual walks as well. I ask that You draw those who believe closer and the unsaved, draw them to You that they will have salvation as well. Give us all guidance on Your will and way in our lives.

Amen

 

I do appreciate everyone bearing with me as go about my life, trying to find areas I need to improve upon and I do pray my insight for my life helps someone else as well as for blessings for all. Do try to be a blessing to others as well.