The auction is underway, but other work continues.

I mentioned a few days ago that my parents’ estate auction had started, which sort of ends one chore with which I have been contending for a long time. It is a relief, but also increases stress with worrying about not receiving enough bids to offset costs, praying  for the best and leaving it in God’s hands. I know that by doing so He will make sure it generates what He knows is needed. That helps that part, but it is also somewhat disconcerting and creates some sadness since once the things are gone, some of the tangible things will no longer be here. Somewhat like losing a part of them. I give praise to the Lord for the time I had with them.

But, even though that chore is, for the most part, done there are other things that still need done: keeping the yard mowed, maintaining and repairing the house, making sure all associated expenses are kept paid, and several other things. Today, I sit in the house taking a break from yard work at their house and reflect. Happy moments, sad moments and many other experiences over the years shared with them and others. I know, that regardless of if or when I sell the house, the fact that the other things being sold in the auction will be gone soon, there is nothing that can remove those memories. I thank God for all the blessings He gave me during that time. I mourn the losses, but realize all was somehow in His plan.

So, as I prepare to finish the mowing and try to decide what other things I will take care of at the house today and tomorrow I praise Him, thank Him and look forward to whatever comes next.

 

24 For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?
25 But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.
26 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.
27 And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:24-28

 

32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Matthew 6:32-33

Lord,

I praise You and thank You for the comfort of knowing that YOU know my needs and my concerns and that You will be sure that I have all I need. I thank You for helping me learn how to seek Christ and the hunger to know and understand the heart and mind of Jesus. I pray in the name of Jesus that You keep that fire burning and help make me the vessel that You wish for me to be for Christ’s glory. Please, teach me to think more like Jesus and to see others through His eyes.

Amen

thanks for the visit, Please, have a blessed day and try to be a blessing to others.

 

 

Its almost auction time!

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I have mentioned that I have been trying to get my parents estate squared away and preparing for an estate auction. After a VERY long time it is finally almost time for that to happen. The auctioneer was here taking photographs and is now getting the descriptions for the photos written and everything finished up for the online auction. It has been a long process, at times emotionally difficult and I have had days that I was trying to work here and just felt totally overwhelmed. Praise the Lord that He helped me through those hard times and I finally got that done. I am now in a holding pattern of sorts as I can’t do any work to the house with the items in the way and other than yard work there isn’t a lot I can really get accomplished. While waiting for the auction to start and then eventually be completed I guess I am sort of reflecting. When the house is empty and their things are gone, it will be a different place. All the things, whether they have a significant monetary value did have memories attached with them. Different rooms bring one memory or another. Some marvelous, some just memories, some painful and most a combination of bitter and sweet. So many special times here with so many loved ones and in a way, those times cannot be taken away but also knowing they are not to be again brings a sting. But, that sting is tempered by the knowledge that my parents are with Christ, waiting for the rest of us to join them when the Lord decides our time on Earth is done.

I would take just a moment to remind those who still have their parents to be sure to love them and make sure they KNOW that you love them. Spend as much time as possible with them as once they are gone, that won’t be an option. Thank the Lord daily for them, whether still living or not, as they are, or were, a tremendous blessing and cannot be replaced.

Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.    Exodus 20:12

 

Lord,

I praise Your Holy Name and thank You for the parents I had and for the lessons they taught me about being a good and God fearing man. I may have faultered at times, but I have been redeemed by Christ and am now the man they had always hoped. I thank You for my salvation, for the sacrifice that Christ made to provide me with the redemption I never earned but was given. I pray that You help me be half the parent they were for me. I pray that as You brought me back to You, that You do the same for my children and other loved ones. Show us all what we need to do so we may serve You as You have planned for us to serve and show us all Your plan for us that we may correct our errors and follow the path You have set for us. I pray in Jesus Name that we all become the Christians that You wish for us to be in life.

Amen

 

Thank you all for your time today. I pray that Christ bless you all and that you are able to be a blessing to someone else as well.

The work continues

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Well, In the morning, I have a dentist appointment, and if anyone read or remembers the post about dentists, you will recall I am terrified of going to the dentist. It is just a cleaning and check up, but that still causes a lot of stress for me. After I get done there, I am heading back to the home town to try to finish up things to prepare for the estate sale to settle my parents’ estate, likely spending most of the week, if not all of it, up there. Although I have mostly finished digging through all the boxes there is still a few things to sort out, it has been trying to say the least. SO very many memories in that house, some are good, some are great, some happy, some sad.  Many of the items have memories attached as well. The different knick knacks my mom loved to have around, the musical instruments that she played, her records, CDs, cassette tapes and the seasonal decorations. She liked to decorate for holidays but none more than Christmas, some older decorations that we had when I was very young, some she bought later, little dancing Santas, strings and strings of lights, some in shapes of holly, some like reindeer, santa, or spelling out Peace, Joy, Christmas and other words. She always loved decorating for Christmas more than any other holiday. I see the various decorations and remember them hanging on the walls, doors, tree or set up outside and hear the Christmas music playing in my mind and for a while, I am right back at that time in life, things are sweet. But, then reality hits that and the bitter comes. I choose to focus on the sweet though.

I have mentioned before how bitter sweet it always is when I work up there. Thinking about the happy times, missing them and wondering about my future. Getting this close to having the sale is somewhat relieving, but somewhat disconcerting as the things will be gone and I will be that much closer to having the house ready to sell as well. That will be the last of the things from their estate that I will sell. I have some of their things I kept for memories, etc. But, the big ties to those physical reminders will be gone. The memories I will always have, but for some reason, it feels like selling the things will let them slip away easier. Even though I know that the material things are not the memories and I will always have the memories.

I thank God daily for the parents He gave me and glad for the time I had with them. I thank Him for helping me deal with all the estate issues and look forward, somewhat anxiously, to completing the tasks. I also know that they are rejoicing with Christ this very moment and I look forward to joining them in the future.

Through the emotionally difficult times, even when I wasn’t serving Him, Christ was there with me, comforting me, helping me get through the loss and all that has followed, but it surely has become much easier walking with Him. Praise Him for His faithfulness and joy He gives.

 

15 If ye love me, keep my commandments.
16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

John 14:15-18

 

But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 14:26

 

Lord,

I praise You and worship You. Thank You for my parents and the comfort You have given me since they left to be with Christ. I ask for Your continued help during the preparation for the estate sale and ask that You help make that go smoothly when it is underway and after that is completed I  pray in Jesus name that You guide me and show me Your way ahead for me. Make me sensitive to Your will for me. Please work in my heart and the hearts and minds of loved ones to draw us all to You so we may follow You.

Amen

 

I hope all have a great day and remember to Praise Him and thank God for all your blessings, and bless others as you can.

 

Reflections

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Honour thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. Matthew 19:19

I decided to write a little while taking a break while preparing my parents things for an estate sale. Definitely a hard task, physically but even more emotionally, many things to look through, decide what has value, either emotional or actual, and that so many things were not of any monetary value, but each triggers a memory of some sort. Some items, not the item itself, but because I can imagine my mother looking at the store trying to decide on this or that. She’d be thinking, “Which of these things should I get?” Sometimes, she couldn’t make up her mind and get two similar things because she liked some thing about one and a different thing about the other. My dad, if he was with her, would have grumbled and said, “Just pick one for crying out loud. You probably don’t need it anyway.” But, he would indulge her, let her get what she wanted, because that is how he was with her.

I see items that were important to one or the other of them, brings back happy memories of them. Sometimes tools my dad used or instruments my mom would play. The records, CDs, photo albums, and then finding some things that had been tucked away, in what would have been somewhere they wanted to make sure not to lose the item. They saved birthday cards, mother’s and father’s day cards, bought and hand made, report cards, certificates from school and Sunday School, so many things. Photos of kids, grandkids, other family members. Things tucked with the cards that tied the cards to memories more tightly.

Sometimes, I get painful thoughts of missing them as well, of course, when one loses their parents they miss them. Thinking back at times I get pretty sad, much with myself, for the times I disappointed them. Then, something else will trigger happier thoughts of times I made them proud. I hope that the pride was felt more than the disappointment.

I wasn’t always a great son, sometimes a lousy son, especially as a teenager. But, eventually I grew out of that phase where we think our parents don’t know anything and we know it all. Finally, I could see how much more they knew than I once thought. Part of growing up. I mourn for the time I wasted being selfish and not spending more time with them. But, when I think about the treasured time I had in the last several years, I relish each memory, so wonderful. Silly little quirks,we all have them, of theirs that used to embarrass me as a teen were what made the some wonderful and precious.

I miss them a lot some days, but also rejoice, as I am sure they are, that I stopped ignoring Christ and gave myself to him. Now, even though I miss them, I look forward to the happy reunion we will have when I see them in eternity.

Lord, thank you for my parents. I was blessed far more than I realized for many years. I thank you for the Christian foundation and the love they gave so freely. I thank you for my salvation and rejoice in your Mercies and Love. I pray that you work in my heart and mind that others will have happy memories of me when my time comes. That they will know to rejoice because I will be with you. I pray you work in the hearts of loved ones to remember the good, forget the bad and to listen to your spirit that they may walk in your path and follow your plan for them.

 

Thanks for visiting my blog. Hopefully, those with parents will make sure to treat them well, honor them as they deserve, treasure them  and those that have lost theirs will find comfort and peace.