I have no words.

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Well, not really, but sort of. Anyone that knows me knows that I am rarely at a complete loss of words. Yet, there are times as I sit down to work on the blog I have ideas for posts. Things that really seemed like great ideas and some probably were at the time, maybe they will be in the future, but I just can’t put the thoughts to words, or at least words that make me think I am saying things the way God wants me to say them. SO…..I sit, think, maybe think too hard, and still don’t have the right words or the initial thought/idea just doesn’t seem like a great idea anymore. So….I pray, ask God to give me the words, to give me thoughts on what I need to think about today. Sometimes, it seems He doesn’t want me to think, but just wants me to be thankful to Him and praise Him as He doesn’t give me great thoughts or words. Some would say that He never gives me great thoughts or words. But, I write to help me think through things and I post those writings in the hope that it may bless someone else.

I know I am not the only one that it happens to, that one is unable to find the right words, but there is something they want to say, a message that they would like to convey.

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel,

20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

Ephesians 6:18-20

So, I will praise Him, worship and ask Him for words. Words that will serve Him and glorify Christ.

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.  Psalms 19:14

I hope that the words won’t be mine, but HIS and will bless others and do good for God.

So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper [in the thing] whereto I sent it. Isaiah 55:11

 

Lord, I praise You and thank You for the many blessings You give me, for the help and guidance in troubled times, for the joy in the good times and the peace that You have given me. I rejoice in the salvation You have given me through the sacrifice of Christ on the cross who died and was resurrected to defeat death and sin. I pray in Jesus Name that You give me the right words and thoughts that I may glorify You and show others how Christ has redeemed me and so that I may be a vessel for Him as I go about my life. I ask that You draw my loved ones, me and all others to You that we may all know the wonders of the forgiveness You offer and the joy that one has in Christ.

Amen

Thank you all for the time to stop by today. I hope all have a blessed day and you find a way to be a blessing to someone else.

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Soft answers aren’t always easy!

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Yesterday I was at work and walked into see a patient and he immediately started hollering, swearing and was very loud. Now, I had NO CLUE why he was angry at me as I hadn’t had time to do anything for or to him, whether it was good or bad. I felt like telling him off, that he was out of line for swearing and hollering at me, and having him removed from the clinic. But, God has helped that part of me so that I was able to step back and calmly introduce myself and tell him I did not know what was going on but I was there to try to help him if he could explain why he had come to the urgent care. He continued with his prior behavior, but not quite so loud. Rather than do as the soldier in me wanted and tell him to shut up a minute, I let him continue. AND…it persisted, one nurse overheard him and I knew that I would be doing one of two things: walk out the door or respond to him with a harsh tone. I also knew that how I left would make a difference. Well, the nurse came and asked if there was an issue. I explained that the patient was upset and I did not have a chance to find out why, but it was obvious he needed a few minutes so I was going to step out so could speak to him and I would be back shortly to try to help him. The nurse spoke with the patient a couple minutes and had pretty much the same type interaction as I had had but also said that “the doctor will be in to see you in just a couple minutes to try to help you.”

I gave him another minute or two and then went back into the exam room. The interaction started the same, I let him vent for a moment or two and when he finally stopped talking I said, “I understand you are having quite a bit of pain and sometimes that becomes frustrating. I want to help you and will do what I can to make the pain better. It would help me if you would explain about your pain, where it is, how it started and if anything makes it better or worse.But when you yell and swear it makes it harder for us to find out what is wrong and see how I can help.” He paused a moment and then spoke again, a little less harsh. As the encounter continued he calmed further, was easier with whom to communicate and after some treatment he had less pain and the interaction improved further.

After it was all done, he felt better and while never what I would call extra nice, he was civil and explained that one nurse had apparently been rude to him and that is what “pushed him over the edge.” I apologized for the problem he had with her, finished taking care of him and he was released. Just before he left, he thanked me and apologized for his words and behavior. I could have lectured him, but simply stated I was glad I could help him and that I understood as I have had bad pain before and it can cause one to behave in ways that are not normal for them.

A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.  Proverbs 15:1

Now, this time, the interaction went pretty well however there have been times when I would have been more likely to say, “Okay, I know you are in pain, but it does not excuse such behavior or language and if you can’t stop we will have to ask you to leave.” While true, as I believe people have a responsibility to not behave as he was acting but I also realize that demanding he behave a certain way that was more appropriate would have escalated things rather than improving his behavior.

I must admit that in the past, not only would I have possibly “copped an attitude” and responded harshly to his behavior, I more likely than not would have done so. Oh, I could say it was because in my position I deserve to be treated respectfully or that because of other issues I did not respond well to such interactions. None of that matters as far as why I used to be likely to respond one way instead of the way God would have me respond but my attitude was different. I didn’t start arguments but I sure looked for excuses to take offense. I was bitter and angry all the time. The change in my behavior and attitude is not thanks to me, but to the impact that Christ has had on me. HE has changed me and my attitude, my behavior.

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

Yes, thanks to CHRIST I am a new creature. My attitude and behavior has changed. My heart is softer towards others and towards myself as well. What an amazing God we serve that can make such changes. He delivered me from sin and from myself. He replaced the anger and sadness with joy, the hate with love.

26 Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath:
27 Neither give place to the devil.
28 Let him that stole steal no more: but rather let him labour, working with his hands the thing which is good, that he may have to give to him that needeth.
29 Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers.

Ephesians 4:26-29

Those who know me: family, friend, coworkers and acquaintances have all seen the difference and some have commented about it to me, others I have overheard say things. Such is the power of Jesus on ones life.

Lord, I praise You and give Christ the glory for the changes in my life, for the ability I am learning to use soft answers when others are harsh. You have made my life better in so many ways. I pray in the name of Jesus that You continue Your work in me and help me continue to improve as I know while I am better than I was, I am not yet the person You want me to be for You. Help me to put self aside and show You in me as I go about my days. Help me be Your light in a dark world. I ask that You draw me and my loved ones to You help us know You better, to know Your will and way for us and help us take the steps that You would have us take.

Amen

 

I hope everyone has a great day and are blessed as you go about your business. Try to be a blessing to someone. As always, I appreciate your time to visit and read my ramblings.

 

 

His love endures.

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God is so amazing! I think about things I have done, and while not as bad as some, worse than others. BUT, really doesn’t matter how one sins, since sin is sin, and we are all sinners.

For [there is] not a just man upon earth, that doeth good, and sinneth not. Ecclesiates 7:20

Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:  Romans 5:12

And, because of that sin, we deserve punishment, we deserve eternal damnation, but God does not want that for us.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

He gave us Christ, so that we don’t have to be punished for the sins we commit, IF we confess those sins and ask for forgiveness.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.  1 John 1:9

23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
24 Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:
25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;
26 To declare, I say, at this time his righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus.

Romans 3:23-26

We are justified and made righteous. Not because of us, but in spite of ourselves, through the forgiveness, grace and mercy Christ paid for on the cross. Its there waiting for us…..all we have to do is ask for it. Once it is asked for, it is given….and we are made new and perfect in His sight.

O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever. Psalms 118:29 (KJV)

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever.  Psalms 136:1 (ESV)

Now, if that is NOT AMAZING, nothing comes close. He loves us with a love that endures forever. His love does not falter because we fail. He loves us in spite of our sins and has gone to the furthest of measures to give us a way to be forgiven. I stand in awe of our Lord. A love that endures all the pain we cause Him; a love that persists no matter what we do; a love that will forgive us even though we turn our backs on Him.

How would the world be if we all had that kind of love or even a fraction of it? Definitely would be a better place. I aspire to have that kind of love, that kind of forgiveness. I will strive to love the way God loves us.

A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.  John 13:34

 

Lord, I thank You for the forgiveness and love You give me. Things I don’t deserve, but You still give it. I praise Your Holy Name. I pray in the name of Jesus that You work in my heart and help me to have that kind of love. I ask that You teach me to know and live the heart of Christ. Please, draw me and my loved ones closer to You. Teach us all to have that kind of love and to have the forgiveness that You give us. Draw us all to You that we may all know the salvation You have for us.

Amen

I hope all have a blessed day and weekend. And, as always, please try to be a blessing to someone else.

Thank you for your visit.

 

The after Christmas returns.

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Christmas is over and all the retailers are preparing for the rush of people returning gifts they received. Maybe the gifts were the wrong size or color; perhaps someone received gifts from different people that are the same or they started using the gift and found out that it was defective somehow; maybe the recipient just did not like the gift, there are many reasons a person may want to return something to the store to exchange it. The good thing about this time of year is that most retailers are more willing to accept exchanges with less fuss, without the receipts and work with people to make the process less of a hassle.

God lets us exchange without hesitation, but not only after Christmas. He allows us to exchange anytime. We can exchange our anger and sorrow for joy, our hate for love, our confusion for clarity and understanding. As it says in the song I have been hearing on the radio and He  “take all that is wrong and make it right.” All we need to do is listen to Him and let Him have His will in our lives. Just follow where we know He is leading us.

If thou return to the Almighty, thou shalt be built up, thou shalt put away iniquity far from thy tabernacles.  Job 22:23

Let us search and try our ways, and turn again to the LORD.  Lamentations 3:40

Yeah, the Lord takes returns and He does so gladly. He takes us with all our faults and sins, no matter how we have used and abused our souls. He takes the damaged and defective creatures and makes us new and perfect, that is a better exchange program than any store.

For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepherd and Bishop of your souls.  1 Peter 2:25

Just as in the parable of the prodigal son, the son is not only allowed to return but is welcomed back by his father with rejoicing, open arms and without judgement or criticism, without saying “I told you so.” That is how God does when we return to the life He wants for us and turn away from sin. He accepts us; He’s glad that we are back; and He doesn’t try to tell us He told us so. He rejoices that we did return. That’s how I aspire to be, I hope I prove myself worthy.

And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.  Luke 15:20

 

22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:
23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:
24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.

Luke 15:22-24

It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.  Luke 15:32

Yes, I hope to be as the father here, as God our Father, and rejoice when a lost one returns. No other thoughts than how important it is to rejoice.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.  1 John 1:9

And they shall teach no more every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the LORD: for they shall all know me, from the least of them unto the greatest of them, saith the LORD: for I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more. Jeremiah 31:34

 

Lord, I praise You for welcoming me back when I had strayed from You. Thank You for accepting me and not dwelling on my mistakes. Thank You for the mercy and grace You showed. I pray in the name of Jesus that I learn from You and from Christ’s words about the prodigal son whose return was met with only rejoicing and no other thoughts or concerns. That when I see other’s return to You, and Your will for them, that I not say or think about anything but rejoicing on their return. That all I think, say or do, be a reflection of the joy You feel and the way You respond when one returns to You. I ask that You draw us all to You so we may all know the perfect love and forgiveness You give and that we all know that it was paid for through the sacrifice of Your son, Jesus, when He died on the cross.

Amen

 

I hope all are enjoying the last of this current year and are blessed throughout the rest of this year and all of next year. Remember to try to be a blessing to someone as you go through your days.

 

 

Christmas shopping

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I went Christmas shopping the other day and while trying to figure out gifts people I needed to buy for would like I was walking through different stores in the mall. Now I must tell you that I hate shopping. If I have to go to a store I almost always know what I need so I go, maybe compare a few similar items, make my selection and go. But I needed to buy Christmas gifts and while it would be so much easier to give money or gift cards but that doesn’t really say much other than, “here, take this I couldn’t be bothered to go shopping. So for people that know me, they realize the effort it takes for me to go shopping. I do something I hate doing for people that I love because actions say more than words or money plus if I mess up and get the wrong size or whatever they can always take it back and exchange it get a refund but they know I tried.

This is] a faithful saying, and these things I will that thou affirm constantly, that they which have believed in God might be careful to maintain good works. These things are good and profitable unto men.   Titus 3:8

I was walking through the stores and looking at different things, slowing down when something caught my eye. Several times as I walked past displays of different things I thought about people that I no longer shop for, my mother, father and others who are no longer in my life. They may not physically be in my life but they will forever be in my heart. Some of the things I saw I thought how much my mother would like it and a few things I thought would be good gifts for my dad or others. The thoughts about I should get that for my mother occurred quickly and I thought about how she would enjoy it and then reality struck and boy even after so long it still stings. Yet, death awaits us all.

Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it.  Ecclesiates 12:7

But, death and loss are a part of life. I take great comfort and joy knowing that I will be reunited with loved ones I have lost. Until then, my parents and many others are rejoicing with Christ. Until the time comes I will still miss them but Jesus has helped me to think on the happy memories and let go of the painful thoughts.

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.  Revelations 21:4

 

Dear Lord,  I praise You for all You are and I thank You for the lessons You give me, for the reminders that we have cause for joy, even when we feel some sorrow. I also thank You for parents that taught me right, even though at times I went down the wrong path and for Your faithfulness in bringing me back to where I should be. I thank You for the promise that death has been defeated and that there will be a day when there is no more sorrow. I pray in Jesus’ name that You draw my loved ones to You and pray that they all know Your love, and hopefully, in some way loved ones no longer with me will know that they are loved and missed and I am looking forward to they day we are all reunited.

Amen

 

Thanks for the visit today. I hope the Christmas season is going well and all are remembering the real reason to celebrate. Have a blessed day. And be a blessing to others.

Black Friday

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Thanksgiving is over and, even though places have already had Christmas displays out for weeks, it’s the “official” start of the Christmas shopping season. So, as I write this there are people already at stores or waiting for them to open so the can push, shove, argue and fight to spend money. People who, for a holiday season that is supposed to represent the love God had for us and sent His Son to be amongst us, are willing to show the very worst in human behavior at times. I have seen some pretty abhorrent behavior, and read about far worse than I have seen personally. Then, besides the fights for the special deals, people worry about what to buy, will they be able to afford all they purchase, that they think is what others want. Creating massive debts for themselves in vain, shallow attempts to please themselves or others.

All of that, to “honor” the birth of Christ? I know Christians that behave that way. Black Friday is definitely a dark day for many, it shows how willing people are to get up early, stand in the cold, fight crowds, and in other ways treat one another horribly all out of vanity and greed. I know what I say won’t change society, and there are some who will likely read this, agree, but were out there and will be out again in the future, behaving in a way they know is wrong, just to spend money on gifts. It saddens me to know that people are exactly as they are and even though they do these things “in the spirit of Christmas” they miss the mark. What should be about peace, love, mercy, grace and kindness very rapidly deteriorates to greed, vanity and hostility.

Maybe I am wrong, but I think not. I believe that the behavior that one hears about is completely the opposite of what Christ would have from us. The materialism, greed, maltreatment of others and near frenzy one hears about is contrary to His teaching. The fact that many Christians are out shopping and behaving as badly as others is a sad thing. They have to get the best deals, they are so worried about saving money and getting things cheap that they treat one another horribly.

A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.  John 13:34

For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.        1 Timothy 6:10

He that loveth silver shall not be satisfied with silver; nor he that loveth abundance with increase: this [is] also vanity.  Eccleasiastes 5:10

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.   Romans 12:2

 

15 Love not the world, neither the things [that are] in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
16 For all that [is] in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.
17 And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever.

1 John 2:15-17

 

Lord, I praise Your Holy Name and thank You for the blessings. I pray that people understand that the greed and materialism are the opposite of how You want us to live. That the desire for things and the love of money, along with the willingness to do anything to get things or money is not what You want from us. I thank You for reminding me that there are more important things than material items and money. I thank You for the salvation that was not obtained cheaply, that You sent Your son to die on the cross and pay for my redemption with His precious blood. Draw us all to You, teach us how to live the way that You want us to live.

Amen

 

I pray all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and that the upcoming Christmas season is blessed for all. Please take time to be a blessing to someone else today.

Conversation anyone?

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“Why don’t you want to talk?” I was recently asked. And at the time there were a lot of things I wanted to say but didn’t as I knew if I spoke my mind it wouldn’t be helpful to anyone in the long term. Oh, I could have said a lot and in the past I most likely would have and not necessarily in a kind manner. I sometimes don’t talk because I haven’t much to say and other times because I have to much to say and would likely not say them well or in a manner that would glorify or please God. So, often I write. While I do so there are times as I wonder if anything I write helps anyone else. I started this blog while going through a difficult time and I have always found that writing helps me organize my thoughts better and as I started studying the Scripture after too many years of avoiding it But I wanted my thoughts better organized. I wrote to help myself better process Scripture and to try and better understand with my own life experiences. Sometimes realizing the lessons I should have learned in the past that I am only now learning.

Yet, I also write with the hope that God uses my thoughts, lessons He teaches me, guidance He gives and inspiration from Christ to be a better Christian and thereby a better person to possibly help and bless someone else. I know He has blessed me in the process and it’s my ferverent hope that something I have written helped another.

SO, I would invite anyone that wishes to do so, to please contact me here. If you have questions, I will try to help you find (not give) the answers as I am barely able to find all the answers I need.  But, I would be happy to help others find what they need from God as best I am able.

 

Lord, I worship You and give You the glory for any good this blog may have done for others. I pray in the name of Jesus that You give me the thoughts and wisdom to write something beneficial to others and not just me. I ask that you move anyone that feels the need to talk to contact me so I may help them know You and Your love, mercy and forgiveness. I ask that you use me for Your good and that I am able to put self aside and see only what You what have me see and say. Please draw loved ones and others to You also that we may all know the blessings and forgiveness available thanks to the sacrifice Christ made in the cross.

Amen

 

Thank you readers. I appreciate your time and hope that somehow He uses me to bless someone and that all of you find a blessing during your day. Please be a blessing to someone else today.

Veterans Day

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Veterans Day is a special day for me as I reflect back on my military career this far and remember those with whom I have served. Some still alive that I stay in contact with and spent part of the day today with a very good friend from my time in Iraq. I think about others with whom I served who paid the ultimate price. Others paid a huge price and carry their wounds still. Some visible some not. I think about all those who serve now or have ever served in all the branches of the military: Army, Navy, Marines, Air Force, Coast Guard as well as those in the National Guard and Reserves. They are all brothers and sisters in arms. But those who have served in combat are those with whom I have the closest bond.  Of course those I served side by side with through intense fights are the closest of all. Non-combat veterans and Civilians will never understand that bond. There’s also a bond between combat vets from different conflicts.  I have some close friends that served in WW2, Korea, Viet NAM and elsewhere who understand the experiences we all endured. Different in ways but similar in others.

To those I served with in Ramadi and to all combat veterans who put themselves in harm’s way I thank you all with the fullest depth of gratitude I possess. You honor me by including me in your ranks.

I also thank all veterans from all branches and all conflicts who were willing to put themselves in danger and to serve our nation. I thank you.

But. There is one who did not see combat during His life and least not that type of combat. The enemy He fought was a far greater danger to humanity. IS A FAR GREATER DANGER!  And He sacrificed Himself, pure, righteous and holy, for all of us sinners. So, despite not being in an Army, Christ is the ULTIMATE VETERAN!

Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13

 

For even the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life a ransom for many.  Mark 10:45

 

15 That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.
16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

John 3:15-18

 

I have served in the Army and I’ve placed myself in harm’s way and risked my life for others. I do not consider myself a hero; I was doing what I was supposed to do and needed to do. But, I served along side some truly heroic people. But I know serve the TRUEST of heroes, Christ my Savior and Redeemer.

 

Lord God,  I praise and worship at Your feet, thanking You for so great a love as Christ had to give His life for me and others like me, for all of us sinners. In The name of Jesus I pray that all my brothers and sisters in arms come to know you and that you give them peace and comfort. Heal their wounds, the seen and unseen wounds, the physical and emotional wounds they carry. Bless them for their sacrifices. More than that bless Jesus for the ultimate sacrifice.  Please make me worthy of the price He paid.

Amen

 

Thank you all for your time. Please, thank a vet, he or she put a lot on the line for us all. Have a blessed day, and be a blessing to someone else as well.

The auction is almost over.

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The online auction is ending today and people are supposed to pick the items that they purchased Saturday. I got a message from the auctioneer saying he has had some people requesting to pick up items from the estate auction Sunday, a day later than initially planned. That wasn’t an issue for me and I let him know it was fine. We exchanged a few texts and then it sort of hit me that my parents things would be gone. I had a multitude of emotions sort of hit me but the biggest things were relief to finally get that part over and a sadness that the physical items that they had collected and accumulated over the years would no longer be there which caused some sadness. In some regards it will be like losing them all over again, definitely mixture of bitter and sweet. Of course, there were some things that held more sentimental value for me, so those things I kept, little things that bring back memories of certain holidays, special events, vacations and some things just reminders of day to day life. Some of my father’s knives and sharpening equipment, tools of his trade. He was a meat cutter for almost his entire life and holding the steel that he used brings back more memories than I can begin to list. A few of my mother’s instruments, books, knickknacks do the same with her. So, those were things that were far too precious to let go. Those are some of the things I kept. But, they are only items, the memories, those are the real treasures.

Saying goodbye to a loved one is never easy, but while they are alive, one always assumes they will see them again. But, the final good bye is hard. But, regardless of seeing the things go, even though the items are going to be gone the memories will last forever. Sometimes more in the forefront of my mind and other times less so but I will forever and always have them with me in my heart.

After this weekend, rather than going to a house that is filled with their things, I will be going to an empty structure. Then, time to try and decide the best way to deal with the house. Fix it and sell it? Sell it as is? Deal with it another way? Lots of further decisions to be made.

Through all of this I have had some very emotional times. Obviously some sadness, but the happy thoughts tied to some of the items, the joy in finding things I remember from early childhood as well as later in life. Then, sadness again as reality of the losses hits again. But, through the ups, the downs, the happy and the sad Christ has been there with me. He undoubtedly made sure that I came across some of the things that brought happy thoughts when I was feeling down. He was with me giving comfort during the challenging times. Some periods of loneliness when those I thought cared for me, and would be there to support and help me, failed to do so. Times when many loved ones would inquire, but not help with what was a pretty overwhelming task. Essentially being abandoned by those who had promised to always be there.

Yet, no matter how I was treated by those I expected more support from, God never failed me. He was there, ALWAYS. There were Bibles, some my mother’s, some my grandmother’s, grandfather’s and a few, I don’t know whose they were or how there got there. I would always take a moment when I found one of the Bibles, hold them, flip through the pages and find passages my mother or grandmother had underlined, highlighted or some other way annotated that obviously carried special meaning for them and many, many times the verses I stumbled on had a message that I needed at that particular moment; messages of comfort, peace, joy, reassurance, mercy, grace, forgiveness and many other types of messages that spoke to me and where what I needed to hear at that time. There were some very dark times emotionally, hurt from losing them, anger and hurt by those who I never expected to do so abandoned me, bitterness about that, and a variety of other things, very dark times indeed. Feeling overwhelmed, betrayed, abandoned, alone and during those dark times is when God reached out to me and reminded me that regardless of what I had done wrong, He had never left me. He was always there, waiting patiently until I called to Him.

I don’t write these things about feeling so hurt, angry, bitter, and sad during that time looking for sympathy or to try to cause guilt in others. No, I write about it to glorify my Heavenly Father that was there, my comforter, my peace giver, my salvation. I write to say that despite all the despair I felt, He was ready to take all those negative feelings from me and carry them for me. Praise the Lord for His mercy and grace!

3 Blessed [be] God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;
4 Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

 

Let, I pray thee, thy merciful kindness be for my comfort, according to thy word unto thy servant.   Psalms 119:76

 

Sing, O heavens; and be joyful, O earth; and break forth into singing, O mountains: for the LORD hath comforted his people, and will have mercy upon his afflicted.  Isaiah 49:13

 

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.     Psalms 23:4

 

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

 

This next verse means a lot, it was one that was marked in my grandmother’s and my mother’s Bibles. It is a message that we ALL need to hear at one time or another. I would say that all of John chapter 14 is a great message. But, there are so many great messages of comfort, peace and hope in the Bible.

16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

John 14:16-18

 

Yes, despite my failures, my hurting, my anger and bitterness, Christ never left me. He was there, waiting for me to let Him comfort me. What an awesome God we serve.

 

Lord, I praise You and glorify Your Holy Name. I thank You for the comfort and peace that You give me and how You mercifully forgave me my sins. I thank Jesus for the sacrifice and suffering He endured to redeem me. I thank You for taking the burdens I was carrying and replacing them with Your peace and joy. I thank You for giving me the ability to forgive those who treated me wrong. I ask that You give those I have wronged over the years the ability to forgive me as well. I pray in the name of Jesus that You continue to work in my life, to help me better learn how to seek You and know You and the heart of Christ. That You give me the ability to reach others and be a proper vessel for You. Please draw all loved ones to You that they know the peace, comfort, joy and forgiveness that awaits them. Teach us all Your will and way that we follow You as You wish us to follow.

Amen

 

Thanks so much for Your time today. I hope all have a blessed weekend and have a chance to be a blessing to someone else.

 

 

X Ray vision

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I saw a posting on social media that showed pictures about the gimmick and novelty items one could buy from ads in magazines and such in the past. One item was X ray glasses. Well, thinking on that, how they supposedly would allow the user to see through things and how if they actually believed the ad they were being deceived but people will buy a lot of things. X ray glasses got me to thinking about X rays. I look at quite a few X rays at work and unlike the glasses, they do allow me to see through things and inside a person. I am able to see bones and organs. Depending on the type of X ray or imaging study such as ultrasound or MRI used, I can see some pretty amazing detail inside the body. I can see fractures in bones, a lot of diseases of the lungs, heart, kidneys, intestines, brain, blood vessels and the list goes on. It truly amazes me how man has developed all the different technology we have in order to see inside the body.

One technology we do not have is something that allows us to see inside the minds, hearts and souls of others. I have had people tell me they can get to know someone and know their nature, whether they have a good or bad heart, if they are honest, if they are lying, and many other things about the person’s character. Well, I have tried, I thought I could understand people but nope, not so much. I have been misled often and as I reflect on such experiences I realize that I bear a lot of the blame for convincing myself that someone was what I wanted them to be and I didn’t keep my mind open to other possibilities about the character of an individual.

God can see into the heart, mind, soul and see the intention of others. He gives the gift of discernment to some. My mother had that gift. I think I have that gift, but other times I am not so sure; maybe I do, but maybe I fail to use it allowing my human thoughts and emotions to interfere with what God is wanting me to see or know about a situation or a person. There have been times that I felt that God was showing me something about a situation and I have tried to help others and I did help them see things that they needed to see. With very rare exceptions it has been when a person was talking to me about something and asked for my thoughts and after a little time to try to process the information and say a little prayer asking for God’s help in the matter I have been able to give them some things to consider. At times the things I thought were, well soft thoughts, vague impressions but not in my mind certainties, but well, I don’t know sort of impressions, sort of like some art that if one looks from a distance they can see something but if you look too closely it all becomes a little blurry. Other times I have seen things that were very clear. I find myself at times wondering if it is just me and my thoughts or if it is from God. When that occurs, is it me trying to impose my personal thoughts? Is it God truly showing me something? When I doubt what I feel about something is it because it isn’t from God or is it from God and Satan is trying to cause me the doubt so I won’t use what God is showing me? Well, THAT is what I am going to need to pray about. If it is a spiritual gift from God then I want to use it to help others so will need to ask to be better able to know it is from Him and to not have the doubt present. If it is not from God, then I hope He will show me that He has another gift for me.

Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.

1 John 4:1

But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, [even] those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil.  Hebrews 5:14

 

For the word of God [is] quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and [is] a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.  Hebrews 4:12

If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all [men] liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. James 1:5

But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know [them], because they are spiritually discerned.  1 Corinthians 2:14

 

There are a lot more scriptures that speak to discernment but I think these pretty much cover what He is trying to help me know. That I need to look harder at situations, people, myself, and ask for His help in knowing the truth of the matter.

 

Lord, I praise Your Holy Name and am so grateful for the gift of salvation that I was given. You are truly a great and awesome God. I pray in the name of Jesus that I am quicker to seek You for the wisdom and knowledge about things and that I do not allow myself to interfere with what You would have me see. If You are showing me things to help others, then I pray that You also give me the knowledge on how to share what You want them to know so that they receive the message they need. I ask that You help me know Your will and Your desire for me that I not push my way into things that are not from You. I also pray for loved ones that You draw them to You and show them the love, mercy and forgiveness that is waiting for them which You paid for by sending Your Son Jesus to die for our sins. Thank You for bringing me to You.

Amen

 

Thank you all for your time. I hope something I said blesses someone and that all are able to be a blessing to someone else today.