In an instant!

Whereas ye know not what [shall be] on the morrow. For what [is] your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.   James 4:14

 

I learned today that the Pastor’s nephew passed away very unexpectedly yesterday. He was almost 10 years younger than me and I have known the family most of my life and I am filled with sorrow for them as they go through such a shocking loss of a family member. The parents are dealing with something horrible to deal with, the loss of a child. I cannot even begin to imagine, nor do I want to imagine losing a child. Even the thought of the possibility hurts terribly. His wife and children, his sisters and brothers. The rest of the family mourning a loss on Easter Sunday. My deepest sympathies go out to his family and my most heartfelt prayers go to God that they seek comfort in Christ for He is the only one that can truly give the comfort that they need.

While the family mourns the loss of this man on earth, they are also rejoicing because they know he is now living with Christ and I know that helps give them comfort and cause to rejoice for him.

The thought of how suddenly something can happen and we or someone we know will pass away with no chance to prepare. This tragedy shows us that we must always be ready to meet God. In an instant we are of the earth and without warning can be standing awaiting judgement for our lives.

Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh.  Matthew 24:44

No one knows when his time will come to an end on Earth and not being ready every moment risks losing life eternal with God and Jesus but instead spending eternity in Hell. Instead of rejoicing with our Heavenly Father those not ready will instead be tortured until the end of time.

Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man.  Luke 21:36

Thankfully, this man was saved and served God faithfully and is even now enjoying the rewards God has for Him.

Those who do not know Christ need to seriously reevaluate their lives and go to Him and beg forgiveness of their sins. Confess their sins to Jesus and believe in Him as the Son of God and they can know they are ready for their time to face eternal judgement.

While we can be facing God in an instant and if not serving Him before death, face eternal suffering and pain; we can also, in an instant, know the deliverance from sin and death by reaching out to Christ for salvation.

That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. Romans 10:9

If you are not living the life you should, not living in a manner that is pleasing to God or a life that helps you live maximally for Jesus then you need to seek Him and ask Him to show you how to live a life of the type that glorifies Jesus. He will lead your walk if you let Him. He will put you on the path He plans for you if you give God control.

I have, at many times, not lived a life pleasing to Christ. I have lived a life that even while serving Him I still was not able to serve Him as He wishes me to serve God. I am asking Him for His hand in my life and heart that He help me have the heart and mind of Jesus and that He guide my steps to get onto the path so I can be where He wants me to be the best servant possibly be for Him.

 

For this man’s family, my most heartfelt condolences and I remind them of what they know, despite the pain they feel, there is greater cause for rejoicing as he now sits on High with the Lord. But, also that as they mourn, Christ will comfort them.

Blessed [are] they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.         Matthew 5:4

 

Heavenly Father, I praise Your Holy Name and thank You for the sacrifice Jesus made that we may all, one day, experience Your Glory if we are saved. I thank You for my deliverance and salvation through Christ’s death and His defeat of death when He was resurrected.

I pray for comfort for this man’s family, that You wrap Your loving arms around them and calm the hurt they feel in their hearts. Help them rejoice in their loved one’s salvation and that he now is rejoicing in Heaven. Be their Rock and Fortress as they deal with the loss. Fill their hearts with love, joy and peace.

Lord, I pray also that anyone who is not saved come to know you. That any who know You but are not walking in the path You wish for them would see clearly what You plan. For those with no apparent way out of whatever difficult situation they are in, that You unlock and open doors to make it simple for them to follow Your lead. I pray Lord, that You work in me that I know better the heart and mind of Christ and be a light for Him in this dark world that I may reflect His Glory.

In Jesus Name.

Amen.

 

Thank you all for you time today. I hope all are blessed, and are able to be a blessing to others as well.

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Christmas shopping

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I went Christmas shopping the other day and while trying to figure out gifts people I needed to buy for would like I was walking through different stores in the mall. Now I must tell you that I hate shopping. If I have to go to a store I almost always know what I need so I go, maybe compare a few similar items, make my selection and go. But I needed to buy Christmas gifts and while it would be so much easier to give money or gift cards but that doesn’t really say much other than, “here, take this I couldn’t be bothered to go shopping. So for people that know me, they realize the effort it takes for me to go shopping. I do something I hate doing for people that I love because actions say more than words or money plus if I mess up and get the wrong size or whatever they can always take it back and exchange it get a refund but they know I tried.

This is] a faithful saying, and these things I will that thou affirm constantly, that they which have believed in God might be careful to maintain good works. These things are good and profitable unto men.   Titus 3:8

I was walking through the stores and looking at different things, slowing down when something caught my eye. Several times as I walked past displays of different things I thought about people that I no longer shop for, my mother, father and others who are no longer in my life. They may not physically be in my life but they will forever be in my heart. Some of the things I saw I thought how much my mother would like it and a few things I thought would be good gifts for my dad or others. The thoughts about I should get that for my mother occurred quickly and I thought about how she would enjoy it and then reality struck and boy even after so long it still stings. Yet, death awaits us all.

Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it.  Ecclesiates 12:7

But, death and loss are a part of life. I take great comfort and joy knowing that I will be reunited with loved ones I have lost. Until then, my parents and many others are rejoicing with Christ. Until the time comes I will still miss them but Jesus has helped me to think on the happy memories and let go of the painful thoughts.

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.  Revelations 21:4

 

Dear Lord,  I praise You for all You are and I thank You for the lessons You give me, for the reminders that we have cause for joy, even when we feel some sorrow. I also thank You for parents that taught me right, even though at times I went down the wrong path and for Your faithfulness in bringing me back to where I should be. I thank You for the promise that death has been defeated and that there will be a day when there is no more sorrow. I pray in Jesus’ name that You draw my loved ones to You and pray that they all know Your love, and hopefully, in some way loved ones no longer with me will know that they are loved and missed and I am looking forward to they day we are all reunited.

Amen

 

Thanks for the visit today. I hope the Christmas season is going well and all are remembering the real reason to celebrate. Have a blessed day. And be a blessing to others.

The auction is almost over.

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The online auction is ending today and people are supposed to pick the items that they purchased Saturday. I got a message from the auctioneer saying he has had some people requesting to pick up items from the estate auction Sunday, a day later than initially planned. That wasn’t an issue for me and I let him know it was fine. We exchanged a few texts and then it sort of hit me that my parents things would be gone. I had a multitude of emotions sort of hit me but the biggest things were relief to finally get that part over and a sadness that the physical items that they had collected and accumulated over the years would no longer be there which caused some sadness. In some regards it will be like losing them all over again, definitely mixture of bitter and sweet. Of course, there were some things that held more sentimental value for me, so those things I kept, little things that bring back memories of certain holidays, special events, vacations and some things just reminders of day to day life. Some of my father’s knives and sharpening equipment, tools of his trade. He was a meat cutter for almost his entire life and holding the steel that he used brings back more memories than I can begin to list. A few of my mother’s instruments, books, knickknacks do the same with her. So, those were things that were far too precious to let go. Those are some of the things I kept. But, they are only items, the memories, those are the real treasures.

Saying goodbye to a loved one is never easy, but while they are alive, one always assumes they will see them again. But, the final good bye is hard. But, regardless of seeing the things go, even though the items are going to be gone the memories will last forever. Sometimes more in the forefront of my mind and other times less so but I will forever and always have them with me in my heart.

After this weekend, rather than going to a house that is filled with their things, I will be going to an empty structure. Then, time to try and decide the best way to deal with the house. Fix it and sell it? Sell it as is? Deal with it another way? Lots of further decisions to be made.

Through all of this I have had some very emotional times. Obviously some sadness, but the happy thoughts tied to some of the items, the joy in finding things I remember from early childhood as well as later in life. Then, sadness again as reality of the losses hits again. But, through the ups, the downs, the happy and the sad Christ has been there with me. He undoubtedly made sure that I came across some of the things that brought happy thoughts when I was feeling down. He was with me giving comfort during the challenging times. Some periods of loneliness when those I thought cared for me, and would be there to support and help me, failed to do so. Times when many loved ones would inquire, but not help with what was a pretty overwhelming task. Essentially being abandoned by those who had promised to always be there.

Yet, no matter how I was treated by those I expected more support from, God never failed me. He was there, ALWAYS. There were Bibles, some my mother’s, some my grandmother’s, grandfather’s and a few, I don’t know whose they were or how there got there. I would always take a moment when I found one of the Bibles, hold them, flip through the pages and find passages my mother or grandmother had underlined, highlighted or some other way annotated that obviously carried special meaning for them and many, many times the verses I stumbled on had a message that I needed at that particular moment; messages of comfort, peace, joy, reassurance, mercy, grace, forgiveness and many other types of messages that spoke to me and where what I needed to hear at that time. There were some very dark times emotionally, hurt from losing them, anger and hurt by those who I never expected to do so abandoned me, bitterness about that, and a variety of other things, very dark times indeed. Feeling overwhelmed, betrayed, abandoned, alone and during those dark times is when God reached out to me and reminded me that regardless of what I had done wrong, He had never left me. He was always there, waiting patiently until I called to Him.

I don’t write these things about feeling so hurt, angry, bitter, and sad during that time looking for sympathy or to try to cause guilt in others. No, I write about it to glorify my Heavenly Father that was there, my comforter, my peace giver, my salvation. I write to say that despite all the despair I felt, He was ready to take all those negative feelings from me and carry them for me. Praise the Lord for His mercy and grace!

3 Blessed [be] God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;
4 Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

 

Let, I pray thee, thy merciful kindness be for my comfort, according to thy word unto thy servant.   Psalms 119:76

 

Sing, O heavens; and be joyful, O earth; and break forth into singing, O mountains: for the LORD hath comforted his people, and will have mercy upon his afflicted.  Isaiah 49:13

 

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.     Psalms 23:4

 

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

 

This next verse means a lot, it was one that was marked in my grandmother’s and my mother’s Bibles. It is a message that we ALL need to hear at one time or another. I would say that all of John chapter 14 is a great message. But, there are so many great messages of comfort, peace and hope in the Bible.

16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

John 14:16-18

 

Yes, despite my failures, my hurting, my anger and bitterness, Christ never left me. He was there, waiting for me to let Him comfort me. What an awesome God we serve.

 

Lord, I praise You and glorify Your Holy Name. I thank You for the comfort and peace that You give me and how You mercifully forgave me my sins. I thank Jesus for the sacrifice and suffering He endured to redeem me. I thank You for taking the burdens I was carrying and replacing them with Your peace and joy. I thank You for giving me the ability to forgive those who treated me wrong. I ask that You give those I have wronged over the years the ability to forgive me as well. I pray in the name of Jesus that You continue to work in my life, to help me better learn how to seek You and know You and the heart of Christ. That You give me the ability to reach others and be a proper vessel for You. Please draw all loved ones to You that they know the peace, comfort, joy and forgiveness that awaits them. Teach us all Your will and way that we follow You as You wish us to follow.

Amen

 

Thanks so much for Your time today. I hope all have a blessed weekend and have a chance to be a blessing to someone else.

 

 

The auction is underway, but other work continues.

I mentioned a few days ago that my parents’ estate auction had started, which sort of ends one chore with which I have been contending for a long time. It is a relief, but also increases stress with worrying about not receiving enough bids to offset costs, praying  for the best and leaving it in God’s hands. I know that by doing so He will make sure it generates what He knows is needed. That helps that part, but it is also somewhat disconcerting and creates some sadness since once the things are gone, some of the tangible things will no longer be here. Somewhat like losing a part of them. I give praise to the Lord for the time I had with them.

But, even though that chore is, for the most part, done there are other things that still need done: keeping the yard mowed, maintaining and repairing the house, making sure all associated expenses are kept paid, and several other things. Today, I sit in the house taking a break from yard work at their house and reflect. Happy moments, sad moments and many other experiences over the years shared with them and others. I know, that regardless of if or when I sell the house, the fact that the other things being sold in the auction will be gone soon, there is nothing that can remove those memories. I thank God for all the blessings He gave me during that time. I mourn the losses, but realize all was somehow in His plan.

So, as I prepare to finish the mowing and try to decide what other things I will take care of at the house today and tomorrow I praise Him, thank Him and look forward to whatever comes next.

 

24 For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?
25 But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.
26 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.
27 And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:24-28

 

32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Matthew 6:32-33

Lord,

I praise You and thank You for the comfort of knowing that YOU know my needs and my concerns and that You will be sure that I have all I need. I thank You for helping me learn how to seek Christ and the hunger to know and understand the heart and mind of Jesus. I pray in the name of Jesus that You keep that fire burning and help make me the vessel that You wish for me to be for Christ’s glory. Please, teach me to think more like Jesus and to see others through His eyes.

Amen

thanks for the visit, Please, have a blessed day and try to be a blessing to others.

 

 

Its almost auction time!

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I have mentioned that I have been trying to get my parents estate squared away and preparing for an estate auction. After a VERY long time it is finally almost time for that to happen. The auctioneer was here taking photographs and is now getting the descriptions for the photos written and everything finished up for the online auction. It has been a long process, at times emotionally difficult and I have had days that I was trying to work here and just felt totally overwhelmed. Praise the Lord that He helped me through those hard times and I finally got that done. I am now in a holding pattern of sorts as I can’t do any work to the house with the items in the way and other than yard work there isn’t a lot I can really get accomplished. While waiting for the auction to start and then eventually be completed I guess I am sort of reflecting. When the house is empty and their things are gone, it will be a different place. All the things, whether they have a significant monetary value did have memories attached with them. Different rooms bring one memory or another. Some marvelous, some just memories, some painful and most a combination of bitter and sweet. So many special times here with so many loved ones and in a way, those times cannot be taken away but also knowing they are not to be again brings a sting. But, that sting is tempered by the knowledge that my parents are with Christ, waiting for the rest of us to join them when the Lord decides our time on Earth is done.

I would take just a moment to remind those who still have their parents to be sure to love them and make sure they KNOW that you love them. Spend as much time as possible with them as once they are gone, that won’t be an option. Thank the Lord daily for them, whether still living or not, as they are, or were, a tremendous blessing and cannot be replaced.

Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.    Exodus 20:12

 

Lord,

I praise Your Holy Name and thank You for the parents I had and for the lessons they taught me about being a good and God fearing man. I may have faultered at times, but I have been redeemed by Christ and am now the man they had always hoped. I thank You for my salvation, for the sacrifice that Christ made to provide me with the redemption I never earned but was given. I pray that You help me be half the parent they were for me. I pray that as You brought me back to You, that You do the same for my children and other loved ones. Show us all what we need to do so we may serve You as You have planned for us to serve and show us all Your plan for us that we may correct our errors and follow the path You have set for us. I pray in Jesus Name that we all become the Christians that You wish for us to be in life.

Amen

 

Thank you all for your time today. I pray that Christ bless you all and that you are able to be a blessing to someone else as well.

Happy Birthday!

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Well, tomorrow is not just my birthday, but a fellow blogger and I want to be sure to wish Unconquered Faith a Happy Birthday!  I would encourage all to take a moment and check that blog. The author does some outstanding work!

But, as I think about my birthday and what it means to me. Well, obviously, the day I was born, but I have to admit, I don’t remember it so must trust that I was born since, here I am. Other than that, lots of special birthday memories, too numerous to remember, let alone list at my age. Some very wonderful moments, started a great friendship on one birthday that ended far too soon. My birthday was also the last day I spent with my father as he was barely hanging on for a large part of the day, I sat with him and told him it was okay, he didn’t have to suffer and it was alright if he went to Jesus. But, the stubborn guy waited and minutes after midnight he passed. I still miss him after 4 years.

1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

 

Other than that, well, praise the Lord I am here to count off another year. There were many times I never thought I would make it anywhere near this age and some days, I think back and truly amazed that I did make it. Given how, well to be honest, STUPID I was when I was younger, or, perhaps wreckless but more likely some of both  (mostly stupid,) I have no doubt God was watching out for this fool.

The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them. Psalms 34:7

 

I praise God and thank Him for protecting me, at times due my actions and other times, the action of others. He has been there for me, watching over me, protecting me even at time I did not realize He was protecting me from physical or emotional harm. I have questioned Him at time, thinking He was punishing me, but later realized what He was doing wasn’t for punishment, but for my well being. I praise Him for being so much wiser than I!

 

Lord, I praise You and thank You for all the blessings, protection, comfort and guidance You have given me. All the mercies You show from Your love and grace. I ask in Jesus Name that You continue the work in me and help me become the Christian that You wish me to become. I pray for my fellow blogger, work mightily in that person’s life as well. I ask that You work in the lives of loved ones and draw them to You. Many of those I love are not following Your will in their lives and I pray You show them what You want for them and help You.

Amen.

Thank you all for stopping by and, if anyone is looking for a gift for me, I just ask that you pay it forward to someone else today, be a blessing to someone in some way. A kind word, a smile, a comforting hug, time to talk or listen, call, email or text someone you know wants to hear from you or from anyone that needs to know there are people out there that care, whatever you feel God leads you to do for another. He will bless you for your efforts as well.

I was drowning!

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While travelling over the weekend I saw all the people hauling boats to the lakes and thought about the lakes, then, rivers and creeks. Well, the way I do, my mind wanders on various related things, as I my thoughts shifted to creeks, I remembered a time when I was around 10. We were visiting family in Oregon and my dad took my brother and I to a creek near their home. Now, the creeks out there tend to be bigger than those around here. AND, they are COLD! Well, we were wading and such and ended up on the opposite side of the creek, busy looking for crawdads or something then my dad had gotten changed from trunks into his clothing and hollered for us to come on it was time to go. I could have waded straight across one shallow area, then walked down the creek bank, but I decided to go diagonal from where I was and the water went from not quite knee deep to chest deep to way deep and I started to swim. It wasn’t that far and I can’t remember if I got scared, tired, maybe a cramp but for whatever reason I couldn’t go further. I couldn’t stand up there and even though there were others floating on inner tubes, I guess they thought I was just playing because no one would help, but the next thing I knew someone had grabbed me and was pulling me to the bank. It was my dad, soaking wet clothes and all. He fussed at me, complained he had gotten everything wet, but I could tell he was scared for me. I look back, and in other instances, I was drowning other ways, financial problems, issues with work, not sure what to do, feeling overwhelmed and needing some input and he was always there, dragging me to safety. That’s how it is with Dad’s.

Then, I got to thinking how there were times I was drowning in other ways, spiritual ways, physically in danger and my Heavenly Father never failed me. More than once I was drowning and like as a child, those times were all due to my own choices or reactions to circumstances. More times than I can remember I have been in physical danger and have had His protection and I thankful that He had a ring of protection around me. I am so much more thankful that when I was spiritually drowning, lost and far from the way I should have taken that He had pity and mercy on me. That when I was drowning in whatever issues I was facing at the time, overwhelmed and felling helpless and hopeless, that He was there, just waiting to hear me call out to Him. He let me drown, pulled me out, washed me with the Blood of Jesus and resuscitated me spiritually. I the process He let the old me die and gave me a new life so that I could become what Christ would have me be, teaching me all He wishes me to know.

And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: for he shall save his people from their sins. Matthew 1:21

 

29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
30 But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
31 And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?

Matthew 14:29-31

 

25 He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.
26 If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any man serve me, him will my Father honour.
27 Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour: but for this cause came I unto this hour.
28 Father, glorify thy name. Then came there a voice from heaven, saying, I have both glorified it, and will glorify it again.

John 12:25-28

 

I was drowning, literally that one day in the creek and my father saved me. Then, at a time when I was spiritually drowning, my soul was troubled, I was lost, and at a time I was sinking even further I cried out to my Heavenly Father and Jesus saved me. I confessed my sins, confessed in my belief of Christ as the Son of God who died for my sins and was risen to defeat death and redeem my sins. Life is so much better with Christ in my life. I praise and glorify God and the mercy He had on me.

 

Dear Lord, I praise Your Name and thank You for reaching down to save me when I called out to save me from where I was and working to make me who You wish for me to become. I know that the work is no where near done, but through Your Son Christ I am getting closer daily to who I should be for Jesus. I pray You continue Your work in me and help me reach others through this blog and in my daily life. I ask You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones, bringing those who know You closer and those that do not that You draw to You so they can have salvation. I pray in Jesus name that You continue to help me get closer to the heart and Mind of Christ that I can be to others an example of Your love and mercy.

 

Amen

 

Many thanks to all for stopping by and reading. I hope there is some blessing in here for someone besides me.

 

 

 

Reflections

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Honour thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. Matthew 19:19

I decided to write a little while taking a break while preparing my parents things for an estate sale. Definitely a hard task, physically but even more emotionally, many things to look through, decide what has value, either emotional or actual, and that so many things were not of any monetary value, but each triggers a memory of some sort. Some items, not the item itself, but because I can imagine my mother looking at the store trying to decide on this or that. She’d be thinking, “Which of these things should I get?” Sometimes, she couldn’t make up her mind and get two similar things because she liked some thing about one and a different thing about the other. My dad, if he was with her, would have grumbled and said, “Just pick one for crying out loud. You probably don’t need it anyway.” But, he would indulge her, let her get what she wanted, because that is how he was with her.

I see items that were important to one or the other of them, brings back happy memories of them. Sometimes tools my dad used or instruments my mom would play. The records, CDs, photo albums, and then finding some things that had been tucked away, in what would have been somewhere they wanted to make sure not to lose the item. They saved birthday cards, mother’s and father’s day cards, bought and hand made, report cards, certificates from school and Sunday School, so many things. Photos of kids, grandkids, other family members. Things tucked with the cards that tied the cards to memories more tightly.

Sometimes, I get painful thoughts of missing them as well, of course, when one loses their parents they miss them. Thinking back at times I get pretty sad, much with myself, for the times I disappointed them. Then, something else will trigger happier thoughts of times I made them proud. I hope that the pride was felt more than the disappointment.

I wasn’t always a great son, sometimes a lousy son, especially as a teenager. But, eventually I grew out of that phase where we think our parents don’t know anything and we know it all. Finally, I could see how much more they knew than I once thought. Part of growing up. I mourn for the time I wasted being selfish and not spending more time with them. But, when I think about the treasured time I had in the last several years, I relish each memory, so wonderful. Silly little quirks,we all have them, of theirs that used to embarrass me as a teen were what made the some wonderful and precious.

I miss them a lot some days, but also rejoice, as I am sure they are, that I stopped ignoring Christ and gave myself to him. Now, even though I miss them, I look forward to the happy reunion we will have when I see them in eternity.

Lord, thank you for my parents. I was blessed far more than I realized for many years. I thank you for the Christian foundation and the love they gave so freely. I thank you for my salvation and rejoice in your Mercies and Love. I pray that you work in my heart and mind that others will have happy memories of me when my time comes. That they will know to rejoice because I will be with you. I pray you work in the hearts of loved ones to remember the good, forget the bad and to listen to your spirit that they may walk in your path and follow your plan for them.

 

Thanks for visiting my blog. Hopefully, those with parents will make sure to treat them well, honor them as they deserve, treasure them  and those that have lost theirs will find comfort and peace.