Christmas shopping

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I went Christmas shopping the other day and while trying to figure out gifts people I needed to buy for would like I was walking through different stores in the mall. Now I must tell you that I hate shopping. If I have to go to a store I almost always know what I need so I go, maybe compare a few similar items, make my selection and go. But I needed to buy Christmas gifts and while it would be so much easier to give money or gift cards but that doesn’t really say much other than, “here, take this I couldn’t be bothered to go shopping. So for people that know me, they realize the effort it takes for me to go shopping. I do something I hate doing for people that I love because actions say more than words or money plus if I mess up and get the wrong size or whatever they can always take it back and exchange it get a refund but they know I tried.

This is] a faithful saying, and these things I will that thou affirm constantly, that they which have believed in God might be careful to maintain good works. These things are good and profitable unto men.   Titus 3:8

I was walking through the stores and looking at different things, slowing down when something caught my eye. Several times as I walked past displays of different things I thought about people that I no longer shop for, my mother, father and others who are no longer in my life. They may not physically be in my life but they will forever be in my heart. Some of the things I saw I thought how much my mother would like it and a few things I thought would be good gifts for my dad or others. The thoughts about I should get that for my mother occurred quickly and I thought about how she would enjoy it and then reality struck and boy even after so long it still stings. Yet, death awaits us all.

Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it.  Ecclesiates 12:7

But, death and loss are a part of life. I take great comfort and joy knowing that I will be reunited with loved ones I have lost. Until then, my parents and many others are rejoicing with Christ. Until the time comes I will still miss them but Jesus has helped me to think on the happy memories and let go of the painful thoughts.

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.  Revelations 21:4


Dear Lord,  I praise You for all You are and I thank You for the lessons You give me, for the reminders that we have cause for joy, even when we feel some sorrow. I also thank You for parents that taught me right, even though at times I went down the wrong path and for Your faithfulness in bringing me back to where I should be. I thank You for the promise that death has been defeated and that there will be a day when there is no more sorrow. I pray in Jesus’ name that You draw my loved ones to You and pray that they all know Your love, and hopefully, in some way loved ones no longer with me will know that they are loved and missed and I am looking forward to they day we are all reunited.



Thanks for the visit today. I hope the Christmas season is going well and all are remembering the real reason to celebrate. Have a blessed day. And be a blessing to others.

He WILL Help!


Some days are a struggle. Everyone has such days, struggling with jobs, lack of jobs, lack of money, decisions, marriages, family issues, problems with cars and houses. Something is always going to happen that causes stress, worry, fear, indecision, health, loss of loved ones. The list is endless. Today was one of those days for me. A couple things going on, one is trying to make the final decision about the job offer I have mentioned previously. Its a great job for a lot of reasons, but there are reasons to consider not taking it. I will have to say that I have struggled a lot with the decision. I have spent a lot of time in prayer and seeking God’s guidance. The decision will have to be made soon and every time I think I know what I should do, something makes me question whichever choice I am thinking I should take. I was at a convenience store and overheard a lady talking about her Grammy being in hospice and not sure how long she would last and what all was going on with that. Well, for one thing, that is what I called my grandmother and I thought about her. Then, I thought about my parents, sitting with them as their lives were slipping away. It sort of opened old wounds. I needed a word from God to remind me that He would help me through all the things with which I am dealing. So, I looked at King James Bible online and this was the verse of the day. And, it was just what I needed to hear. Regardless of the hardships, sorrows and pains of life He will help me. So many amazing promises, promises that He KEEPS! What a glorious God we serve.

Lord, I praise You and thank You for giving me the words I needed to hear. I am constantly in awe of all You are and how you work in my life. I thank You for the sacrifice of Your Son so my sins would be forgiven. I ask in the name of Jesus that You help me make the right choice, about the job, about everything and that You help me keep Christ first in my life. I pray for this woman and her family as they deal with a difficult circumstance, please be with them and give them comfort. I also pray that You continue to draw me and my loved ones to You that we all know the salvation You hold out for us. Show us all the true paths in our lives You have planned for us and any that are on the wrong path help them find the true path and show them the way to Your light.



I truly appreciate those who read my blog and I hope that I manage to help someone get a blessing. Please, be sure to try to be a blessing to someone else today.




The Porch Light



I like to find similes, ways that real life experiences can help me better understand the Bible and how to apply it to my spiritual life. Maybe sort of like parables that Jesus used to teach people things. It just makes the concepts easier to understand for me. Some of these concepts, thoughts, should be and often are, things I learned as a child. Maybe similar lessons in Sunday School, maybe the same concepts taught other ways. Regardless if the lessons He teaches me are the simple ones, the more complicated, or if He is reteaching me things that I know, but sort of put way in the back of my mind and He wants them brought more to the front; He does remind me, teach me and I praise God that He is able to use so many things to show me what He wants me to know and think about.

And, the most recent of many lessons.





The other night I went outside after it was dark and as I went out the door I turned on switch for the porch light, but it didn’t come on. So, I step back inside because, well, maybe I only thought I turned it on, but nope, switch was on and realized the light bulb had burned out. I went inside, got a new bulb and using a flashlight to see I replaced it. When the new bulb came on I noticed the cobwebs in the fixture as well as all the bugs that had been trapped and consumed. First thought was that I needed to clean it, but decided to wait until it was light outside so I could see better. Then, I went about what I was going to do initially (which sadly when I get distracted by one thing, I forget what I was doing to begin with and end up not getting it done, is that age? Naw, always been that way, maybe some attention deficit. BUT, I digress.) I finished and as I was going back inside I noticed that the new light was surrounded by insects, moths, gnats, flies, mosquitoes and whatever else. I thought about how many had been attracted to the light before and ended up consumed. As I thought about it more, I thought about my recent post on spider webs.

I thought about how the insects were attracted to the light. I always wondered why they do that. Why do moths fly to and into flames sometimes? Is it for warmth? Security? Do they for some reason think the colors are some sort of flower and as such food for them? I may have learned in school what instinct draws moths to the flames, but I can’t recall why at this time and as I think about it, I don’t believe they have definitive proof of why, only different theories. But, they are attracted to the light, the flame, and once there, despite what, they often find themselves either in a flame, trapped in a web or in some other way consumed and destroyed by what attracted them.

Further thoughts and the analogy of humans being drawn to what we think is light often leads to our destruction. Why are we lured by the false light of the world? What is it about the human psyche that makes us want things that, from a different perspective, one should know would lead to our spiritual demise? Why do we worry so much about the things of this world such as money and the things it can buy like fancy clothes, new cars, fancy houses and such? What instinct or desire is it that inexplicably lures us into destruction? All over media whether that be television, radio, magazines, billboards are advertisements that promise so much and cause us to want those things. Cars, clothes, perfume, alcohol, and endless other things. Trying to obtain these things, or obtaining and proceeding in the lifestyle necessary to obtain and “enjoy” all the things promised in the ads takes us down paths that in the long run are not in our best interests.

I see others lured into situations and lifestyles that as I look from a distance it is easy to see is going to be harmful to them in the long run. I know in hindsight I have taken the wrong path while seeking a false light. One gets so fixated on things that one is not able to see what is truly happening. We are being lead to our destruction. We compromise ourselves, our values, knowing initially that something is wrong, but somehow we justify our actions as we seek whatever we are seeking, whatever light is attracting us at the time, that we ignore the dangers until we are pulled in too closely and either get consumed by the flames, trapped in a spider’s web close to the light or some other way are destroyed as we try to move as close to the light as possible. Maybe we think we will only “almost get burned” and can enjoy whatever benefit we think we can derive from whatever light we are focused on at the time. But, it ends up the closer we get, the harder it is to resist and we realize too late we are unable to escape. Things that for whatever reason held such promise for us end up causing our destruction.

Well, as I think further, part of the lesson He was teaching me is that one needs to be ever vigilant, to be on the look out for possible traps, for things that may attract us and lure us into the flames.

13 For such are false apostles, deceitful workers, transforming themselves into the apostles of Christ.
14 And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light.
15 Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also be transformed as the ministers of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their works.

2 Corinthians 11:13-15


But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition.   1 Timothy 6:9


Of course, it would even be better if, rather than get trapped or nearly trapped, we watched and avoided the temptations of the world that is not always the case.   But, if we remember that there are many perils and temptations, watch for them and constantly seek Him, those things are easier to avoid.

Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.  Matthew 26:41


But, being warned, sometimes we still fall victim. When we find ourselves in these situations, where we thought we were proceeding to something good, when we realize maybe it isn’t so good for us but that we can still escape without harm but then too late find we are not so easily able to escape, when we are first tempted by something, we have someone that WILL BE THERE to help us escape and save us from our foolishness. Regardless of how close we get, when we know we need Him, He will save us.


There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.   1 Corinthians 10:13


Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I also will keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon all the world, to try them that dwell upon the earth.   Revelations 3:10


He is there to help us fight temptation and to deliver us from the temptations that we find ourselves too weak to resist. When we are lost because of that, He will deliver us. What an amazing Lord!


If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9


It is far too easy to get attracted to “the porch lights” of the world and then it can be difficult to escape but He can help us avoid those things and should we not avoid them He will save us from whatever trap we find ourselves in. All one needs do is ask Him. Such a simple concept but at the same time difficult for humans and that’s why we need Him. I have been caught up in things and very nearly destroyed by them but He has saved me from them and is working to save me from others. Praise God for His faithful dedication to me and all of us.



Lord, I praise You for all the life lessons, the simple things that You use to help me better unsderstand what You want me to learn. I praise You for the grace, mercy and forgiveness You give me. I pray in the Name of Jesus that You continue to teach me, help me understand, use me to help others see You. Help me better understand the heart and mind of Christ. I pray that You help me know the temptations in life that will draw me away from You and lead to my destruction. Help me recognize that the lifestyle I as a human may want is the wrong thing and will only serve to harm me and my Christian walk. Show me what things I am allowing me to move towards the fire, towards damnation and eternal death. Help me walk away from those things and know how to seek the true Light of Christ. Thank You for my salvation and the forgiveness that Jesus earned for me. Please, draw us to You and teach us all the mercy You have for us.



Thank You all for the visit and time to read my post. I hope something is helpful and blesses someone. Sometimes, He teaches me things in strange ways. But, I do hope that all are blessed somehow today, and are a blessing to others in the process.


Hear the word!



Hearing is important for a lot of things, conversations, sermons, music, and in my job it is critical. I don’t mean just processing the sounds and words, but truly HEARING the intended message. Many more times than I wish I have heard the words, but not what the person saying them meant. That applies to both spoken and written word. In the context of this particular verse and the overall messages of Christ’s ministry and the Bible; hearing, COMPREHENDING and BELIEVING the truth of those messages is vital so one may have that life eternal that Jesus promises us. Many, many times I sat in church as a child and an adult, hearing the words but not truly understanding. Oh, I believed, but often as I read the Bible now, I find that I am better understanding what God wants to tell us and not just the superficial messages that are derived from a quick read and minimal thought. I also see now that we must not only understand and believe the true messages behind things, but we must incorporate the teachings into our daily life. I am working to be better at that, I am better at it than I was, but still have a long way to go. I praise Him for His patience and understanding as I work through scripture to learn what He is teaching me and LIVE what He is teaching me. Every day He makes me a better person, a better Christian and I am far from where He wants me to finally be in my Christian walk but I’ll get there, one step at a time.

Lord, I praise You for the message, mercy, forgiveness, redemption and salvation I have been given. I thank Jesus for His sacrifice on the cross, that He freely accepted the suffering He went through because of my sins. In the name of Jesus I pray that You continue to work in my heart to show me the true message You are trying to tell me, the real lesson You want me to learn and how to incorporate those lessons in my life. I pray You continue to work with me to show me Your plan for my life, help me learn to put myself aside so that I don’t seek what I want for myself, but what You want for me. Teach as all Your true plan and remove those things in our minds that cause us to not see your plans, remove the obstacles, selfishness and worldly mindset that clouds our judgement and teach us to see with the eyes of Christ. Draw us all closer to You and Your perfect plans. Bring my loved ones close to You and give them the desire to know You and seek Your forgiveness so they may have the salvation You offer.



I hope all are having a blessed weekend and that you are able to be a blessing to someone else as well.



The Loss



One of my cousins quite recently lost her husband very unexpectedly due to a heart attack. I don’t know all the details, but I do know that she is hurting from the loss and of course, when I heard about it I felt very bad for her and her immediate family and it brings to mind various losses I have dealt with over the years. Each person we lose, whether to death or change in circumstances brings about sadness and mourning. Each time, due to the relationship the pain is different. Then, one considers not only the current loss and the void that is left immediately, but what about the loss of potential, of the future, of the expectations one had for the rest of their life and the impact of the loss on that? There is no doubt that each loss is painful, each loss is devastating in it’s own way, leaving one feeling not only the loss, but lost as well, as they try to adapt to the change in their life. We all have and will face losses of other in our lives. Most will lose many times in our lives, such is inevitable.

I have dealt with losses, parents, family, friends; sometimes to death, other times to changes life brings about which at times have been due to my actions and at other times, due to the actions of others. I have at one point or another dealt with each loss differently. Some I have dealt with in far more graceful manners than I would have ever expected myself capable of doing so. Some, well, some I have dealt with far less gracefully. Sometimes feeling sorry for myself, sometimes feeling angry, sometimes not really feeling anything at all, just numb but when that has happened eventually feelings come out and it seem that those times it is even more difficult to deal with than had I done what I should have and gone to Christ for comfort, peace and giving Him the pain I was feeling rather than trying to cope with things on my own. He is SO MUCH MORE capable of helping me through those trying times than I am able to on my own.

Blessed [are] they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. Matthew 5:4


He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds. Psalms 147:3


For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him.  1 Thessalonians 4:14



He will heal our broken hearts. Christ will be there to give us peace and comfort.


Thou wilt keep [him] in perfect peace, [whose] mind [is] stayed [on thee]: because he trusteth in thee.   Isaiah  26:3


We serve an AMAZING GOD! He will give comfort and peace.


6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.    Philippians 4:6-7


For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time [are] not worthy [to be compared] with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8:18


Yes, we will all suffer loss, that is a fact of human existence but a fact of Christian existence is that we will not suffer the losses alone. No matter what other family members and friends do to try to comfort us, they cannot give the peace and comfort that Christ can give us.


Lord, I praise Your holy name. Thank You for the blessings You give me. I pray in Jesus Name that You be with my cousin and the rest of her family during this difficult time. I pray for your loving arms to be wrapped around them to comfort them and give them peace. Replace their sorrows with Your joy. Not only them, but all others that are suffering loss I ask that You comfort. Those who do not know You, draw to You that they may know the peace, comfort and salvation You have for them.



Thank you all for your time. Please, remember that no matter how dark things look, God is there for you. Look to Him and He will bless you. When He does, please, be a blessing to someone else.












Well, it’s June, and in years past, it was always a good month, school was out, my birthday is in June and things were good. Also my mother’s and grandmother’s birthdays were in June. On my mother’s birthday was the day we held my father’s funeral. So, bittersweet, but that was also the anniversary of the day they had met so it meant something to her to have it that date.  There have been other good things besides birthdays, Father’s Day as I got older. Medical School Graduation too. Some other things that were once happy, but now mostly painful. But, just a few years ago, I lost my dad in June, minutes after midnight, the day after my birthday. And, some other situations at the time have made it far more painful than anything else. But, regardless of the pains, sadness, some happiness from those things, the thing I have now helps all the pain. He is my comforter in painful times. He is my light in the darkness. Christ is my Redeemer and Salvation.


But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 14:26


26 But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:
27 And ye also shall bear witness, because ye have been with me from the beginning.

John 15:26-27


Lord, I praise and worship You. I thank You for sending the comforter for me, for filling me with Your Holy Spirit and for the sacrificing Your own Son that I might have the comfort, redemption and salvation. I pray You keep working in my life and in the lives of loved ones, especially those that are lost. Show us all Your way in our lives. In Jesus Name I pray for these things and for continued help with better learning how to seek Christ and help becoming a better servant of You.




I appreciate your time reading my posts. Please be a blessing to others today.

I was drowning!


While travelling over the weekend I saw all the people hauling boats to the lakes and thought about the lakes, then, rivers and creeks. Well, the way I do, my mind wanders on various related things, as I my thoughts shifted to creeks, I remembered a time when I was around 10. We were visiting family in Oregon and my dad took my brother and I to a creek near their home. Now, the creeks out there tend to be bigger than those around here. AND, they are COLD! Well, we were wading and such and ended up on the opposite side of the creek, busy looking for crawdads or something then my dad had gotten changed from trunks into his clothing and hollered for us to come on it was time to go. I could have waded straight across one shallow area, then walked down the creek bank, but I decided to go diagonal from where I was and the water went from not quite knee deep to chest deep to way deep and I started to swim. It wasn’t that far and I can’t remember if I got scared, tired, maybe a cramp but for whatever reason I couldn’t go further. I couldn’t stand up there and even though there were others floating on inner tubes, I guess they thought I was just playing because no one would help, but the next thing I knew someone had grabbed me and was pulling me to the bank. It was my dad, soaking wet clothes and all. He fussed at me, complained he had gotten everything wet, but I could tell he was scared for me. I look back, and in other instances, I was drowning other ways, financial problems, issues with work, not sure what to do, feeling overwhelmed and needing some input and he was always there, dragging me to safety. That’s how it is with Dad’s.

Then, I got to thinking how there were times I was drowning in other ways, spiritual ways, physically in danger and my Heavenly Father never failed me. More than once I was drowning and like as a child, those times were all due to my own choices or reactions to circumstances. More times than I can remember I have been in physical danger and have had His protection and I thankful that He had a ring of protection around me. I am so much more thankful that when I was spiritually drowning, lost and far from the way I should have taken that He had pity and mercy on me. That when I was drowning in whatever issues I was facing at the time, overwhelmed and felling helpless and hopeless, that He was there, just waiting to hear me call out to Him. He let me drown, pulled me out, washed me with the Blood of Jesus and resuscitated me spiritually. I the process He let the old me die and gave me a new life so that I could become what Christ would have me be, teaching me all He wishes me to know.

And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: for he shall save his people from their sins. Matthew 1:21


29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
30 But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
31 And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?

Matthew 14:29-31


25 He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.
26 If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any man serve me, him will my Father honour.
27 Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour: but for this cause came I unto this hour.
28 Father, glorify thy name. Then came there a voice from heaven, saying, I have both glorified it, and will glorify it again.

John 12:25-28


I was drowning, literally that one day in the creek and my father saved me. Then, at a time when I was spiritually drowning, my soul was troubled, I was lost, and at a time I was sinking even further I cried out to my Heavenly Father and Jesus saved me. I confessed my sins, confessed in my belief of Christ as the Son of God who died for my sins and was risen to defeat death and redeem my sins. Life is so much better with Christ in my life. I praise and glorify God and the mercy He had on me.


Dear Lord, I praise Your Name and thank You for reaching down to save me when I called out to save me from where I was and working to make me who You wish for me to become. I know that the work is no where near done, but through Your Son Christ I am getting closer daily to who I should be for Jesus. I pray You continue Your work in me and help me reach others through this blog and in my daily life. I ask You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones, bringing those who know You closer and those that do not that You draw to You so they can have salvation. I pray in Jesus name that You continue to help me get closer to the heart and Mind of Christ that I can be to others an example of Your love and mercy.




Many thanks to all for stopping by and reading. I hope there is some blessing in here for someone besides me.




I am terrified of dentists.


I was looking over my calendar, seeing what things I have on my list to do, work, appointments, events that are planned and such and realized that I have an appointment with the dentist in a couple weeks, just a cleaning and exam, not having any issues right now so I don’t expect to get any bad news. But, just seeing that on my calendar was enough and I started to get anxious. I am terrified of dentists. TERRIFIED! I have some fears about life, we all do. But, with dentists it is a true phobia. Even when it is time for a simple cleaning my stomach gets in knots, my heart races and I get close to cancelling the appointment. I don’t, but I get upset. To fully explain how bad my phobia is I will tell about issues in Iraq I experienced.

Maybe a month before we deployed I had a mandatory dental exam, to make sure no big issues that would compromise my ability to do my job and therefore interfere with the unit as a whole. All was fine. I had, maybe 6 months earlier had an exam and I had to get a filling. All seemed fine, but then after I was there maybe 2 or 3 months I started to get some pain in the tooth I had gotten a filling in several months before. Within just a few days, it worsened. Then, while on a 4 day mission, way out away from our camp it suddenly got much worse. I carried a variety of drugs in addition to the standard medical supplies in my aid bag so I started some antibiotics but that did not help. At the end of that day it was still getting worse, much worse. I used a mirror and saw that an abscess had formed there and while antibiotics would eventually treat it, this was bad enough that it needed drained. So, I numbed it a little, had someone hold a flashlight so I could see and using a large needle made openings to drain the infected abscess. Several of the soldiers were gathered around to see, because, well, morbid curiosity I suppose, and for some reason, some people like to be grossed out. After draining it, continuing the antibiotics and using anti-inflammatory medication to help with the swelling, it calmed down and by the next day was pretty tolerable. After returning to camp after the mission was over I went to the dentist. Come to find out that the filling was not done exactly right and because of that the cavity had worsened and the infection developed. The dentist removed that cavity, used special filling material with antibiotic in it and refilled the tooth. After he was done, I asked how I did and he said, “You did great, hardly moved at all.” I explained I was terrified to go to the dentist and was almost paralyzed from fear one there. Now, this dentist was a friend and commented, about that. I told him it was different when just being friends than when getting treated. He asked if it was really that bad and I told him, “Dude, I would rather go to a gunfight than see the dentist.” He chuckled and we planned another visit in a couple weeks to remove the temporary antibiotic filling he had placed, do a root canal and do a proper filling.

Fast forward to the day of the appointment, done with the antibiotics, pain and swelling were gone. I was doing better. I went to go to the appointment, even though terrified, because I knew I needed to get the work done. I get to the area he used for treatment. He had just gotten done with someone else, and as the assistant was cleaning up from that and getting the instruments and all ready for me I began to remove my blouse (Army term for shirt/top) and pistol belt. I had just sat down in the chair and then on the radio I had to carry they were calling me. I got the radio and answered. They said, “Doc, we have multiple units in contact and the Old man (Commander) is getting ready to head out and said to call to see if you were coming.” I looked at the chair and answered, “Roger that, I will be in front of Charlie Med (our medical unit.)” Told them where my body armor, helmet and aid bag were located and started getting ready, put my pistol belt and blouse back on. And told the dentist that I had to go, I had a gunfight. He laughed, thinking I was joking, and when I started to walk out he followed, saying that it was funny at first, but he needed to get the work done as he had others scheduled after me. I explained I wasn’t joking. He continued to follow along, getting a little more and more frustrated and a little angry. We got to the area where I was meeting the guys, and in a minute or so they pulled up. The driver told me my gear was behind him so I opened the door, checked to make sure what I needed was there and started putting on the body armor and such. The dentist’s mouth dropped open, then, obviously surprised, he finally said, “you really are going to a gunfight.” I said, “I told you I’d rather go to a gunfight than the dentist.” And we left.

Several hours later we returned, I went to Charlie Med to check on casualties, those I had sent in as well as any of which I was unaware. As I was doing so, Matt (the dentist) saw me and came up. He talked about how he couldn’t believe I went out like that, left the safety of camp (that was a relative safety as we received mortar and rocket attacks often) and went out to known battle. I told him that was how bad my phobia of dentists was and besides, I had been in maybe a dozen gunfights and never been hurt, but I had been in his chair a couple times and got hurt every time I had been there. Then, he said, “well, that may be true, but leaving to go out, not getting the stuff done today just means we have to reschedule it. That root canal and filling have to be done.”

SO, by not facing the fear all I did was delay the inevitable. It was a temporary victory, shallow and incomplete. Yeah, like the song I hear on the radio, “Fear I a liar.” Fear kept me from getting something done that really needed done. I rationalized that the better option was to expose myself to extreme danger and possibly death, just to avoid something that was necessary to face. I was shot at, there were explosions very near me and had God not place a guardian angel there to protect me, I would have been injured or died, of that I have no doubt. I eventually got the work done and still felt fearful when going for the dental work but I was able to get myself there and am better for it.

And he said, Lay not thine hand upon the lad, neither do thou any thing unto him: for now I know that thou fearest God, seeing thou hast not withheld thy son, thine only son from me. Genesis 22:12


Ye shall not therefore oppress one another; but thou shalt fear thy God: for I am the LORD your God. Leviticus 25:17


But I will forewarn you whom ye shall fear: Fear him, which after he hath killed hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, Fear him.  Luke 12:5


Men and brethren, children of the stock of Abraham, and whosoever among you feareth God, to you is the word of this salvation sent.  Acts 13:26

Now, not all fear can cause problems, there are healthy fears. Most humans fear snakes, spiders, darkness, strange locations or strangers for some examples. Those fears protect us. Snakes can be venomous and make us ill or kill us if we are bitten, the same is true for spiders. There can be dangers associated with darkness, we don’t see things well and can step into a hole, trip over something, or come across a dangerous animal that attacks us. Strangers and strange locations have huge unknowns and can be dangerous to our well being.  More importantly the fear of God and of eternity in Hell. All healthy fears that we should heed, the last most of all.


And the LORD appeared unto him the same night, and said, I am the God of Abraham thy father: fear not, for I am with thee, and will bless thee, and multiply thy seed for my servant Abraham’s sake. Genesis 26:24


Ye shall not fear them: for the LORD your God he shall fight for you. Deuteronomy 3:22


Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Psalms 23:4


Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows. Matthew 10:31


But, there are other fears that are not so healthy, they may not be unnatural, but are not necessary. Fear of change, fear of financial impact of some possible actions, fear of the response of others to our actions, fear of being alone are some of the possibilities. Fear of change, financial impact, affect on others of some possible actions has kept me from doing something that I have needed to do for many, many years. So, rather than face that fear, I did nothing and I still have to deal with the very same situation, the same need to make the changes continues. I and many others have avoided change because of fear.

But, what about the fear of things such as being alone or the financial impact of living on one income? Well, sometimes one stays in a marriage to avoid facing those fears, other times people rush to get married to avoid it, knowing deep inside whether they admit it to themselves or not, sometimes rationalizing, like I did with the dentist, that doing one thing was better than the option all the while I knew, oh how I knew, deep inside I was not helping myself by avoiding the dental work and was taking the risk of things getting worse, yet I did something that placed me in a bad situation to avoid it. Yet, people do strange things rather than face fear and deal with it as they should, by praying, studying the Bible and seeking Christ.

And, as I said, I did eventually face the fear of the dentist, overcame that and took the steps I needed to for my long term benefit. I am currently facing fears, taking steps to address them and changes for my own good, my emotional and spiritual are being made. I praise God that He has helped me face my fears and deal with them in the necessary ways.


Lord, I come to You today, with praise in my heart, glorifying You and Your son. I thank You for the mercies and blessings You give me and for the lessons You are teaching me to improve my walk with Christ. I ask You help me know which fears to have and which to face, to give me the strength and courage to face the fears I need face to follow Your plan for my life. I pray You will work in not just my heart, but the hearts of loved ones and others, show them which fears to face, which to heed. Draw us all closer to You, work in our minds that we choose to seek You and to hear what You wish for us in life and that we not let fears keep us from Your will for us. I thank You for my salvation and pray for Your forgiveness of sins I may commit.



Thanks for your time. I hope there is someone out there that gets a blessing or needed information about facing fears in life and seeking God to help better discern what they need do about facing those fears. I hope all have a very blessed day and are blessings to others as we go about our day’s activities.



The Outcome


Sometimes, in medicine, there are patients that you can’t help as much as you would like. The injuries they sustained or the disease they have has progressed to the point that nothing humanly possible, despite all the surgical options, medications, and other treatments that are options just won’t be enough to change the outcome, the results. Maybe they were in some sort of accident, the have severe facial injuries that, regardless of how good the surgeon is, they cannot prevent a certain amount of scarring, sometimes significant scarring. Other times, someone has such bad pneumonia, lung disease, bad heart disease, kidney disease, cancer or other disease that is just so far progressed, that no matter how hard one tries, all the best specialty doctors can’t change the outcome. The patient will not recover, the doctors cannot restore their health, undo the disease and there will be what we sometimes call, a negative outcome. We try to say things in clinical language, not because we do not want to admit that sometimes our best is not good enough and patients die. Our best efforts are inadequate. We try to prepare the patient and family for what is going to happen. Sometimes they listen and do their best to make sure their loved one is made comfortable, they spend time with them, trying to make suffering as minimal as possible and to try to squeeze just a little more time with their family member. Surrounding the patient with those they love most. But other times they get upset, angry, frustrated and look to see who can be blamed. Some blame the doctors, some blame themselves or other family members, some blame the patient for not doing better taking care of themselves, not getting medical care sooner, etc, some blame God.

Sadly, sometimes people do not get better, sometimes you cannot change the outcome. I have at times, seen things that made me know what the outcome was going to be, although the exact time line for the final outcome is uncertain. I have had people; patients, family members of patients and others, get upset because I am in a situation where the information they are given is not what they want to hear. Some listen, understand and do what they should to prepare while others completely ignore the information they are given and proceed like things are just fine, then act shocked with the exact result they were told to expect occurs. Some spend a lot of time praying, waiting for a miracle. Miracles do happen, but often, for reasons only God knows, He does not always change the outcome. People all respond differently to that fact.

Responding to those who are saddened by the news they are given is easy, you let them talk, you listen, you give them a shoulder to cry on if they need it. But how does one respond to those that get angry when given accurate information? Well, sometimes, all you can do is give them time to process the information and sometimes they realize that what they were told is correct, and nothing will change the final result. So that they can mentally and emotionally prepare themselves when the process continues to the inevitable end. Sometimes you have to let them unleash their anger on you for giving them the news they didn’t want to hear and, if when the final outcome occurs, sometimes they will still want to lash out at someone and if you are the person that receives their wrath and anger, even if not at fault, you let them.

Whatever the response by the various individuals, all one can do is try to provide them emotional and spiritual support, prayers, and be willing and able to try to help them deal with the final results. Try to offer comforting words, that shoulder when needed, a passage of scripture that will help comfort them. And, most of all, forgive how they acted before and love them with the love of Christ, despite if they attacked you directly either physically or verbally; or maybe they started talking bad about you to others; whatever they may do otherwise because of their emotional response to the unpleasant true information you needed to give them.

I have shewed you all things, how that so labouring ye ought to support the weak, and to remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he said, It is more blessed to give than to receive. Acts 20:35


Now we exhort you, brethren, warn them that are unruly, comfort the feebleminded, support the weak, be patient toward all men. 1 Thessalonians 5:14


But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 14:26


Lord, I glorify and worship You. I pray that You reach out to those who are facing unpleasant circumstances, possible loss of loved ones or whatever painful event. Give them comfort and reassurance that You have control of the situation and You will never leave or forsaken them. I pray that You help me be the support others need when such times come along. Give me the wisdom to know what You need me to do to help them and glorify You. Please help me be the vessel of Christ that I want to be and that You have planned for me. I pray that You reach out to loved ones, draw them to You, give them the thirst and hunger for Christ and a need to find and serve Him. I ask You show them Your way for their lives. I thank You for my salvation and all the blessings You give me and all the grace You show me.

In Jesus name,



Thanks all for visiting today. I hope something in here is helpful to at least one person, that they see there is comfort, hope and salvation for them. That regardless of what life throws at them, the losses they endure, Christ is faithful and true and will be all they need.

Have a wonderful day and don’t forget, be a blessing to any and all you can.