The auction is almost over.

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The online auction is ending today and people are supposed to pick the items that they purchased Saturday. I got a message from the auctioneer saying he has had some people requesting to pick up items from the estate auction Sunday, a day later than initially planned. That wasn’t an issue for me and I let him know it was fine. We exchanged a few texts and then it sort of hit me that my parents things would be gone. I had a multitude of emotions sort of hit me but the biggest things were relief to finally get that part over and a sadness that the physical items that they had collected and accumulated over the years would no longer be there which caused some sadness. In some regards it will be like losing them all over again, definitely mixture of bitter and sweet. Of course, there were some things that held more sentimental value for me, so those things I kept, little things that bring back memories of certain holidays, special events, vacations and some things just reminders of day to day life. Some of my father’s knives and sharpening equipment, tools of his trade. He was a meat cutter for almost his entire life and holding the steel that he used brings back more memories than I can begin to list. A few of my mother’s instruments, books, knickknacks do the same with her. So, those were things that were far too precious to let go. Those are some of the things I kept. But, they are only items, the memories, those are the real treasures.

Saying goodbye to a loved one is never easy, but while they are alive, one always assumes they will see them again. But, the final good bye is hard. But, regardless of seeing the things go, even though the items are going to be gone the memories will last forever. Sometimes more in the forefront of my mind and other times less so but I will forever and always have them with me in my heart.

After this weekend, rather than going to a house that is filled with their things, I will be going to an empty structure. Then, time to try and decide the best way to deal with the house. Fix it and sell it? Sell it as is? Deal with it another way? Lots of further decisions to be made.

Through all of this I have had some very emotional times. Obviously some sadness, but the happy thoughts tied to some of the items, the joy in finding things I remember from early childhood as well as later in life. Then, sadness again as reality of the losses hits again. But, through the ups, the downs, the happy and the sad Christ has been there with me. He undoubtedly made sure that I came across some of the things that brought happy thoughts when I was feeling down. He was with me giving comfort during the challenging times. Some periods of loneliness when those I thought cared for me, and would be there to support and help me, failed to do so. Times when many loved ones would inquire, but not help with what was a pretty overwhelming task. Essentially being abandoned by those who had promised to always be there.

Yet, no matter how I was treated by those I expected more support from, God never failed me. He was there, ALWAYS. There were Bibles, some my mother’s, some my grandmother’s, grandfather’s and a few, I don’t know whose they were or how there got there. I would always take a moment when I found one of the Bibles, hold them, flip through the pages and find passages my mother or grandmother had underlined, highlighted or some other way annotated that obviously carried special meaning for them and many, many times the verses I stumbled on had a message that I needed at that particular moment; messages of comfort, peace, joy, reassurance, mercy, grace, forgiveness and many other types of messages that spoke to me and where what I needed to hear at that time. There were some very dark times emotionally, hurt from losing them, anger and hurt by those who I never expected to do so abandoned me, bitterness about that, and a variety of other things, very dark times indeed. Feeling overwhelmed, betrayed, abandoned, alone and during those dark times is when God reached out to me and reminded me that regardless of what I had done wrong, He had never left me. He was always there, waiting patiently until I called to Him.

I don’t write these things about feeling so hurt, angry, bitter, and sad during that time looking for sympathy or to try to cause guilt in others. No, I write about it to glorify my Heavenly Father that was there, my comforter, my peace giver, my salvation. I write to say that despite all the despair I felt, He was ready to take all those negative feelings from me and carry them for me. Praise the Lord for His mercy and grace!

3 Blessed [be] God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;
4 Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

 

Let, I pray thee, thy merciful kindness be for my comfort, according to thy word unto thy servant.   Psalms 119:76

 

Sing, O heavens; and be joyful, O earth; and break forth into singing, O mountains: for the LORD hath comforted his people, and will have mercy upon his afflicted.  Isaiah 49:13

 

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.     Psalms 23:4

 

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

 

This next verse means a lot, it was one that was marked in my grandmother’s and my mother’s Bibles. It is a message that we ALL need to hear at one time or another. I would say that all of John chapter 14 is a great message. But, there are so many great messages of comfort, peace and hope in the Bible.

16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

John 14:16-18

 

Yes, despite my failures, my hurting, my anger and bitterness, Christ never left me. He was there, waiting for me to let Him comfort me. What an awesome God we serve.

 

Lord, I praise You and glorify Your Holy Name. I thank You for the comfort and peace that You give me and how You mercifully forgave me my sins. I thank Jesus for the sacrifice and suffering He endured to redeem me. I thank You for taking the burdens I was carrying and replacing them with Your peace and joy. I thank You for giving me the ability to forgive those who treated me wrong. I ask that You give those I have wronged over the years the ability to forgive me as well. I pray in the name of Jesus that You continue to work in my life, to help me better learn how to seek You and know You and the heart of Christ. That You give me the ability to reach others and be a proper vessel for You. Please draw all loved ones to You that they know the peace, comfort, joy and forgiveness that awaits them. Teach us all Your will and way that we follow You as You wish us to follow.

Amen

 

Thanks so much for Your time today. I hope all have a blessed weekend and have a chance to be a blessing to someone else.

 

 

The auction is underway, but other work continues.

I mentioned a few days ago that my parents’ estate auction had started, which sort of ends one chore with which I have been contending for a long time. It is a relief, but also increases stress with worrying about not receiving enough bids to offset costs, praying  for the best and leaving it in God’s hands. I know that by doing so He will make sure it generates what He knows is needed. That helps that part, but it is also somewhat disconcerting and creates some sadness since once the things are gone, some of the tangible things will no longer be here. Somewhat like losing a part of them. I give praise to the Lord for the time I had with them.

But, even though that chore is, for the most part, done there are other things that still need done: keeping the yard mowed, maintaining and repairing the house, making sure all associated expenses are kept paid, and several other things. Today, I sit in the house taking a break from yard work at their house and reflect. Happy moments, sad moments and many other experiences over the years shared with them and others. I know, that regardless of if or when I sell the house, the fact that the other things being sold in the auction will be gone soon, there is nothing that can remove those memories. I thank God for all the blessings He gave me during that time. I mourn the losses, but realize all was somehow in His plan.

So, as I prepare to finish the mowing and try to decide what other things I will take care of at the house today and tomorrow I praise Him, thank Him and look forward to whatever comes next.

 

24 For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?
25 But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.
26 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.
27 And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:24-28

 

32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Matthew 6:32-33

Lord,

I praise You and thank You for the comfort of knowing that YOU know my needs and my concerns and that You will be sure that I have all I need. I thank You for helping me learn how to seek Christ and the hunger to know and understand the heart and mind of Jesus. I pray in the name of Jesus that You keep that fire burning and help make me the vessel that You wish for me to be for Christ’s glory. Please, teach me to think more like Jesus and to see others through His eyes.

Amen

thanks for the visit, Please, have a blessed day and try to be a blessing to others.

 

 

Its almost auction time!

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I have mentioned that I have been trying to get my parents estate squared away and preparing for an estate auction. After a VERY long time it is finally almost time for that to happen. The auctioneer was here taking photographs and is now getting the descriptions for the photos written and everything finished up for the online auction. It has been a long process, at times emotionally difficult and I have had days that I was trying to work here and just felt totally overwhelmed. Praise the Lord that He helped me through those hard times and I finally got that done. I am now in a holding pattern of sorts as I can’t do any work to the house with the items in the way and other than yard work there isn’t a lot I can really get accomplished. While waiting for the auction to start and then eventually be completed I guess I am sort of reflecting. When the house is empty and their things are gone, it will be a different place. All the things, whether they have a significant monetary value did have memories attached with them. Different rooms bring one memory or another. Some marvelous, some just memories, some painful and most a combination of bitter and sweet. So many special times here with so many loved ones and in a way, those times cannot be taken away but also knowing they are not to be again brings a sting. But, that sting is tempered by the knowledge that my parents are with Christ, waiting for the rest of us to join them when the Lord decides our time on Earth is done.

I would take just a moment to remind those who still have their parents to be sure to love them and make sure they KNOW that you love them. Spend as much time as possible with them as once they are gone, that won’t be an option. Thank the Lord daily for them, whether still living or not, as they are, or were, a tremendous blessing and cannot be replaced.

Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.    Exodus 20:12

 

Lord,

I praise Your Holy Name and thank You for the parents I had and for the lessons they taught me about being a good and God fearing man. I may have faultered at times, but I have been redeemed by Christ and am now the man they had always hoped. I thank You for my salvation, for the sacrifice that Christ made to provide me with the redemption I never earned but was given. I pray that You help me be half the parent they were for me. I pray that as You brought me back to You, that You do the same for my children and other loved ones. Show us all what we need to do so we may serve You as You have planned for us to serve and show us all Your plan for us that we may correct our errors and follow the path You have set for us. I pray in Jesus Name that we all become the Christians that You wish for us to be in life.

Amen

 

Thank you all for your time today. I pray that Christ bless you all and that you are able to be a blessing to someone else as well.

Shabby chic versus upcycling

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I continue my work at my parents house and as I do so I have to try to determine if things have value so I will be able to decide if it should be included in the estate auction or what other options I have for those that will not likely sell.  Things like cracked mirrors, very old but damaged picture frames, antique glassware that is ornate but have little chips, vintage furniture such as china cabinet and many other things that aren’t perfect but may be of value to someone.  One cabinet is made well out of good wood. It’s sturdy but the varnish is cracked and peeling in places, there are stains on the shelves from who knows what. I was considering trying to refinish it or paint it in how’s it may be worth more. Then as I was talking with the auctioneer about dealing with the estate to get input how to better prepare for it I showed that cabinet he very quickly said, “DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT REFINISHING IT! There are a lot of people that want the shabby chic items and if you paint it or something they won’t be interested.”  I hadn’t considered that.

We continued the talk and I mentioned the chipped glassware and I asked for his thoughts about those items and showed him a couple and asked if I should just toss them out. “NO WAY!” He said and went on to explain that there a lot of artists and others that love to use those kind of things to make something out of it to sell or for their own enjoyment. He showed a couple photos of things that people had made from items with more damage than the things I showed him.

I thought about that some after he left, and also thought about how we can either be shabby chic or upcycled Christians. Well, that isn’t accurate, because shabby chic pretty much one accepts the flaws and then tries to keep them present, not make them better. They may clean it up and perhaps touch up the finish, maybe try to keep them from getting in worse shape, but they don’t try to really improve things, just not get worse. So, while some people may be shabby chic Christians, they are not really good Christians if they are pleased to accept their flaws and sins, keep them, not change.

 

1 Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness; considering thyself, lest thou also be tempted.
2 Bear ye one another’s burdens, and so fulfil the law of Christ.
3 For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth himself.
4 But let every man prove his own work, and then shall he have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another.
5 For every man shall bear his own burden.

Galatians 6:1-5

 

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God wants us to remove our imperfections and make us better. He wants to improve us. He will completely remove the imperfections, sometimes altering the person to give them a new purpose. He will grind, smooth and polish until the imperfections are gone and the person can serve Him. He will make us beautiful and perfect for His will and use. If we let him. He forgives us, completely, for our sins if we confess that Christ is His Son, Died for our sins and defeated death. That we confess we are sinners and through Christ, God forgives, redeems us and removes those imperfections. Just like that, He upcycles us.

17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
18 And all things are of God, who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation;
19 To wit, that God was in Christ, reconciling the world unto himself, not imputing their trespasses unto them; and hath committed unto us the word of reconciliation.
20 Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ’s stead, be ye reconciled to God.
21 For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.

2 Corinthians 5:17-21

 

15 For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision availeth any thing, nor uncircumcision, but a new creature.
16 And as many as walk according to this rule, peace be on them, and mercy, and upon the Israel of God.
17 From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus.

Galatians  6:15-17

No, I don’t want to be shabby chic, I want to be upcycled. I want to be something new. I want Christ to remove the chips and imperfections, make me into something beautiful in His sight that He can use to draw others to Him. He did that already. I am human and have continued struggles but He has done so much and made tremendous progress. Oh, He aint done yet, but He continues to work in me and my life.

 

Lord, I praise and worship You. I thank You for the day, the little lessons You teach me and how You bless me every day. I ask You continue the work on me to make me into the servant You need. I pray that You work on loved ones as well. Draw them nearer to You, help they who do not know You to find You. I pray for those struggling with difficult decisions in their lives. Help them know what choice You want them to make. Help me with my decisions as well. Thank You for my salvation and the sacrifice Christ made so I may have it.

In Jesus Holy Name

AMEN

 

Thanks to all for your time. I hope something in this is a blessing to someone. Have a great day and try to bless at least one person today.