Horror Movie


I am not a big fan of horror movies. One reason is I don’t like being frightened, life is plenty frightening at times already and I figure why try to get frightened just because. The biggest reason though, is knowing that something bad is going to happen to someone and I hate seeing that. Of course, life isn’t the movies and you don’t always have the “bad stuff is gonna happen music” playing to warn you. But, that doesn’t mean one can’t see something bad in the future for people. Sometimes, on of the other characters tries to warn them not to go into a cave, building, room or whatever; not to open a box; not to do something because something bad will happen. AND……they don’t listen and in they go into the basement or wherever and just as expected, something bad happens.

I have at times had “that feeling” that something bad is going to happen, for me or others. If I can figure out what it is, and do something to avoid it, I do if it is me. When it has been others, I try to warn them of the danger, whatever it may be, and hope they take heed. Sadly, many times I haven’t listened to myself and other times, others have not listened either. Then, its sort of a waiting game, just knowing it will happen, sometimes not even knowing what the IT is that is coming. It isn’t easy. There were times in Iraq that while on a pattil or mission I knew something was going to happen. God was telling me and I would try to prepare if I could and everytime I felt that we would be attacked. Thankfully God watched over me. I think about times I have been driving somewhere and feel lead to take a different route then find out there had been a multiple vehicle accident that I could have easily been involved in had I taken the normal route. There were times I got the same feeling when driving and never hear about a wreck but maybe that was because I listened when I felt Him tell me to go a different way.

When the feelings, burden you might say, are about others and I try to warn them to no avail, I worry and, if it seem to be a certainty, I feel some hurt for what they are going to be experiencing. Whether it be some sort of loss of a family member due to death, loss of a job due to the economy from a plant closure, soldiers going into extremely dangerous areas or other personal or emotional tragedy. I pray for the Lord’s protection and comfort for them when the time comes, but that doesn’t ease my pain. It causes sorrow for me to see people go through heartache or suffer harm. Sometimes, the people you try to help not only don’t listen, but get angry at you for caring enough to warn them. Sometimes, one cannot help others but one has to try.

17 Son of man, I have made thee a watchman unto the house of Israel: therefore hear the word at my mouth, and give them warning from me.
18 When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand.
19 Yet if thou warn the wicked, and he turn not from his wickedness, nor from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul.

Ezekial 3:17-19


2 Son of man, speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them, When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man of their coasts, and set him for their watchman:
3 If when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the trumpet, and warn the people;
4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.
5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul.
6 But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman’s hand.

Ezekial 33:2-6


14 I write not these things to shame you, but as my beloved sons I warn you.
15 For though ye have ten thousand instructors in Christ, yet have ye not many fathers: for in Christ Jesus I have begotten you through the gospel.

1 Corinthians 4:14-15


We are expected to warn others of danger. One does that out of concern, love, kindness. We cannot, however, make them take heed. When one warns of dangers and is not listened to, it still causes pain to see others suffer in whatever manner but God will comfort we who warn and are not heeded. I pray for those who have not listened in the past, I pray for those who will not listen in the future. I have been he who has not listened to warnings about circumstances, jobs, people, car, houses, and more times and things than I can remember. Knowing me, I will be that guy again in the future at some time or another. It’s a human frailty, at least one or me, that I trust too much and try to believe the best about things. Unfortunately, that has cost me money, time, heartache and more. But, I will continue to trust in the Lord and seek Him and His guidance but try to listen better to Him in the future.


I praise Your holy name and worship You for all you are and have done. I thank You for the mercy and kindness You give me. More than anything I thank You for my salvation. In Jesus name I ask that You help me learn to listen better in the future and hear You when you try to warn me, not to deny me things, but to protect me from harm. I ask that You work in my heart to help me better seek You and know the heart of Christ. I pray You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones. Draw us all closer to You.

In Jesus Holey Name, Amen


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The Foundation and construction.




There are a few houses being built along my route to work that I have been noticing as I drive. Some are smaller more modest homes, others are larger, fancier houses. What I have noticed that is that some have been in the process of being built for a longer time period but all are nearing completion at the same time, in fact one group that seemed to be moving slower is actually going to be finished first. Some of the homes in both categories had a lot of ground work done, the contractors brought in the equipment and dug did a lot of prep work before putting in the foundations. Some of the homes are being built on concrete slabs, others are being built with basements. But, they were grading the lots, using heavy equipment to pack the soil and make sure any areas that were filled were allowed time to settle and then they went back and repacked the soil before starting to build. The other places, different contractors came in, quickly graded the lots, dug foundations and started pouring concrete.

The first bunch of contractors, that took time to prepare the lots well, seem to be taking just a little longer building the houses also. Watching the work it seems the lumber is a little better quality, the carpenters seem to be more experienced and don’t seem to be rushing about as they work, but taking their time, doing it right. The houses on the lots that were not prepared as well seem to be using poorer quality lumber and the workers are always in a rush and I have seen a few times where they put up walls, then the next day, the walls were back down and being rebuilt. It made me think of an expression I have heard, “Rushed is quick, quick is sloppy, sloppy is slow.” Usually followed by examples and then followed by, “Slow is smooth, smooth is accurate, smooth is fast.” If you rush and hurry, don’t do things quite right, you have to redo them and then you end up finishing behind schedule while if you take your time, do things right, you finish on or ahead of schedule.

I also noticed that the same companies were building in a different subdivision 5 or 6 years ago. Some of the houses have had a lot of repair work, foundation repair and other things that shouldn’t need to be done so soon. But others have had no need for any of the repairs. I am pretty certain that the contractor that hurried in and didn’t prepare the sites properly is the one that built those houses that have had to have things repaired.

Watching how they have been working, the progress, the need for one group to repeatedly redo the same work, seeing one group carefully do their work while the other rushes and then redoes things is in makes me think how important it is for us to be more methodical about how we approach life and our Christian walk. Taking time to prepare the site, lay a good foundation, use good material and build it right. Spend time in prayer and study of the Bible, not just say, “Thanks God, Have a good day.” and occasionally read a verse or two. Actually seek God, study the Word, spend time praising, worshipping and praying to the Lord and talk with Him, try to find His guidance in your life rather than saying something is God’s will just because one has the opportunity to move forward quickly.

But, there are a lot that will go to church on Sundays, but no prayers, reading of Bible or seeking Him during the week. They don’t have a strong foundation, and when things do not go well, they don’t have the spiritual foundation with Christ and His Word to fall back onto it. Or, they try to do things themselves and not trust in God to keep His promises to us. I have been in both categories. I have at times rushed, hurried things, had things not go well and then have to redo things. I have also learned to take things a little slower, do things the best way possible and prepare myself. I have been the Christian in the past that only showed up to church but no time with God between church services and that caused me to not have the strength in Him to maintain my walk with God. I have learned to seek Him, to spend time praying, reading His word, asking for His guidance and giving Him time to actually give me answers and not succumbing to various self motivated actions. He has and is blessing me for my diligence.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33


Seeking Him, His will, His way first and He will add that which we need.

Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass. Psalms 37:7


Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. Ecclesiastes 7:8


I have tried to rush things, not be patient, not seek God first. I worried too much about the moment and did not think about the greater plan that Christ has for my life and took steps at times that required me to step back and redo things. I am redoing things correctly this time, being patient, seeking God first, then I will let Him add unto me all the things I need.


Lord, Praise You. You are a mighty and glorious God who shows us love and kindness we do not deserve. I thank You for teaching me how to live a better life and helping me learn better how to seek You. In Jesus Name I pray that You continue Your work in me, make me into the servant You desire of me. Lead my steps, allow me to be sensitive to Your leading and not try to take steps on my own. I ask You to draw others to You as well, my loved ones especially, that they learn Your will and way, that they know when to slow down and do things in the manner You want. Help lead those not saved to the salvation they need.



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The fender is there for a reason.



Every now and again I see vehicles, usually off road vehicles such as jeep, pick ups and SUVs, with the fenders cut down or removed or sometimes they put HUGE, WIDE tires on them for driving in the mud and such with the tires protruding far past the fenders. Sometimes I see them driving on wet streets and they are throwing water and such everywhere. It gets all over the sides of their vehicles and throws the dirt, water, mud and other stuff onto other cars as well. I always sort of shake my head, at least in my mind, and wonder why they do such things. I wonder why they don’t have the fenders in place or put extensions on to protect their car and other vehicles from damage as well. It also creates safety concerns. If they are throwing water and mud onto their windshields and onto other cars it can cause issues with visibility and that can contribute to accidents. The fenders are there for a reason.

Well, as I thought on that, I realized that we need spiritual fenders too. We have them, but a lot of folks won’t use them or they try to, but do things that extend beyond the protection of the fenders. I have at times had my fenders off and years ago, when I was walking with Christ started slowly pushing things with my actions that would be like putting progressively wider and wider tires on a vehicle. Each step was a little further and further beyond the protection of Christ, not because He wouldn’t have forgiven me, but because I pretended what I was doing “wasn’t that wrong” so did not ask for forgiveness. Eventually, I “removed the fenders” and wasn’t following Him. I placed myself where I suffered the consequences of sinning. Mud thrown onto my windshield such that my visibility was impaired and I further lost my way. Every little rock and pebble that was in the road I travelled was thrown onto my spiritual vehicle, chipping the paint and damaging the windshield.

After these things the word of the LORD came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram: I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great reward. Genesis 15:1


Happy art thou, O Israel: who is like unto thee, O people saved by the LORD, the shield of thy help, and who is the sword of thy excellency! and thine enemies shall be found liars unto thee; and thou shalt tread upon their high places. Deuteronomy 33:29


Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy gentleness hath made me great. 2 Samuel 22:36


But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head. Psalms 3:3


Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.  Ephesians 6:16


But, I didn’t need to deal with all those issues. God is our fender, our SHIELD, against all the things the world and enemy throw at us. When I stopped trying to be as I was, confessed my sins to Christ, the Son of God who died for our sins and was risen, I was forgiven. He put my fenders back on, He gave me a shield to protect me. Not only that, but he restored the finish and made me like new. What a MIGHTY and MERCIFUL God we serve!

Lord, Praise You for Your love, mercy and grace. For all that You are. I thank You that I have been made as new, that You gave me back my spiritual fenders when I received salvation. I pray that You continue to work in my life and help me better seek You, seek Your way in my life. Help me keep the fender in place and to not foolishly extend beyond the protection of those fenders. Help me better know the mind of Christ and the love He has for us all. I pray in Jesus name that loved ones be drawn closer to You and Your truths and that You show them all Your will and plans for them. Help us all to better learn to hear You when You speak to us and not be deceived by the enemy. Give us all the shields we need to be protected. I ask that You be with me today at work that I may be a blessing to others and I show You through me words and actions.



Thanks for the visit. I hope someone gets some benefit from my thoughts. I wish they were deep profound thought and words, but little things help remind me of what I need to do in my walk with Christ. I hope all have a blessed day and are able to be a blessing to at least one other person.

The tumbler.

before and after2

When I was young, my grandmother got into rock hounding, hunting for various kinds of rock to polish and use for different things. Started out small agates, colored rocks that can be put into a tumbler with some abrasive compound and over time the rough spots get smoothed out, gradually changing to finer and finer compound that is less abrasive, making them smoother and eventually shiny. Sometimes she made earrings, necklaces or other jewelry and other times she just put them into jars and such to display. But, the difference was amazing. The rocks were rough, ugly, and plain but with the right effort they became beautiful new things.

That is exactly how God does with us if we ask Him to do so and let Him. He has done so me and while I am not to the spiritual place He plans for me yet He has made so many improvements and is still working on me. When I was at a point I was just one of many stones strewn about, not really something spectacular in His sight He saw the potential and knew that when I was ready He could make me into something beautiful and useful for Christ. I called out to Him and He delivered me. Jesus picked me up and put me into His tumbler. I went through situations that were trying, and as I was tumbling around he started removing the rough edges then started polishing me through my study of the Bible and prayer. Christ has made me something much more pleasing in His sight and while I still have some tumbling/learning and growing to do I feel He is very pleased with the results so far. I still need polished, I think that humans never get to that state of perfection, there will always be blemishes of some sort, but oh how I have begun to take on the shine of Jesus in my life. Some will look more critically to try to find every flaw they may find, but He looks at me, at us, differently. God has a use and purpose for me and will keep polishing me until He is ready to fully use me and once there, it doesn’t mean He is done. There will be times I may need to be cleaned and polished again as I make mistakes as I am human and will likely always make a mistake now and again. Not because I intend to do so, but because that is how it is for humans. But, God won’t cast me aside if I get a little dirty or chipped. He will polish me again and put me back to use for His Glory.


Thou in thy mercy hast led forth the people which thou hast redeemed: thou hast guided them in thy strength unto thy holy habitation. Exodus 15:13


Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works. Titus 2:14


Lord, I thank You for picking me up out of the rubble, for putting me through trials, teaching me, polishing me and making me into what only You saw me capable of becoming. I praise You for Your patience, mercy and effort. I thank You for my salvation and redemption. I ask in the name of Jesus that You continue to polish me into what you wish me to be, make be a better servant. Help me seek You better. I pray You bring all to You and show us all Your way for us. Teach us all the truth of Your love and mercy.



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Well, it’s June, and in years past, it was always a good month, school was out, my birthday is in June and things were good. Also my mother’s and grandmother’s birthdays were in June. On my mother’s birthday was the day we held my father’s funeral. So, bittersweet, but that was also the anniversary of the day they had met so it meant something to her to have it that date.  There have been other good things besides birthdays, Father’s Day as I got older. Medical School Graduation too. Some other things that were once happy, but now mostly painful. But, just a few years ago, I lost my dad in June, minutes after midnight, the day after my birthday. And, some other situations at the time have made it far more painful than anything else. But, regardless of the pains, sadness, some happiness from those things, the thing I have now helps all the pain. He is my comforter in painful times. He is my light in the darkness. Christ is my Redeemer and Salvation.


But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 14:26


26 But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:
27 And ye also shall bear witness, because ye have been with me from the beginning.

John 15:26-27


Lord, I praise and worship You. I thank You for sending the comforter for me, for filling me with Your Holy Spirit and for the sacrificing Your own Son that I might have the comfort, redemption and salvation. I pray You keep working in my life and in the lives of loved ones, especially those that are lost. Show us all Your way in our lives. In Jesus Name I pray for these things and for continued help with better learning how to seek Christ and help becoming a better servant of You.




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I bless all they who did me wrong and thank God for the trials and tribulations.

I preface my post to say that this is a post Of joy, salvation, mercy and grace of Christ’s love for me and the redemption He gave to me.

Over the last few years I have had many things happen. Some of excruciating pain; some of joy I’d never known and others throughout the spectrum between those extremes that were primarily emotional but some physical. I fell while climbing in mountains and severely injured my neck and had pain, numbness and weakness in my hands and I had to have surgery for that. The fall also aggravated pain from spinal fractures lower in back I sustained in Iraq. I lost my mother and father in less than a years time. I was emotionally abandoned on more than one occasion by more than one person at times I needed them most. One of which I truly never thought would do so. I had sudden horrid pain in one ear and then lost all hearing in that ear which required several difficult treatments that did not help and underwent cochlear implantation surgery to have some hearing returned. I have been lied to, lied about, had false accusations made about me, later to learn through a mutual friend who did not know it was I that was the victim of the sick ploy that my accuser was almost 100% certainty the one that accused me had done so and bragged about setting the idiot up to take a hard fall in a twisted plan to assasinate my character, had my words twisted to discredit me, seen those who should have not believed those lies accept them as truth, I gained and lost things that had more value to me than life itself. I have seen the destruction of my marriage and other relationships through actions of others. I have seen family and loved ones become hateful and bitter towards one another. I have seen those same people steal from my mother in the last weeks of her life as she lay sick and dying. I have had siblings manipulate her at the same time and through deceit stole things of tremendous emotional and some monetary value from me and other siblings.

In the last 8 months I had transferred every dollar I could from my inheritance and other assets that were not mutual property into a joint account and changed beneficiaries on my life insurance policies which was exceeded my income for over 5 years. I was all but guaranteed a job in the area that I had planned to move that, due to significant stress in my life at the time and an inability to focus on the questions due to distracted thinking, the final interview did not go well and the offer was withdrawn. I had gotten legal counsel during this time so that the next steps would happen without any anticipated complications. But, I had not told those impacted yet as I wanted all the pieces in place so things would go as smoothly as possible and to avoid disappointment if there were problems with the job that would not permit the steps to be taken immediately. I planned to tell all those involved of my decision and plans on a particular date and literally 2 days before that day I was given devastating news that shattered those plans and caused the problems at the interview.  I have spoken hard truths in an attempt to help protect others caused they I wanted to protect to have hard feelings towards me. I have had more sorrows as well that are far too numerous to mention.

I have had joys as well. My neck issues are resolved; my back pain is improved markedly; I have had hearing restored in my deaf ear; I had love that was beyond anything I had experienced before (until returning to Christ which is absolutely a perfect love,) I had many more joys as well also too numerous to mention.

As I think on all these things, I realize I have lived a human existence, filled with the spectrum of emotions, events, trials, tribulations, joys and pains that all experience at one time or another, not exactly the same, but very similar.

Due to all these things I have been through the gamut of human emotions. I was at times happy, sad, ecstatic, in the depths of dispair all of which are difficult to fully explain as there are some things for which I have no words.  Many of these experiences were due to actions of and maltreatment from others. But I do not only fault others, in fact I thank others and fault myself as during those times I was far from blameless in my actions and am equally or more culpable for many of the negative things I experienced and my behavior was very wrong to myself and others.

I do not say these things looking for pity or glory. Most the things I experienced, as I said directly or indirectly,  occurred from my actions that were wrong and for that I have confessed those sins to Christ and been forgiven. He has redeemed me and I have my salvation. I have a relationship with Jesus that is far deeper than years ago when I had was walking with Him. I have the love, joy and peace only Christ can give.

I also do not say these things to point fingers at others or with intent to cause others to feel guilt, shame or sorrow. Those who made decisions to do as they did and treated me wrongly need forgiveness from the Lord need only address those issues with Christ. I bear no ill will, hate, anger or contempt for those people. I have the love of Christ for them and long ago forgave them their actions and hope that any that I did wrong or feel I did will forgive me.

All these experiences and many experiences over my entire life had left me bitter, angry, filled with sorrow, self pity and with all manner of other negative emotions. Yet, not inspite of these things but rather because of the trials, tribulations, pain and suffering I came to Christ and am saved. Unfortunately, there is no sinner of which I know that does so in times of joy. No, but as did I, they come to Him for help in times of need and dispare.

I did not enjoy the unpleasant and painful situations and had bad feelings towards many, some guilty of wrong deeds, others not. But, for those who did me wrong and inflicted pain and sorrow beyond my human ability to bear I thank you and bless you. I praise God for the hard times, trials and tribulations. For had those things not occurred I would not be in the relationship with Christ I am at this time.

Some of the most vicious and hateful actions occurred after my salvation by those used by the enemy to try to rob me of my redemption. To those who were used in that way I DOUBLY BLESS YOU! For through those times rather than fall victim to Satan’s attacks my faith and relationship with Jesus was strengthened tremendously!


PLEASE, do not think this is a Oh pity me story. Do not think it to cause others pain or frustration. It is not a self pity party. NO IT IS NOT!

This is a post of JOY and LOVE! I am joyful in my salvation and have been filled with Christ and his love for me and all others!!!!! It is a post of PRAISE for God and His endless love and mercy and for all He is!

4 But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us,
5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;)
6 And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:
7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus.
8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.
10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

Ephesians 2:4-10


Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17



21 But now the righteousness of God without the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets;
22 Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:
23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
24 Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:
25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;
26 To declare, I say, at this time his righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus.
27 Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith.
28 Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law.

Romans 3:21-28


10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

Matthew 5:10-12


38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:
39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also.
41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.
42 Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.
43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.
44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
46 For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?
47 And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?
48 Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.

Matthew 5:38-48


No, this I not a post of accusation, hate, pity, sorrow, misery, but of SALVATION through Christ, the Son of God. Through His sacrifice and suffering I am made whole, into a new creature. I am not yet perfect, but He is not through with me yet. PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME!

NONE of the ability to forgive or bless, NONE of the rejoicing, NONE of the comfort and peace is because of me. It is through Christ in me that it is all possible.


My Heavenly Father, I praise Your Holy Name and Your Son, Jesus. I thank You for my salvation, for all the trials and tribulations that lead me to You. I praise You and Christ for the sacrifice and mercy that gave me that salvation. I thank You for the ability to forgive and bless those who helped me get to the lowest place in the valley. I praise You for lifting me out of the despair, anger, pain, suffering and sorrow. I ask that You continue to help me learn how to seek You and to continue helping me learn to think with the mind of Christ. I ask that You draw all to You, especially my loved one. Show them all Your mercy and love and the path to salvation through Jesus. Show them all Your plan in their lives.

In the precious name of Jesus I pray and ask these things.



I will end noting that some of my posts have been misinterpreted, misunderstood and twisted by some. I do not believe that any of those to whom I referred very vaguely read this blog so I would hope all would see that I am not trying to cause anyone to feel guilt. No, it is about the healing power of Christ. I give the descriptions only so others may see His Mercy, Grace and Love. I do not attempt to say that any of this is of me but of Christ.

I thank you all for taking a few minutes to read this post. I pray that God will have something in there for someone besides me and that He use me to help others. Please do your best to be a blessing to at least one other person today.




I was drowning!


While travelling over the weekend I saw all the people hauling boats to the lakes and thought about the lakes, then, rivers and creeks. Well, the way I do, my mind wanders on various related things, as I my thoughts shifted to creeks, I remembered a time when I was around 10. We were visiting family in Oregon and my dad took my brother and I to a creek near their home. Now, the creeks out there tend to be bigger than those around here. AND, they are COLD! Well, we were wading and such and ended up on the opposite side of the creek, busy looking for crawdads or something then my dad had gotten changed from trunks into his clothing and hollered for us to come on it was time to go. I could have waded straight across one shallow area, then walked down the creek bank, but I decided to go diagonal from where I was and the water went from not quite knee deep to chest deep to way deep and I started to swim. It wasn’t that far and I can’t remember if I got scared, tired, maybe a cramp but for whatever reason I couldn’t go further. I couldn’t stand up there and even though there were others floating on inner tubes, I guess they thought I was just playing because no one would help, but the next thing I knew someone had grabbed me and was pulling me to the bank. It was my dad, soaking wet clothes and all. He fussed at me, complained he had gotten everything wet, but I could tell he was scared for me. I look back, and in other instances, I was drowning other ways, financial problems, issues with work, not sure what to do, feeling overwhelmed and needing some input and he was always there, dragging me to safety. That’s how it is with Dad’s.

Then, I got to thinking how there were times I was drowning in other ways, spiritual ways, physically in danger and my Heavenly Father never failed me. More than once I was drowning and like as a child, those times were all due to my own choices or reactions to circumstances. More times than I can remember I have been in physical danger and have had His protection and I thankful that He had a ring of protection around me. I am so much more thankful that when I was spiritually drowning, lost and far from the way I should have taken that He had pity and mercy on me. That when I was drowning in whatever issues I was facing at the time, overwhelmed and felling helpless and hopeless, that He was there, just waiting to hear me call out to Him. He let me drown, pulled me out, washed me with the Blood of Jesus and resuscitated me spiritually. I the process He let the old me die and gave me a new life so that I could become what Christ would have me be, teaching me all He wishes me to know.

And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: for he shall save his people from their sins. Matthew 1:21


29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
30 But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
31 And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?

Matthew 14:29-31


25 He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.
26 If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any man serve me, him will my Father honour.
27 Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour: but for this cause came I unto this hour.
28 Father, glorify thy name. Then came there a voice from heaven, saying, I have both glorified it, and will glorify it again.

John 12:25-28


I was drowning, literally that one day in the creek and my father saved me. Then, at a time when I was spiritually drowning, my soul was troubled, I was lost, and at a time I was sinking even further I cried out to my Heavenly Father and Jesus saved me. I confessed my sins, confessed in my belief of Christ as the Son of God who died for my sins and was risen to defeat death and redeem my sins. Life is so much better with Christ in my life. I praise and glorify God and the mercy He had on me.


Dear Lord, I praise Your Name and thank You for reaching down to save me when I called out to save me from where I was and working to make me who You wish for me to become. I know that the work is no where near done, but through Your Son Christ I am getting closer daily to who I should be for Jesus. I pray You continue Your work in me and help me reach others through this blog and in my daily life. I ask You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones, bringing those who know You closer and those that do not that You draw to You so they can have salvation. I pray in Jesus name that You continue to help me get closer to the heart and Mind of Christ that I can be to others an example of Your love and mercy.




Many thanks to all for stopping by and reading. I hope there is some blessing in here for someone besides me.




You want the nickel or the dime?



I read a story, joke, whatever you would call it a while back. I have seen it off and on over the years and the other day when I read it I had a thought it would make a good post topic, so here we go.

There was an old man that ran a small neighborhood store, several boys were talking and one said, here he comes, watch this. As another boy reached them the stopped him and one said, “Hey, you want the nickel or the dime? take which ever one you want.” As he held out both hands, a nickel in one, a dime in the other. The boy looked and took the nickel. The other boys all laughed and one said, “see, he think the nickel is better because its bigger” and they ran off laughing. The shopkeeper asked the boy, “Don’t you know that a dime is worth more than a nickel?” The boy answered “Yes.” The shopkeeper then asked, “Well, why do you take the nickel every time like the one boy says?” The boy answered, “Sir, they have been doing this for weeks now, everyday. If I take the dime, the game is over and they will stop. I can have a dime once, or a nickel every day for a long time.”

Well, first thought is WOW! That kid was smart. BUT, since probably a tale written by an adult, not truly a child’s wisdom. The bigger thought I had is how often people, including Christians see an opportunity to take a nickel or dime and immediately take the dime. Failing to realize that a short term gain often costs far more in return. They jump at the chance to have more of something immediately, instead of looking to the long term benefit of accepting less now but gaining daily thereafter. Some, compromise in order to get that one big payoff, but fail to see the cost over time. Somewhat like receiving a savings bond as a gift, then cashing it in immediately instead of waiting until it is mature to get the full value.

I also see that some lose sight of the real prize, life eternal with Christ. They see shortcuts, take them and gain. Sometimes, subtle compromises, other times, they sacrifice so much more, they lose their path and may have worldly rewards, but not the eternal rewards they could have if they remained diligent in their faith. They are fooled by satan to see the short term benefit, succumbing to that, rather than seeing what is happening and staying the course they should be following. They choose an easier path to get something they desire that is temporary, giving up something else they say they want that would be eternal. They take the dime, losing more over the long run.

13 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:
14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
15 Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.
16 Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?
17 Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
18 A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.
19 Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.
20 Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.

Matthew 7:13-21


Some try to take shortcuts, use the wide gate and think the way that is found there is easier and at first it may be so, but then realize the easy path is not truly easier and they may lose so much more than they can imagine. Some try the short cut, to take the dime right away, and end up costing their souls. There is hope of course, confession to Christ that He is the Son of God who died to redeem us, confess their sins, ask forgiveness of Him and then, take the straight gate. Once on that path, it is easier and more profitable in the long run.


Our Father in Heaven, I praise You can glorify You and Your Son, Jesus. I ask for Your help in always taking the straight gate and Your path for me. Help make me sensitive to Your will and way. Teach me the patience to know the benefit to make the choices that will benefit me in the long run and not to be willing to take a quick gain in one area that will have much higher costs in another. I pray You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones that they see Your truth as well. Guide them and point them in the way You would have them go so that Your will is done. I thank You for my salvation and the guidance, lessons and help with the trials of life. I ask Your hand be on circumstances in my life that I be sensitive to Your guidance and that what serves You best be so. Please continue to help me learn to seek You and lean on Christ in time of need.

In Jesus Holy Name, AMEN


I hope there was some type of blessing for someone in my words. I know that everytime I write I learn by seeking Him in prayer and in His Word. Don’t forget to try to be a blessing to someone today. We could all use some sort of Blessing.

I walked into a pole!




I was at the market yesterday to pick up a few things. While I was there, I saw some teenagers there doing whatever teenagers do. One was messing with his cell phone and not watching where he was going. One of his friend started to say “WATCH OUT!” but all he got out was “WAT” and POW, the kid on his phone walked right into a DVD display. It went crashing down as did he, scattering the DVD’s everywhere, him on top of the mess. That reminded me of a time when I was in High School, probably 15 or 16 years old at the time. I was hanging out at the mall with some buddies and as we were pretending to act busy and important, but actually hoping to meet some girls, I saw some girls about our age, doing about the same. I got distracted, she was cute, smiled at me and as I was about to try to get brave enough to go talk to her my friends started saying things like “Hey man” “Dude” but I ignored them, one made an odd sound and as I tried to turn towards him, POW, right into one of those concrete poles or pillar, whatever  you call it. Ummmm, what just happened? I didn’t get knocked out, but wow, did it humble and embarrass me. My buddies were laughing, the girl and her friends were too. Well, that wasn’t expected……or was it?

I hate to admit it, but I have possibly done things like that on more occasions than I care to admit, walking in the woods and get distracted and step into a hole or walk into a tree, other times walk straight into a door, and other similar things. WHY does that happen? Well, I get distracted or I fail to listen closely when someone tries to warn me about something and due to that, I get lumps, bumps, bruises, my ego gets hit hard too. It is pretty hard to look like a cool guy after you face plant into a pillar.  I have had friends do the same thing, be distracted and not listen when we first try to warn them and suffer the consequences. And, other times, kids being kids, sometimes people on either side of one of us would slowly steer us towards a pillar or sometimes in stores, displays of some sort, just to see what would happen. I have had that occur to me, and to my discredit, been on of those trying to get someone to walk into something. Kids are not always kind to even their friends. Honestly, adults aren’t always that kind either. Anytime it happens, there is always laughter as well as someone asking if whoever just did that is ok.

There are often warning signs in other areas that sometimes we heed, sometimes we don’t. I have one co-worker that is slow and not bad at her job, but lower quality work than others of the same education and level of licensure. Some of those in charge noticed it, but instead of acting on the warning signs, attributed it to being new at that location so no action was taken. It was compounded a few weeks later when there were marked issues that were being looked into regarding productivity and quality of care she provided. But, she had made friends with someone at the top of the chain at our facility so they refused to even take time to objectively review the information they were given. Instead, they let personal opinion sway a professional review and immediately terminated the evaluation that was being completed. This went on for several months and at this facility, within 6 months of start date they can terminate the employee without too much difficulty. But, if they fail to do so, the person becomes considered permanent and the process is 100 fold more complicated. Due to the senior officers failure to objectively review what was there and make the proper determination based on evidence instead of feelings the facility and the area in which the employee works  are having complications from that failure to act properly when the concern was first noticed. The facility essentially walked into a pole because of one person’s failure to listen and heed the warnings.

Relationships are another tricky area. I have been married for quite some time, and while I hate to admit it, it was never the type of marriage relationship I thought it should be for people. There were warning signs, at first, some were there, but subtle, and they began to be more obvious. Different things I saw that SHOULD have been huge warnings that I ignored. Various acts, which I harped about for a while, but then, finally realized it wasn’t the individual acts, it was the attitude behind the actions. Essentially, she made herself and her wants her number one priority, then second was pleasing others, then maybe me. Had it only been God in front of me, I would not have been bothered, but God was and is a lower priority than I. Like I said, at first any fights were about individual acts, but, eventually I saw that it wasn’t the acts, well, somewhat, but the mindset was the real problem, since the acts were derived from that. Oh, I am not pretending to be blameless, no one in a relationship is perfect and the blame is never all one’s burden. But, had I been alert, paying attention to the warning signs as I should have done, I would not face some of the issues that I face now.

That happens in our spiritual life as well. We can get distracted by events in life, we don’t pay attention to all that is going on around us, we get somewhat oblivious to surroundings and other circumstances and events to which we should be paying heed. We don’t watch for warnings that should tell us of approaching problems. In the case of the pole, there was a different color to the flooring as well as a different texture, I should have noticed those, even if I didn’t notice the pillar. But, I was distracted, I was not watching where my path was taking me. I headed straight into harm’s way. As I said, there are always warning signs spiritually. There are indicators that something is not as it should be, the trick is being sensitive enough to watch for those signs and to respond when we do notice them.

I had written previously about slowly drifting away from God. Work, school, family, all those things played into things that made it more difficult, well, no I should say less easy, to find times to pray and seek Christ. I started having one thing and another occur that should have given warning, but I didn’t pay attention. My Christian walk was slowing, and then stopped. Even then, warning signs that I needed to get back to God that I failed to heed. Issues at home, work, with family, school, recreational time such as fishing, golf, etc can all be cause of complications with spiritual life. Warning signs that one’s priorities are not as they should be, that they are drifting from the right path, that they are going to run into a pole spiritually because of those, or many other, factors. All should have had warning signs, failure to be alert for them, failure to be sensitive to His way for us. He puts convictions in our hearts, reminders one way or the other that we are letting Him down, and by doing so, hurting ourselves. God tries to warn us, sometimes we are too hard headed to listen. I have been just that way. I felt the convictions from Christ about not being in church or praying like I should have, but I justified it as it was needful to work to support my family, I needed to complete college so I could get into medical school, I had to work hard there to get a good residency and be a good doctor, I had to work hard at residency and had so much call that I had to do that I couldn’t make time, etc, etc. Excuses are easy to find, but most are not valid and those using them know they aren’t good justification. I know I knew they were not reasons, but only excuses and, my spiritual life suffered from that.

To whom shall I speak, and give warning, that they may hear? behold, their ear is uncircumcised, and they cannot hearken: behold, the word of the LORD is unto them a reproach; they have no delight in it.        Jeremiah 6:10


4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.
5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul.

Ezekial 33:4-5


27 To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:
28 Whom we preach, warning every man, and teaching every man in all wisdom; that we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus:
29 Whereunto I also labour, striving according to his working, which worketh in me mightily.

Colossians 1:27-29


Yes, He gives warnings, of spiritual dangers and consequences of failure to heed those warnings. God also gives warning of failure to listen to the truth of Christ as the Redeemer through whom we have forgiveness of our sins and salvation from eternal death but that we may have life through and with Christ.


Lord, I praise Your Holy Name. I thank You for the blessings You give me. For the sacrifice made by Your Son, Jesus that gave me salvation and forgiveness. I pray in Jesus name that You help me see warning signs in the future to help me avoid problems in life and especially in my spiritual walk. Help me walk with Christ as I should, help me seek Jesus. I ask that You continue to help me better serve You. I pray that You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones and others that You give them better understanding to help them avoid difficulties in their spiritual walks as well. I ask that You draw those who believe closer and the unsaved, draw them to You that they will have salvation as well. Give us all guidance on Your will and way in our lives.



I do appreciate everyone bearing with me as go about my life, trying to find areas I need to improve upon and I do pray my insight for my life helps someone else as well as for blessings for all. Do try to be a blessing to others as well.





The Stronghold (the prayer closet)


5 And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
6 But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.
7 But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.

Matthew 6:5-7

I was reading in the Bible, saw this passage where it discusses going to a closet to pray and worship. ( FYI, Matthew Chapter 6 is a good chapter to read in entirety) I have always preferred to pray silently, speaking from my heart to God. I suppose that is for a variety of reasons, not wanting to draw attention to myself, not wanting to hear my own voice (which I thinks sounds horrible) and not wanting to disturb others. God hears me when I pray like that. He speaks to me. Oh, there are times, usually when out in the woods, that I pray out loud. For some reason, the fields and woods seem the best place for me to pray.

OK, so what about the stronghold? You are probably thinking. Well, there was a movie I have seen on TV several times, and its probably been couple years or more since the last time, but there was questionable activity on a Reservation, an FBI agent, who happened to be 1/2 native American was investigating. Toward the end turns out there were corrupt federal agents and others trying to mine uranium on the Reservation and since it was going to be a tremendous amount of money, they were willing to kill for it, and he and a tribal police officer were being pursued. He was told to go to the Stronghold. A place on the reservation that was supposed to be where they had good position to be able to fend off an attack. A place of safety and security.

When we go to pray, we all need that closet, that stronghold, where we feel safe, secure, isolated from others so we can focus on seeking Christ. No other distraction or annoyances, but a place where we are privately speaking with Him. God does not like when we make big shows out of things. Oh, there is need for Pastors to preach and singers performing have a function, that is not what I mean. And, there is symbolism in kneeling at the alter that due to that, has a significance so that we know when we do, when we kneel at the alter, usually a cross somewhere near by, that we understand His sacrifice and the need to lay all the burdens, worries, sins and other issues on the altar. There are times it is important to pray out loud as well. When praying with others for someone’s needs, salvation, whatever reason for which it I being done. SO they hear and know that the people praying, as well as the one being prayed for are in Unity before Christ. The act of kneeling at the alter helps us mentally reinforce that idea. But, we do need to pray other places. A person’s stronghold can be a closet, the bedroom, a place by the river, in the middle of the woods. But we need that personal, private time with Christ. Seeking Him and talking to Him. Praising and worshipping the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. He wants us to seek Him one on one. Not do it to impress others. Not for attention but to improve our relationship with and understanding of God.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33

So, I just would hope that all have, or find that stronghold, that prayer closet, that one special place you can block out all distractions so you can better seek Him in private. Whatever that place is for you. It is different for all, but we all need that place seek and praise Him.

The name of the LORD is a strong tower: the righteous runneth into it, and is safe. Proverbs 18:10

Jesus, I praise and worship You. I thank You for the mercies You show me, for Your sacrifice on the cross and defeat of death that gives me the salvation You paid for with Your blood. I thank You for helping me find my Stronghold where I can find the solitude to seek You. I thank You for the guidance You have given me and look forward to even more guidance as well as better understanding of You and Your plans for me. I pray You help me better seek You and know You. I pray You work on the hearts of family and loved ones to give them better understanding in their lives. That You work on them and show them how to find You and how to give You their burdens and lead those not saved to You.



Thanks once more for your time. I know it take a while to weed through my writings at times. I hope that someone finds that little bit of something they need to help them in their path through life as they struggle and try to find the Lord. We all have struggles, I just hope as I work my way through mine, something helps another. Have a most blessed day.