The fender is there for a reason.



Every now and again I see vehicles, usually off road vehicles such as jeep, pick ups and SUVs, with the fenders cut down or removed or sometimes they put HUGE, WIDE tires on them for driving in the mud and such with the tires protruding far past the fenders. Sometimes I see them driving on wet streets and they are throwing water and such everywhere. It gets all over the sides of their vehicles and throws the dirt, water, mud and other stuff onto other cars as well. I always sort of shake my head, at least in my mind, and wonder why they do such things. I wonder why they don’t have the fenders in place or put extensions on to protect their car and other vehicles from damage as well. It also creates safety concerns. If they are throwing water and mud onto their windshields and onto other cars it can cause issues with visibility and that can contribute to accidents. The fenders are there for a reason.

Well, as I thought on that, I realized that we need spiritual fenders too. We have them, but a lot of folks won’t use them or they try to, but do things that extend beyond the protection of the fenders. I have at times had my fenders off and years ago, when I was walking with Christ started slowly pushing things with my actions that would be like putting progressively wider and wider tires on a vehicle. Each step was a little further and further beyond the protection of Christ, not because He wouldn’t have forgiven me, but because I pretended what I was doing “wasn’t that wrong” so did not ask for forgiveness. Eventually, I “removed the fenders” and wasn’t following Him. I placed myself where I suffered the consequences of sinning. Mud thrown onto my windshield such that my visibility was impaired and I further lost my way. Every little rock and pebble that was in the road I travelled was thrown onto my spiritual vehicle, chipping the paint and damaging the windshield.

After these things the word of the LORD came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram: I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great reward. Genesis 15:1


Happy art thou, O Israel: who is like unto thee, O people saved by the LORD, the shield of thy help, and who is the sword of thy excellency! and thine enemies shall be found liars unto thee; and thou shalt tread upon their high places. Deuteronomy 33:29


Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy gentleness hath made me great. 2 Samuel 22:36


But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head. Psalms 3:3


Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.  Ephesians 6:16


But, I didn’t need to deal with all those issues. God is our fender, our SHIELD, against all the things the world and enemy throw at us. When I stopped trying to be as I was, confessed my sins to Christ, the Son of God who died for our sins and was risen, I was forgiven. He put my fenders back on, He gave me a shield to protect me. Not only that, but he restored the finish and made me like new. What a MIGHTY and MERCIFUL God we serve!

Lord, Praise You for Your love, mercy and grace. For all that You are. I thank You that I have been made as new, that You gave me back my spiritual fenders when I received salvation. I pray that You continue to work in my life and help me better seek You, seek Your way in my life. Help me keep the fender in place and to not foolishly extend beyond the protection of those fenders. Help me better know the mind of Christ and the love He has for us all. I pray in Jesus name that loved ones be drawn closer to You and Your truths and that You show them all Your will and plans for them. Help us all to better learn to hear You when You speak to us and not be deceived by the enemy. Give us all the shields we need to be protected. I ask that You be with me today at work that I may be a blessing to others and I show You through me words and actions.



Thanks for the visit. I hope someone gets some benefit from my thoughts. I wish they were deep profound thought and words, but little things help remind me of what I need to do in my walk with Christ. I hope all have a blessed day and are able to be a blessing to at least one other person.


The expected end.



I never cease to wonder at the way God works. I have been wondering about why things happen, situations unfold and seem to be moving in one direction when suddenly change. What things seemed a certainty for the future suddenly seem very uncertain, maybe impossible. Everything about the situation had seemed right, but then it changed. Was I off course and God moved to put me back on His path? Was the path I was on correct, but someone else did something to interfere with God’s plan?

When things like that occur, it causes one to have doubts, worries, emotional turmoil and a myriad of other thoughts and emotions. You have that happen and then pray and you are still confused and upset. Finally, you say, “okay God, I don’t understand, but I know that You are in control and I will not dwell on what is to be and I will let You do what You know is right, rather than try to make things be as I believe they should be in my life.” Then, peace, most of the time. Still occasional thoughts about everything, but overall peace with any turmoil due to failure on my part to fully let go and let God. He knows what is right and will correct your steps or the steps of others to bring about what He knows is what is planned.

I definitely have had those situations, many times, and after I give them to God, He makes all as He plans. It may not happen quickly, but eventually He does so and later I would look back and it all makes sense, even if it didn’t at the time.

I was going through that and then today’s verse of the day at Kingjamesonline was Jeremiah 29:11. Exactly the reminder I needed.


Lord, I praise Your holy name and worship You for Your Glory and majesty. I thank You for the reminder that You are in control and will do for me as is best if I just step out of the way, follow Your guidance and stop trying to be in charge. I thank You for the peace that comes from that knowledge and the comfort from knowing that Your will in my life will get me to the point that You plan. In the name of Jesus I ask that You continue to help me seek You and learn how to have the heart and mind of Christ and that I become better at giving You the control as I learn to be a better servant.



I again thank all for taking time to read my posts. Remember to let Him lead the way and to allow God to work things out for you as He plans. Have a blessed day and try to be a blessing to others.





Contentment is elusive, rather it once was for me. I had faced and was facing difficult times and was unhappy with everything. This has happened before with feeling nearly overwhelmed by life’s events, not truly depressed but sad most of the time and definitely not happy. I found contentment at times through work, projects, spending time hunting and other ways. Well, that isn’t accurate, I found distraction from my discontent but once that distraction was done the unhappiness returned. I could only briefly find what I thought was real contentment but it was only temporary as well. I could not find true long lasting contentment.

The reason I couldn’t find contentment is that there was a void in my life and soul. The void there was due to my failure to follow Christ and not have Him in my life. There were other contributors as well, loss of my parents, issues from war, marital problems and many other issues; yet regardless of those things there wouldn’t have been a void if I’d had God in my life. Rather if there were any voids that developed he would have filled them with His love and grace.

But I never had to have that void as it would not have existed if I’d been following Jesus. And, while I may still have areas that cause me sorrow, the voids have filled tremendously. What voids exist now only exist due to my failure to fully release the issues to Christ, but I am far better about that than I was and they are nearly completely filled.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. Matthew 5:6


And they did all eat, and were filled: and they took up of the fragments that remained twelve baskets full. Matthew 14:20


Blessed are ye that hunger now: for ye shall be filled. Blessed are ye that weep now: for ye shall laugh.      Luke 6:21


1 And when the day of Pentecost was fully come, they were all with one accord in one place.
2 And suddenly there came a sound from heaven as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled all the house where they were sitting.
3 And there appeared unto them cloven tongues like as of fire, and it sat upon each of them.
4 And they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

Acts 2:1-4


Great is my boldness of speech toward you, great is my glorying of you: I am filled with comfort, I am exceeding joyful in all our tribulation. 2 Corinthians 7:4


And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God. Ephesians 3:19


10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.
11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Philippians 4:10-13


I hunger and thirst for His ways in my life. I trust in Christ to fill the voids and to fill them to overflowing, with his love, mercy, grace, forgiveness and Holy Spirit. He has not failed to do so. I hungered, I ached, I had pain and suffering, emptiness and those He has fed me with His word. He removed the pain, filled the emptiness and made me so much more than I was before. I continue to sometimes have small areas that need refilled. But, that is part of life. I have access to the perfect One to fill me to overflowing. I praise God for His love, mercy and forgiveness.


Lord, You are so much more glorious than I can express. I praise You and worship You. I thank You for filling those voids in my life and heart. In Jesus Name I ask that You continue to fill them and help me have more faith in You to completely and totally surrender all to You. I also ask that You help me learn to seek You better and know You ever more deeply. Help me reach others for You and to be the servant that You wish me to be in this world. I ask You to work in the hearts and minds of loved ones, show them all Your truths, the salvation they may have and the way You have planned for their lives. I thank You for my salvation, the forgiveness of my sins and the guidance and mercies You have shown me.



Thanks for the visit folks. I hope God blesses you all and gives all contentment. Maybe you aren’t happy about where you are in life, sometimes on has to just be content to be alive and look Him to take care of the rest. If He is with you, then you are blessed.




The tumbler.

before and after2

When I was young, my grandmother got into rock hounding, hunting for various kinds of rock to polish and use for different things. Started out small agates, colored rocks that can be put into a tumbler with some abrasive compound and over time the rough spots get smoothed out, gradually changing to finer and finer compound that is less abrasive, making them smoother and eventually shiny. Sometimes she made earrings, necklaces or other jewelry and other times she just put them into jars and such to display. But, the difference was amazing. The rocks were rough, ugly, and plain but with the right effort they became beautiful new things.

That is exactly how God does with us if we ask Him to do so and let Him. He has done so me and while I am not to the spiritual place He plans for me yet He has made so many improvements and is still working on me. When I was at a point I was just one of many stones strewn about, not really something spectacular in His sight He saw the potential and knew that when I was ready He could make me into something beautiful and useful for Christ. I called out to Him and He delivered me. Jesus picked me up and put me into His tumbler. I went through situations that were trying, and as I was tumbling around he started removing the rough edges then started polishing me through my study of the Bible and prayer. Christ has made me something much more pleasing in His sight and while I still have some tumbling/learning and growing to do I feel He is very pleased with the results so far. I still need polished, I think that humans never get to that state of perfection, there will always be blemishes of some sort, but oh how I have begun to take on the shine of Jesus in my life. Some will look more critically to try to find every flaw they may find, but He looks at me, at us, differently. God has a use and purpose for me and will keep polishing me until He is ready to fully use me and once there, it doesn’t mean He is done. There will be times I may need to be cleaned and polished again as I make mistakes as I am human and will likely always make a mistake now and again. Not because I intend to do so, but because that is how it is for humans. But, God won’t cast me aside if I get a little dirty or chipped. He will polish me again and put me back to use for His Glory.


Thou in thy mercy hast led forth the people which thou hast redeemed: thou hast guided them in thy strength unto thy holy habitation. Exodus 15:13


Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works. Titus 2:14


Lord, I thank You for picking me up out of the rubble, for putting me through trials, teaching me, polishing me and making me into what only You saw me capable of becoming. I praise You for Your patience, mercy and effort. I thank You for my salvation and redemption. I ask in the name of Jesus that You continue to polish me into what you wish me to be, make be a better servant. Help me seek You better. I pray You bring all to You and show us all Your way for us. Teach us all the truth of Your love and mercy.



Thanks for the visit. I hope all have a blessed day and are a blessing to another as well.







Well, it’s June, and in years past, it was always a good month, school was out, my birthday is in June and things were good. Also my mother’s and grandmother’s birthdays were in June. On my mother’s birthday was the day we held my father’s funeral. So, bittersweet, but that was also the anniversary of the day they had met so it meant something to her to have it that date.  There have been other good things besides birthdays, Father’s Day as I got older. Medical School Graduation too. Some other things that were once happy, but now mostly painful. But, just a few years ago, I lost my dad in June, minutes after midnight, the day after my birthday. And, some other situations at the time have made it far more painful than anything else. But, regardless of the pains, sadness, some happiness from those things, the thing I have now helps all the pain. He is my comforter in painful times. He is my light in the darkness. Christ is my Redeemer and Salvation.


But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 14:26


26 But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:
27 And ye also shall bear witness, because ye have been with me from the beginning.

John 15:26-27


Lord, I praise and worship You. I thank You for sending the comforter for me, for filling me with Your Holy Spirit and for the sacrificing Your own Son that I might have the comfort, redemption and salvation. I pray You keep working in my life and in the lives of loved ones, especially those that are lost. Show us all Your way in our lives. In Jesus Name I pray for these things and for continued help with better learning how to seek Christ and help becoming a better servant of You.




I appreciate your time reading my posts. Please be a blessing to others today.

UGGGH! What do THEY want this time?

coffee contact email hands
Photo by JÉSHOOTS on

Does anyone else, or maybe everyone else, have at least one person that when you see a text, email or their number on your phone think, “WHAT DO THEY WANT THIS TIME?!?” Because, due to their history you already know there is going to be some kind of hateful message coming. Never anything kind or decent, they just ooze hate and contempt, for anyone and everyone. Never contacting anyone unless they find, or fabricate, some reason to have their anger directed at the one they decided to message. They just try to find any reason to be offended and get angry, at anyone. You wonder why they hate you and others so much. I have some that are that way and I used to get annoyed, frustrated, angry with their behavior, then God showed me that the behavior I see is not really anger and hate at the person that is the focus of the tirade, but rather that these people hate themselves and have to direct that anger onto others.

So, now I just let them vent, usually, even if unfairly directed at me, I know they are wrong in what they say and try to give soft answers to calm the wrath. Turn the other cheek, again and again. Love them with the love of Christ, forgive them and pray for them.

10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

Matthew 5:10-11


43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.
44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
46 For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?
47 And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?
48 Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.

Matthew 5: 43-48


27 But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,
28 Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.

Luke 6:27-28


While those that show you hate may not be enemies, they bear ill will and hate so in that regard, perhaps. But, they are usually directing the hate they feel for themselves onto others. And, are even more in need of Christian love and prayers than one knows. I will pray that the misery they feel ceases and they find the peace of Christ.


Lord, I praise You and thank You for the guidance and knowledge You are giving me. I pray that those who direct hate at me seek in themselves what it is they hate and deal with it rather through You. I ask You to give me patience and tolerance while dealing with this trial. I thank You for the faith, love, forgiveness and the redemption from my sins through Your Son, Jesus. I pray that You work in the hearts of loved ones that they find the love and salvation only You can offer. Draw us all closer to You.

In the name of Jesus I offer my prayers to You.



Once again, I thank all who read this blog. I hope that you are blessed and are able to pass blessings on to others as you go about your lives today.



I bless all they who did me wrong and thank God for the trials and tribulations.

I preface my post to say that this is a post Of joy, salvation, mercy and grace of Christ’s love for me and the redemption He gave to me.

Over the last few years I have had many things happen. Some of excruciating pain; some of joy I’d never known and others throughout the spectrum between those extremes that were primarily emotional but some physical. I fell while climbing in mountains and severely injured my neck and had pain, numbness and weakness in my hands and I had to have surgery for that. The fall also aggravated pain from spinal fractures lower in back I sustained in Iraq. I lost my mother and father in less than a years time. I was emotionally abandoned on more than one occasion by more than one person at times I needed them most. One of which I truly never thought would do so. I had sudden horrid pain in one ear and then lost all hearing in that ear which required several difficult treatments that did not help and underwent cochlear implantation surgery to have some hearing returned. I have been lied to, lied about, had false accusations made about me, later to learn through a mutual friend who did not know it was I that was the victim of the sick ploy that my accuser was almost 100% certainty the one that accused me had done so and bragged about setting the idiot up to take a hard fall in a twisted plan to assasinate my character, had my words twisted to discredit me, seen those who should have not believed those lies accept them as truth, I gained and lost things that had more value to me than life itself. I have seen the destruction of my marriage and other relationships through actions of others. I have seen family and loved ones become hateful and bitter towards one another. I have seen those same people steal from my mother in the last weeks of her life as she lay sick and dying. I have had siblings manipulate her at the same time and through deceit stole things of tremendous emotional and some monetary value from me and other siblings.

In the last 8 months I had transferred every dollar I could from my inheritance and other assets that were not mutual property into a joint account and changed beneficiaries on my life insurance policies which was exceeded my income for over 5 years. I was all but guaranteed a job in the area that I had planned to move that, due to significant stress in my life at the time and an inability to focus on the questions due to distracted thinking, the final interview did not go well and the offer was withdrawn. I had gotten legal counsel during this time so that the next steps would happen without any anticipated complications. But, I had not told those impacted yet as I wanted all the pieces in place so things would go as smoothly as possible and to avoid disappointment if there were problems with the job that would not permit the steps to be taken immediately. I planned to tell all those involved of my decision and plans on a particular date and literally 2 days before that day I was given devastating news that shattered those plans and caused the problems at the interview.  I have spoken hard truths in an attempt to help protect others caused they I wanted to protect to have hard feelings towards me. I have had more sorrows as well that are far too numerous to mention.

I have had joys as well. My neck issues are resolved; my back pain is improved markedly; I have had hearing restored in my deaf ear; I had love that was beyond anything I had experienced before (until returning to Christ which is absolutely a perfect love,) I had many more joys as well also too numerous to mention.

As I think on all these things, I realize I have lived a human existence, filled with the spectrum of emotions, events, trials, tribulations, joys and pains that all experience at one time or another, not exactly the same, but very similar.

Due to all these things I have been through the gamut of human emotions. I was at times happy, sad, ecstatic, in the depths of dispair all of which are difficult to fully explain as there are some things for which I have no words.  Many of these experiences were due to actions of and maltreatment from others. But I do not only fault others, in fact I thank others and fault myself as during those times I was far from blameless in my actions and am equally or more culpable for many of the negative things I experienced and my behavior was very wrong to myself and others.

I do not say these things looking for pity or glory. Most the things I experienced, as I said directly or indirectly,  occurred from my actions that were wrong and for that I have confessed those sins to Christ and been forgiven. He has redeemed me and I have my salvation. I have a relationship with Jesus that is far deeper than years ago when I had was walking with Him. I have the love, joy and peace only Christ can give.

I also do not say these things to point fingers at others or with intent to cause others to feel guilt, shame or sorrow. Those who made decisions to do as they did and treated me wrongly need forgiveness from the Lord need only address those issues with Christ. I bear no ill will, hate, anger or contempt for those people. I have the love of Christ for them and long ago forgave them their actions and hope that any that I did wrong or feel I did will forgive me.

All these experiences and many experiences over my entire life had left me bitter, angry, filled with sorrow, self pity and with all manner of other negative emotions. Yet, not inspite of these things but rather because of the trials, tribulations, pain and suffering I came to Christ and am saved. Unfortunately, there is no sinner of which I know that does so in times of joy. No, but as did I, they come to Him for help in times of need and dispare.

I did not enjoy the unpleasant and painful situations and had bad feelings towards many, some guilty of wrong deeds, others not. But, for those who did me wrong and inflicted pain and sorrow beyond my human ability to bear I thank you and bless you. I praise God for the hard times, trials and tribulations. For had those things not occurred I would not be in the relationship with Christ I am at this time.

Some of the most vicious and hateful actions occurred after my salvation by those used by the enemy to try to rob me of my redemption. To those who were used in that way I DOUBLY BLESS YOU! For through those times rather than fall victim to Satan’s attacks my faith and relationship with Jesus was strengthened tremendously!


PLEASE, do not think this is a Oh pity me story. Do not think it to cause others pain or frustration. It is not a self pity party. NO IT IS NOT!

This is a post of JOY and LOVE! I am joyful in my salvation and have been filled with Christ and his love for me and all others!!!!! It is a post of PRAISE for God and His endless love and mercy and for all He is!

4 But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us,
5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;)
6 And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:
7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus.
8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.
10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

Ephesians 2:4-10


Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17



21 But now the righteousness of God without the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets;
22 Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:
23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
24 Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:
25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;
26 To declare, I say, at this time his righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus.
27 Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith.
28 Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law.

Romans 3:21-28


10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

Matthew 5:10-12


38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:
39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also.
41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.
42 Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.
43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.
44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
46 For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?
47 And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?
48 Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.

Matthew 5:38-48


No, this I not a post of accusation, hate, pity, sorrow, misery, but of SALVATION through Christ, the Son of God. Through His sacrifice and suffering I am made whole, into a new creature. I am not yet perfect, but He is not through with me yet. PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME!

NONE of the ability to forgive or bless, NONE of the rejoicing, NONE of the comfort and peace is because of me. It is through Christ in me that it is all possible.


My Heavenly Father, I praise Your Holy Name and Your Son, Jesus. I thank You for my salvation, for all the trials and tribulations that lead me to You. I praise You and Christ for the sacrifice and mercy that gave me that salvation. I thank You for the ability to forgive and bless those who helped me get to the lowest place in the valley. I praise You for lifting me out of the despair, anger, pain, suffering and sorrow. I ask that You continue to help me learn how to seek You and to continue helping me learn to think with the mind of Christ. I ask that You draw all to You, especially my loved one. Show them all Your mercy and love and the path to salvation through Jesus. Show them all Your plan in their lives.

In the precious name of Jesus I pray and ask these things.



I will end noting that some of my posts have been misinterpreted, misunderstood and twisted by some. I do not believe that any of those to whom I referred very vaguely read this blog so I would hope all would see that I am not trying to cause anyone to feel guilt. No, it is about the healing power of Christ. I give the descriptions only so others may see His Mercy, Grace and Love. I do not attempt to say that any of this is of me but of Christ.

I thank you all for taking a few minutes to read this post. I pray that God will have something in there for someone besides me and that He use me to help others. Please do your best to be a blessing to at least one other person today.




I was drowning!


While travelling over the weekend I saw all the people hauling boats to the lakes and thought about the lakes, then, rivers and creeks. Well, the way I do, my mind wanders on various related things, as I my thoughts shifted to creeks, I remembered a time when I was around 10. We were visiting family in Oregon and my dad took my brother and I to a creek near their home. Now, the creeks out there tend to be bigger than those around here. AND, they are COLD! Well, we were wading and such and ended up on the opposite side of the creek, busy looking for crawdads or something then my dad had gotten changed from trunks into his clothing and hollered for us to come on it was time to go. I could have waded straight across one shallow area, then walked down the creek bank, but I decided to go diagonal from where I was and the water went from not quite knee deep to chest deep to way deep and I started to swim. It wasn’t that far and I can’t remember if I got scared, tired, maybe a cramp but for whatever reason I couldn’t go further. I couldn’t stand up there and even though there were others floating on inner tubes, I guess they thought I was just playing because no one would help, but the next thing I knew someone had grabbed me and was pulling me to the bank. It was my dad, soaking wet clothes and all. He fussed at me, complained he had gotten everything wet, but I could tell he was scared for me. I look back, and in other instances, I was drowning other ways, financial problems, issues with work, not sure what to do, feeling overwhelmed and needing some input and he was always there, dragging me to safety. That’s how it is with Dad’s.

Then, I got to thinking how there were times I was drowning in other ways, spiritual ways, physically in danger and my Heavenly Father never failed me. More than once I was drowning and like as a child, those times were all due to my own choices or reactions to circumstances. More times than I can remember I have been in physical danger and have had His protection and I thankful that He had a ring of protection around me. I am so much more thankful that when I was spiritually drowning, lost and far from the way I should have taken that He had pity and mercy on me. That when I was drowning in whatever issues I was facing at the time, overwhelmed and felling helpless and hopeless, that He was there, just waiting to hear me call out to Him. He let me drown, pulled me out, washed me with the Blood of Jesus and resuscitated me spiritually. I the process He let the old me die and gave me a new life so that I could become what Christ would have me be, teaching me all He wishes me to know.

And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: for he shall save his people from their sins. Matthew 1:21


29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
30 But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
31 And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?

Matthew 14:29-31


25 He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.
26 If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any man serve me, him will my Father honour.
27 Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour: but for this cause came I unto this hour.
28 Father, glorify thy name. Then came there a voice from heaven, saying, I have both glorified it, and will glorify it again.

John 12:25-28


I was drowning, literally that one day in the creek and my father saved me. Then, at a time when I was spiritually drowning, my soul was troubled, I was lost, and at a time I was sinking even further I cried out to my Heavenly Father and Jesus saved me. I confessed my sins, confessed in my belief of Christ as the Son of God who died for my sins and was risen to defeat death and redeem my sins. Life is so much better with Christ in my life. I praise and glorify God and the mercy He had on me.


Dear Lord, I praise Your Name and thank You for reaching down to save me when I called out to save me from where I was and working to make me who You wish for me to become. I know that the work is no where near done, but through Your Son Christ I am getting closer daily to who I should be for Jesus. I pray You continue Your work in me and help me reach others through this blog and in my daily life. I ask You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones, bringing those who know You closer and those that do not that You draw to You so they can have salvation. I pray in Jesus name that You continue to help me get closer to the heart and Mind of Christ that I can be to others an example of Your love and mercy.




Many thanks to all for stopping by and reading. I hope there is some blessing in here for someone besides me.




The Race Track


The office area I am working in is shared by several people, kind of a big open area with desks scattered here and there. Well, as you can imagine, sometimes one hears conversations they aren’t actually involved in. Today, I over hear a couple guys talking about the race track near here. Something about a big race in a week or two. Well, I ain’t no race fan. Watching noisy cars go around a big oval track just doesn’t seem like fun to me. But, to each his own, if they like it, then good for them. As they continued talking about it I remembered when I was about 5 my brother and I getting a race car set for Christmas, the old slot car track, with a groove in the track and a little bar thing under the car that if operated correctly, keeps it on the right part of the track . Well, thinking about that, I got to thinking how my dad and his nephew (only about 3 or 4 years younger than my dad) were so busy playing it that my brother and I hardly had a chance. For those unfamiliar with them, there is a control that one uses to adjust the speed, and one is supposed to speed up in the straight parts, but slow down at the curves. Well, John did not like slowing and he kept it full speed as he approached a curve. AND……the car jumped track. He lost that time and they started again and again, John wouldn’t slow down. Over and over this happened, and, as I was thinking about that, it sort of made me think about how sometimes, I have been so focused on something that I even though I had the things available to keep me on the track, I tried too hard to rush this or that, or decided I was not going to do exactly as I knew I should do and jumped track. In this case, if we repent, ask for forgiveness and try, God will give us a do over, pick us up, put us back on the track and as long as we allow the equipment (spiritually prayer, study of His word, and effort to live properly) we will stay on the track and finish the race.

Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore. Psalms 16:11


Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths.   Psalms 25:4

Yeah, I need to ease up on the controls and let him guide me.


More thinking, cause well, my mind looks for connections, this day and age with all the remote controlled cars, etc I got to thinking about them, then about a small drone I received for Christmas a couple years ago. Now, no safety like the slot cars, but when used properly the remote can make it do most anything. IF the operator knows how. The other thing with it is that if the operator is kinda doing ok, but then, lets things go a little too far, the drone can get out of range of the remote and then there is NO CONTROL over what it does. Usually that meant continuing on the path it was on and unless wind affected it or the battery ran out of power, it could go a long ways, no control, just drifting off on its own path, no real purpose, just going alone until it runs out of power and crashes. Some have safeties that bring them back to the remote when the power gets too low, or will turn them if they move out of range, mine isn’t that fancy. I had been messing with it enough that I felt sort of confident, a little too much so, and as I was flying it, it got out of range, I watched it go over the trees in the fence line and keep going. Then, my son in law and I had to go try to find it. Looked and looked and right when I was about to give up, he said, “There it is” well, it was over 1/4 mile away, in the CRP grass, the stuff they don’t cut to help with water and soil conservation, THICK, TALL grass and weeds.

Well, thinking on how hard I looked for that drone that had gotten out of range, no control on itself other than to keep flying until it got to the point it could fly no more, made me realize that I too had done that. The process was slow, I drifted further from THE Controller and eventually, would not respond when He tried to bring me back into range. SO, He allowed me to run out of power. But, the best part is then, when it seemed hopeless to me that I could be found, He kept looking. He wanted to take me back, recharge my batteries and then use me for His intended purpose.


I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek thy servant; for I do not forget thy commandments. Psalms 119:176


I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep. John 10:11


For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepherd and Bishop of your souls.   I Peter 2:25


I have at times, lost my grip on the slot and jumped the track. But, like my dad and cousin with the race track, He picked me up, dusted me off and put me back on track and gave me a do over. I got to restart my race when I accepted Christ as the Son of God who died for my sins, Confessed those sins to Him and He redeemed me. Praise God that He is so loving and merciful.

And, I exceeded my range, got too far from Him so I was flying on my own. I was that lost sheep, lost in the fields, no power of my own to get myself back where I belong. But He came looking for me and brought me back into the fold. WHAT A MIGHTY AND CARING GOD WE SERVE.

Dear Lord,  I am so in awe of You and Your majesty. I am so very thankful that You care for me so much that You will give me the chance everyday to start my race over, that all the times I got off track are forgiven and that when I got lost and drifted from You that You did not give up on me. I thank Christ for coming to find me when I was lost and that He brought me back to the fold and into Your grace and mercy. I praise You for being a forgiving God that cared so much that He sent His Son to be crucified, raised Him from the grave that I may have redemption. I ask in Jesus Name that You continue to help my faith grow, that You teach me how to seek Christ and make me into the servant I need to be to glorify You. I pray You will draw the lost to You and those who know You that they know You, Your will and way for their lives.



I hope that this helps someone besides just me. I find so much benefit in writing these posts as it helps me better learn of His mercy, love, forgiveness and it helps me appreciate my salvation through Christ so much better. I thank all who read for taking the time to do so. Have a blessed day, and as my friend always said he did, try to be a blessing to at least one person every day.




God, is this a test?


Ever had to deal with various situations and wonder if God is testing you and your faith? Or, if it is possibly the work of the enemy trying to undermine you and your faith. Well, sometimes that is a difficult question to answer. Sometimes, God does test us, when we find situations that are hard to deal with as no matter what a person does, there really doesn’t seem to be a good option. Trying to decide how to proceed is difficult. IF, one thinks with the human mind its difficult, but as I find myself facing some of the challenges of life and try and figure out how to move forward I realize that it is so far beyond my capabilities that I need to continue to do as I have been doing and put it all in God’s hands. He knows what is right, He knows what I should do. I need to give it to Him, let God have control and follow His way. I will, unless I feel Him lead otherwise, continue to pray and let Christ be in control.


3 Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart:
4 So shalt thou find favour and good understanding in the sight of God and man.
5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.

Proverbs 3:3-7

Unfortunately, I have had to deal with issues where one person starts making accusations, some directed at me, some at coworkers. Accusing people of things that no one should have had reason to believe but once the comments are made, someone has to do a formal review. To worsen things, I very recently was inadvertently told of things said but the one instigating all the commotion, which indicate a good possibility that the one that has been making the accusations is very likely the one to have done the things of which they accused others and apparently went to significant effort to try to incriminate others instead of themselves. I fail to comprehend the mind set behind such thinking. Then see that person do as they have in the past and try to create turmoil. Bragging about how gullible so many people are and that the same could easily do the same to anyone he decided to do that way. Seeming to derive great joy and satisfaction from the acts and what is left behind when they have finished with their game. While their victims have to deal with the mess that was created.

Knowing all that, it becomes more difficult to do as I should and forgive. It does not come easily to my human self to do so. I sought Christ and prayed, and He gave me the ability to forgive. Yet, I find this person continues to behave as they did and seems, not only fail to show remorse, but instead seems to revel in their actions. It becomes more, and more, difficult to forgive and to not lash back. However, through the grace of Christ I am able to do so.

39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also.

Matthew 5:39-40


I have not resisted the evil done me, I have not tried to retaliate. I answered questions, review of records was completed and I have been exonerated but I do not know about the others that were drawn into the circumstances but I have no doubt they will be found innocent as well. Personally, I have forgiven, and turned the other cheek, forgiven again, and again turned the other cheek. I do this because of the grace that God gave me and I have ability to have the love of Christ towards others, even those that have done wrong, and that I have learned to forgive out of that love. I am not claiming spiritual greatness or piety. I am working hard in my struggles to follow Christ. Seeking His guidance in the Bible and in prayer. He gives me the guidance and the ability to restrain my human emotions and not be to others as they have been to me. It is not me, but Christ in me that makes it possible. Oh, I fight against it sometimes, it is a struggle no doubt and I begin to wonder if God is testing me or teaching me or both. Or, is this an attack by the enemy to try to undermine my faith and dedication. I claim victory against the attacks by the enemy if it is him and rebuke him in the name of Jesus. I HAVE VICTORY in JESUS!

43 To him give all the prophets witness, that through his name whosoever believeth in him shall receive remission of sins.
44 While Peter yet spake these words, the Holy Ghost fell on all them which heard the word.

Acts 10:43-44


14 Afterward he appeared unto the eleven as they sat at meat, and upbraided them with their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they believed not them which had seen him after he was risen.
15 And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.
16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.
17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;
18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.
19 So then after the Lord had spoken unto them, he was received up into heaven, and sat on the right hand of God.


My Heavenly Father, I pray to You and ask that You continue to help me continue to learn the heart and mind of Christ, strengthen my faith, my Christian love for all, even those that so me hate. Please further improve my ability to forgive them. I thank You for the mercies You give me and my redemption through Christ. I ask You work in the hearts and minds of loved ones, and those that show me hate and draw them to You. Teach them Your true love and mercy. Lead them to You.

In the name of Jesus I ask for the ability to pass the test and stand up to the attacks by the enemy and not just remain strong, but grow stronger and more resolute.



Thanks for bearing with me. Dealing with some tests in life, home, work, and other places as well. I don’t ask much of readers other than to bless others as able, and, in that veing, I ask you to Please, when you pray, remember me in your prayer for His guidance and strength.