Have you ever seen those commercials on TV for the best ever product, cleaner, water proof spray, towels, mops, etc. They all say they are the best ever and boy, the high speed, high pressure sales pitches they have for their products. Sometimes, ok, most all the time, I really don’t believe them and I don’t think the spokespeople do either. Or, used car salesman, while I know most of the used car salesman are honest, there are a few that are less than honest, FAR LESS, and I have encountered some that had cars that were far less than they tried to tell me. One in particular, the car looked nice, but there were some issues, door edges a little off, trunk and hood with the same issues. Yet, he swore that there had never been any damage, wrecks or other issues. He started pushing harder about what a great car it was and he couldn’t say enough good about it, going on and on that he really didn’t want to sell it because it drove great and ran fantastic, but he couldn’t keep all the cars he liked and this was one of them. He continued with his sales pitch, next he started back on how he hated to sell it, and that he had never had a better car on his lot. Plus, his wife liked it and didn’t want him to sell it because she wanted it for her own car. On, and on. BUT, the more I looked, the more I saw wrong, there were some areas were there was fluid leaking, grease from the CV joints, oil, transmission fluid. Even though he had washed it thoroughly there was some that had not been cleaned off or it was leaking more. I pointed that out, oh, he told me that was repaired, but no evidence of repair was seen. No, he assured me that the car had been FULLY SERVICED, all faults repaired, any parts that were even a little questionable replaced, the car had been washed completely and they found no leaks or faults. And yet, still that uneasy feeling that it was not what it appeared to be based on the salesman’s claims. He wouldn’t do the car facts check but I took the information and called my nephew who worked at a car dealer and he did the check for me. It had been wrecked and had other reported issues. Hmmmm guess the sales man was not being too honest with me.
Then, I got to thinking about how so many people are that way, unhappy, yet they go to extreme efforts to convince people, including themselves that they are happy. They go wild on social media posting pictures, comments, memes and such that says things in a way that one quickly begins to wonder who are they trying to convince with their comments, others or themselves. I have seen so many people I know comment about how they don’t care about what others think, but then you also see comments complaining because of something someone else said. Or, how hard some people try to post comments, memes, etc about how honest, true, faithful and of high character, yet all their actions show differently. So many different ways people post comments like that and those who don’t think they have to convince others, or more likely themselves, don’t feel the need to advertise. Sorta sad to me that people are that unconvinced about their true character that they resort to trying to “sell themselves” on how good they are when they deep inside, know they are far different from what they try to pretend. Or, when they are doing wrong, yet pretend they were right to do the wrong thing, but despite how hard they try to say they were right, they know differently. Watching from a distance, one can easily see that they feel guilty about something and are trying to make themselves feel less guilty, but only succeed in looking very insincere and more guilty. Others seem to be trying to say how happy they are about this or that, they love their new car, new house or new job, yet no matter what they say, the way they actually say it and their actions show differently. Who are they trying to convince others, or themselves?
Being honest to one’s self is critical as until one is honest with themselves, they cannot be honest with others and is necessary as a Christian. One cannot correct sins if they are not honest with themselves. I have in the past tried to justify certain things to myself, knowing the things were wrong. I have sinned in various ways but convinced myself that either they were “little sins” or if the end result was what I wanted it would be okay. I have pretended to be happy about things I had done, or decisions I made, of which I was not pleased. Often, these were done out of some sort of self serving motivation, usually pride. I would not admit I was wrong, even though I know it. Strange thing is, no matter who I did, or did not convince, I knew it was not true, and so did God. He constantly nagged at me for the different things, reminding me that I had sinned or that if I didn’t sin, the decisions and actions were not best for me. I was trying to deceive myself and others by convincing them about what I did.
Bread of deceit [is] sweet to a man; but afterwards his mouth shall be filled with gravel. Proverbs 20:17
22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.
23 For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass:
24 For he beholdeth himself, and goeth his way, and straightway forgetteth what manner of man he was.
I was not honest about why I did things, I wasn’t honest as I would not admit that I knew I made bad decisions; behaved in ways that were not pleasing to God or right for me to do; trying to pretend happiness when I was unhappy; trying to justify my actions and words when I knew it was more trying to convince myself than anyone else. The only one I was truly dishonest with and hurt by not admitting such was myself.
He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh [them] shall have mercy. Proverbs 28:13
I was trying to cover my sins by convincing myself they weren’t sins, or they were for a good reason. (yeah, I know, the ends do not justify the means and doing wrong to get a desired or right end is not what God wants.)
And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. John 8:32
I knew the truth about a lot of things, but did not admit to it. I blundered on, rather than facing the truth and confessing failures and sins to God. I convinced myself wrong actions were right and by doing so put a bigger and bigger barrier between myself and God. Finally, I admitted to myself which made it possible to admit the truth to God. I was a sinner, I had failed Him and myself. And, when I did that, He forgave me. Isn’t our God so much better than we deserve?
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
Lord, Praise Your holy name. Thank You for showing me so many things. Some things, I don’t like to see, some things make me realize I was so unworthy. Yet, despite that, You found a way to bring me to You and I was forgiven of my sins and redeemed. In Jesus Name I ask that You continue to help me see the truth and help me realize my shortcomings that I may come nearer to You. Help me know how to seek You. I pray that You draw all to You, that You bring my loved ones into Your grace and mercy. I ask that You give us all the true understanding of what You want for us and how You wish us to proceed to reach that which You plan for each and everyone of us.
Thanks for your time today. I hope all have a blessed day and are a blessing to others.