The most expensive thing in the world is trust, it can take years to earn and just a matter of seconds to lose.
I saw a poster thing on social media earlier that really made me realize that trust is something that is valuable, but once someone loses trust in someone, it is very difficult to regain. I thought about ways I had lost others trust, sometimes, I did something or said something that disappointed them. But, the times it has been most bothersome to me is when someone loses trust in me because of actions or were lied to by others. People who said and did things to shatter others’ opinions of me because of their jealousy or other reasons. I have had to deal with some problem coworkers that for some reason want to create discontent and have made significant effort in many ways to put not just myself, but others in difficult circumstances. Interaction with department chiefs has been difficult at times, and they should have known better, but took the information as accurate. After they did look into things, they realized that it was not true but the trust was damaged and it I taking effort to get it back to the place it belongs.
Yet, one thing I realized is while I may have lost some peoples trust, those people have lost mine and have made me see them for much different than I had once thought about them. But, they who went to such extremes to cause the loss of trust lost any and all credibility and trust I once gave them as well. Oh, I have forgiven all and do not hate, but definitely have learned valuable lessons about people and future interactions will be only business like and that is all.
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? Jeremiah 17:9
I really wish that verse was not so true. But, the human heart is deceitful and wicked. So many people you think are being honest have ulterior motives. Contending with multiple people like that throughout my life has made it seem unwise to trust, but I still do and that applies to those who have betrayed my trust. Does that make me: Gullible? Naïve? Hopeful? Perhaps, but I try hard to turn the other cheek, regardless of how much frustration or hurt they have caused me. I forgive, continue to have the love of Christ for them and pray for them to seek forgiveness from God for their actions.
27 But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,
28 Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.
29 And unto him that smiteth thee on the one cheek offer also the other; and him that taketh away thy cloke forbid not to take thy coat also.
30 Give to every man that asketh of thee; and of him that taketh away thy goods ask them not again.
31 And as ye would that men should do to you, do ye also to them likewise.
32 For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them.
33 And if ye do good to them which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same.
34 And if ye lend to them of whom ye hope to receive, what thank have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, to receive as much again.
35 But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil.
36 Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful.
37 Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:
38 Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.
It isn’t easy, and I would not able to follow Christ’s instruction if it were not for Him and the assistance He gives me to do things against human nature. I love my enemies, I bless and pray for those who use me, I turn the other cheek despite people telling lies, twisting words, other more extreme actions to try to impune my character I don’t fight when they try to fight, I don’t harass people though I have been harassed repeatedly for no reason other than hatred, I try to help others, I do my best to show mercy and kindness yet when I have done so, instead of appreciating what is done, people seem to blame me that I didn’t do more. I don’t judge, I observe others actions and may not agree but I don’t judge or condemn it is only for God to judge and condemn. I continue to turn the other cheek and pray that one day people will see the truth and realize I was the one being judged and judged extremely unfairly. I give of myself and one day God will be sure to repay that many times over.
I wish I could say I was blameless, but even though I did not lie, I made harsh comments about others in the past, true, but harsh. I have sinned in many ways, but Praise the Lord, He forgave me and Christ redeemed me and even the harsh statements have stopped as well as other sins. Oh, I slip at times, I try not to do that, but I do, and I daily ask Him for forgiveness of my short comings.
Yes, it is difficult to keep the human self out of the way and let God work through me. But, He gives me the strength and determination to not do unto others as they have done to me and instead, to forgive them and pray for them. While people may violate the trust they were given, God does not, EVER, we can trust in Him and His word.
And, I had started this post a few days ago, but finished it today, when I went to kingjamesonline the verse of the day was an obvious message he wanted me to finish this and get it ready to publish.
But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee. Psalms 5:11
Lord, I praise You and thank You for teaching me patience, helping my faith and showing me the way to react to others. While my actions may not change them, Your work in me has changed me so that I have the ability to respond in the ways Jesus teaches us and not how my human self would have responded in the past. I give You the praise and glory for that as it is not of me but Christ in me that it is possible. I pray for Your forgiveness and mercy for me for any sins I have committed and that You continue to show me the way Christ wishes for me to behave and think. I ask in Jesus Name that You work in my heart to better have the heart of Christ and the love of Jesus for all, especially those that did me wrong. Help me have the trust in You that I will continue to forgive and turn the other cheek. Strengthen my faith even more. I pray You show us all Your true will and way for our lives. Draw all closer to You.
Thanks for stopping by and taking time out to read. Some days, the trials of life are tough, but Christ makes it possible to not only get through them, but to triumph over ourselves. Oh, and remember, try to be a blessing to someone today.
Okay a confession after I had written this I was shopping paid and realized I forgot something and saw some people I did not wish to see as one had repeatedly antagonized me I wasn’t going to do or say anything but, once again antagonism by calling me a name. I should have ignored as I have repeatedly but i stopped and asked he stop antagonizing. More name calling, I said those aren’t true and started to leave but yet again, more names. I turned back and asked what but did not reciprocate passed a moment and then left despite his continued harassment. I will forgive and pray for that person. And, hopefully I will be forgiven for not just walking and not asking to not be bothered more. So, will pray about that.
Lord, I ask for Your forgiveness for my failure to keep walking. I believe I was not wrong to ask the person to stop, but also know I should have confronted privately. I thank You for Your mercy and ask You help me keep walking if similar circumstances occur again.