digging

 

Well, In the morning, I have a dentist appointment, and if anyone read or remembers the post about dentists, you will recall I am terrified of going to the dentist. It is just a cleaning and check up, but that still causes a lot of stress for me. After I get done there, I am heading back to the home town to try to finish up things to prepare for the estate sale to settle my parents’ estate, likely spending most of the week, if not all of it, up there. Although I have mostly finished digging through all the boxes there is still a few things to sort out, it has been trying to say the least. SO very many memories in that house, some are good, some are great, some happy, some sad.  Many of the items have memories attached as well. The different knick knacks my mom loved to have around, the musical instruments that she played, her records, CDs, cassette tapes and the seasonal decorations. She liked to decorate for holidays but none more than Christmas, some older decorations that we had when I was very young, some she bought later, little dancing Santas, strings and strings of lights, some in shapes of holly, some like reindeer, santa, or spelling out Peace, Joy, Christmas and other words. She always loved decorating for Christmas more than any other holiday. I see the various decorations and remember them hanging on the walls, doors, tree or set up outside and hear the Christmas music playing in my mind and for a while, I am right back at that time in life, things are sweet. But, then reality hits that and the bitter comes. I choose to focus on the sweet though.

I have mentioned before how bitter sweet it always is when I work up there. Thinking about the happy times, missing them and wondering about my future. Getting this close to having the sale is somewhat relieving, but somewhat disconcerting as the things will be gone and I will be that much closer to having the house ready to sell as well. That will be the last of the things from their estate that I will sell. I have some of their things I kept for memories, etc. But, the big ties to those physical reminders will be gone. The memories I will always have, but for some reason, it feels like selling the things will let them slip away easier. Even though I know that the material things are not the memories and I will always have the memories.

I thank God daily for the parents He gave me and glad for the time I had with them. I thank Him for helping me deal with all the estate issues and look forward, somewhat anxiously, to completing the tasks. I also know that they are rejoicing with Christ this very moment and I look forward to joining them in the future.

Through the emotionally difficult times, even when I wasn’t serving Him, Christ was there with me, comforting me, helping me get through the loss and all that has followed, but it surely has become much easier walking with Him. Praise Him for His faithfulness and joy He gives.

 

15 If ye love me, keep my commandments.
16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

John 14:15-18

 

But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 14:26

 

Lord,

I praise You and worship You. Thank You for my parents and the comfort You have given me since they left to be with Christ. I ask for Your continued help during the preparation for the estate sale and ask that You help make that go smoothly when it is underway and after that is completed I  pray in Jesus name that You guide me and show me Your way ahead for me. Make me sensitive to Your will for me. Please work in my heart and the hearts and minds of loved ones to draw us all to You so we may follow You.

Amen

 

I hope all have a great day and remember to Praise Him and thank God for all your blessings, and bless others as you can.

 

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