So, an interesting thing I noticed today. I’m not sure when exactly, but a change in my behavior came to my attention today. While there have been a lot of changes since I came back to Christ, some I notice, some others notice, this one though, I did not realize until today. I have been carrying a side arm, a pistol, since I returned from Iraq, unless it is not allowed. Oh, it’s all legal and such, and though it was necessary for me to use my sidearm there, I have not needed to do so since I got back. Well, then why carry one if you don’t really need to carry it? That comes down to the pistol being a security blanket of sorts. I was so used to carrying one that I felt uncomfortable without one. I would get nervous, antsy without one. There was something about feeling the weight of it, knowing IF I needed it, I had it. Without it, I felt naked, exposed, vulnerable. I know a lot has to do with my experiences at war, but I am certain there are other factors involved as well. But, today, I got to work for the day, reached to take my weapon and secure it as I can’t carry it in at work. AND…..it wasn’t there! I did not get nervous, I did not feel insecure, at risk, vulnerable or any other term you can use to describe how I felt without one before. I was fine, just sort of shrugged it off and went about my business. As the day progressed, I thought about it a bit more a time or two. I didn’t really dwell on the thought, but I would puzzle on why the change in my attitude. As I thought on it some, I realized that many times over the last several weeks I have left home without it and hadn’t given it a thought. That is a HUGE change for me. The sidearm was my security blanket if you will, my protection, my safety in case of danger. As I thought about it, I realized that now, God is my Sidearm, my Shield, my Security, my Protector from danger. Without realizing it consciously I had given up the firearm and replaced it with God.
I want to tell you, this replacement is SO MUCH BETTER! I don’t feel nervous, I don’t feel anxious, I don’t feel vulnerable or exposed. I have peace that He will take care of me.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Psalms 23:4
Thou shalt increase my greatness, and comfort me on every side. Psalms 71:21
16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
26 But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:
27 And ye also shall bear witness, because ye have been with me from the beginning.
There are many more references to comfort. Yes, He has comforted me in regards to many things. This just happens to be the one I noticed today. Praise Jesus. What a mighty God we serve.
Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great. Psalms 18:35
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him. Psalms 28:7
Yes, He is my shield, my protection. Again, WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!
Lord, I praise You and thank You for the comfort, for being my shield, for making so many changes in me. I pray You continue the work You have begun. Make me the servant for You I should be. I ask that You help me better understand Your plans for me. That I submit to Your will for me. I pray that loved ones be receptive and understanding of Your plans in their lives as well. Draw those not saved to You, so they may have the salvation You offer through the sacrifice of Your Son, Jesus. I ask You teach me to seek You more every day.
Thanks for the visit. Small thing I know, but after so long, feeling naked and alone without a sidearm, it is amazing to me that He has made such changes.
I gotta say it, I do love my Christ and He loves me too, or He sure wouldn’t do all He is doing in my life.