Before I start on this post, I would like to ask anyone reading this to be sure to see my post on the 6th. I have carried some things with me for some time, as in almost 15 years) and after a chat with someone recently I opened up some. I feel the need to open more and I hope it will be a blessing for me to do so, hopefully someone else will receive one as well.
And, back to our regularly scheduled (kind of) programming. (yeah, bad joke, best I could come up with for now.
I like to treasure hunt; metal detecting, dig for diamonds, rubies, gold, whatever. Never found a huge treasure, usually not enough value in what I find to pay back costs. But, it’s fun for me and a nice way to kind of not think too hard about things. Sometimes when detecting, things are laying right on top of the ground. Sometimes a couple inches down and still other times, quite a bit deeper. Now, I have been digging, keep checking, something is still there, so I keep digging. Whether you call it stubborn, hard headed or tenacious, I just don’t want to stop until I find what I’m looking for at the time. Now, I have to admit, there are other times I decide enough is enough and I stop. One time at the beach I got tired of contending with the sand falling back into the hole and decided I was going to move on. Then, my daughter decided to check things out in the hole, dug with the little sand scoop thing for only a minute and she found it. A nickel, wasn’t even an old one, but with a junkety scoop and no detector she found more than I had. Because, I didn’t dig deeper. I was thinking about times I have done that just in the last few weeks, having an issue I was wanting to use scripture to justify what I had done or said, or to find out if I said the wrong thing at the wrong time (usually ends up the latter more than the former) so I can figure out how I should have handled things. I’ll look, sometimes try references, other times hoping for some divine guidance and just kind of pick a place to read and see if something stands out. When I don’t find a real answer one way or the other, even though I know the answer is there, I will give up, at least for a while.
But if from thence thou shalt seek the LORD thy God, thou shalt find [him], if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul. Deuteronomy 4:29
Maybe I am not seeking earnestly enough.
And ye shall seek me, and find [me], when ye shall search for me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13
Or, with all my heart. (kinda says the same to me, but reinforcement none the less)
But, like I said, sometimes, I need to dig deeper. I need to make sure I am actually seeking to find Him and His guidance.
Once again Lord, I thank you for your patience. I praise you for all the gifts you’ve given me and mercy you have shown. I ask you guide me in my efforts and teach me to live as you wish me to live. I continue to pray for family, friends and others that you will work in their lives as well.
Thanks for letting me share my observations on my efforts, struggles to continue seeking and tolerating my stories. Please feel free to share or comment.