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The next day John seeth Jesus coming unto him, and saith, Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world.  John 1:29

 

I woke up early, initially my thoughts and words to Jesus were about why I couldn’t sleep just another 2 hours before my alarm was set to go off. Then, I started to have thoughts of worries and stress I have about my current situations. I try to keep thoughts from those things and while I do have them at times, I am working on focusing my thoughts on what would Christ want me think.  Thankfully, I caught myself and refocused my thoughts. I wanted to think about what I could do or Him and be appreciative of what Jesus has already done for me rather than ask for more. I know He is gracious and will give me, has already given me, far more than I deserve.

And they sung a new song, saying, Thou art worthy to take the book, and to open the seals thereof: for thou wast slain, and hast redeemed us to God by thy blood out of every kindred, and tongue, and people, and nation; Revelation 5:9

I did get my mind on things He would prefer and focused on him. Today is Good Friday, the day we remember His crucifixion. I pondered on not the act of crucifixion, not the anguish and pain He suffered, but the reason for it. He died so we may live, Christ died without sin, to atone for my sins. He paid my debts, all of them. No, not my financial debts but those that have a much higher penalty if you fail to pay. Eternity in hell.

Paying off a debt, a car loan, a house mortgage, or credit card balance gives me a certain release emotionally. I know longer have to worry about that. I have some freedom. Thinking how when I have been able to pay off a debt, the joy of doing so, and then trying to better comprehend the depth of the debt I owed which he paid off for me. Honestly, no way, no how am I able to even wrap my mind around that concept. Even if I had been better than most people, I still sinned, and a sin is a sin. Even the smallest of sins creates a massive debt. HE PAID THAT!

Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place, having obtained eternal redemption for us.  Hebrews 9:12

I try and try and I am still unable to begin to understand how anyone could so willingly allow His own self to suffer so much for something He did not do. When I was a child, I did take punishment for things others did, things that I was blamed for but didn’t do. Each time I protested. I begged and pleaded. I swore my innocence. I accepted the punishment, not because I wanted to or was willing, but because I had no choice. Whether the truth was ever discovered or not I suffered for others. However Jesus not only accepted it; He did so without protesting.

Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus: Romans 3:24

I must accept the fact that I cannot, even remotely, ever truly understand the magnitude of that act. And, thanks to the Grace of God, I don’t have to understand. I only have to accept the fact. In order to reap the rewards of His selfless act I only need surrender to Him. I do praise His Name, His Holy, Precious Name, that He did so. That Christ died such a horrible, painful death for someone as lowly and unworthy as me.

I am not one that cries often. Pretty rarely in fact and those that know me, should they see me with even the hint of a tear are usually surprised. Oh, I do at times, I cried when I lost each parent. I have shed some tears of sorrow and pain. Very rarely, tears of joy. But at this moment, I am CRYING, tears flowing freely down my cheeks. Honestly, I have not cried like this for more years than I can remember. These are a mixture of tears: tears of joy for what a wonderful gift He has given me, Tears of sorrow for what my sins added to His suffering, Tears of thanks for Christ’s gift of redemption.

I have the hymn I sang often as a child running through my mind. The main part that keeps going through my mind is: Oh, the precious blood That flowed from Mercy’s side Washed away my sin When Christ my Savior died Oh, the precious blood Of Christ the crucified It speaks for me before Your throne Where I stand justified
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I think I wish to spend some time now, just Jesus and I having a talk. I thank any and all that have found their way to my blog. Please share if you think it will help someone. I know that if no one else benefits from it. I am. By taking time to use this to help me think I have received so much from it. I have been blessed richly. I do pray that maybe someone else out there will obtain blessings from God from it as well.

I thank God that He has helped me become better in many ways but today I especially thank Him for helping me focus my thoughts more on Him than on my own concerns.

I pray to you my Christ, thanking you for your sacrifice, for shedding your blood, for suffering for me. I praise you for your goodness and mercy. I hope to do my best to glorify your holy name. I ask today, that you help me better know how to seek you, to focus on you and how I can better serve you to in some small way repay the debt you paid. I ask you watch over me, my loved ones, those that have hurt me and those I have hurt. That you protect us all, give us the ability to think with the mind of Jesus, to care with the heart of Christ. I pray that somehow I am able to show you and your loving kindness in my actions today. That you use me to be a blessing to someone. Oh, my sweet Jesus, my precious Savior, I thank you and throw myself at your feet in total surrender today.

That is the prayer I want to share here. I guess part of me is still greedy perhaps. But I do feel that He does want us to spend quiet, alone time with Him also.

Thank you again. I hope He blesses you all today as much as He already has me.

I thank God that He woke me early.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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